Happy Pills

2 hari lepas, ayah book my time to send him for his eyes follow up check up. ayah baru lepas buat cataract surgery so akan ada a few follow ups. the night before, mama messaged me and bagitau tak payah awal sangat sebab nanti kat HUKM sure lambat jugak. 

so pukul 9am aku sampai ke Teratak Nilam and fetched my parents. kitorang breakfast dulu kat restoran mamak. layan la rava tosai mama and aku macam biasa - roti canai garing. sedap jugak, lembut. ayah seperti biasa kalau dah habis makan dulu, dia nak cepat2 gerak 😂

sampai HUKM, i dropped ayah kat HUKM entrance, and my mom and i bergerak ke destinasi seterusnya untuk urusan banking mama. and alhamdulillah sampai kat bank rakyat, one of the polis bantuan helped me to settle kat ATM jer yang dah 2 hari aku try tidak berjaya. by the time siap kat bank rakyat, dah nak pukul 11 lebih. seronok dalam kereta dengan mama ni, time ni lah kiranya i get some quality time with mama. time dia mencurahkan rasa and vice versa. and aku bersyukur and sebak sangat that mama cakap, "ain, do not worry coz i will always be there for you"

i am sorry ma, i will be better, very soon 🤟 gambar sebelah ni masa dah kat HUKM balik - tunggu ayah settle →

kitorang ke Maybank Kg Bahru pulak untuk urusan seterusnya and alhamdulillah ada my friend kerja situ and telah memudahkan urusan jugak. and AA also helped me to settle mama punya MBB2U punya issue. hehehe 🤣bukan apa, biasa lah lupa password & yang seangkatan dengannya. 

by the time dah selesai di Kg Baru, dah dekat lunch time, and since ayah tak settle lagi, we parked our car and tunggu ayah settle. ayah dah lapar, apa lagi, kuat bebel la dia.. tunggu ubat lebih dari 15 patients sebelum dia 😼 abis nak buat camna kan.. sabar je lah. sambil tunggu ayah tu pun aku tanya macamana nak buat appointment untuk joey - hal hidung & lutut dia. kena ada ref letter katanya. 

rasanya kitorang tunggu ayah kejap je.. tak sampai 1 jam pun - kira kejap la tu kan kalau kat HUKM 😋 and bila masuk kereta aku bagi kerepek kat ayah buat snacks sebelum ke destinasi seterusnya ke Grandmamas, Intermark for lunch. 

alhamdulillah masa kat restaurant time lunch, food ayah sampai cepat. dia dah lapar sangat... and lepas makan cepat2 kitorang nak balik... terjumpa pulak sedara. hehehe 😂 

mama happy harini sebab dia kata hari ni hari yang produktif dapat settle banyak benda. alhamdulillah and i was so happy to be with my parents today.. balik, terus terlelap. and this is the lifestyle that i want, the flexibility of time. and insyallah financial freedom is on the way.

my look today - OK tak? 😛

Wonderful Weekend

setiap hari kita kena bersyukur dengan apa yang kita ada. 

• orang tak appreciate kita pun tak pe, sebab antara orang2 lain ada yang lebih menghargai kita. 
• orang tak sayang kita pun tak pe, dalam kita tak sedar ada orang lain yang sayang dengan kita. 

let's see what i can be grateful about this weekend. 

last saturday, N3 decided to belanja us chinese food at chopstick, ttdi. N3 belanja sebab nak sama2 juga doa sikit for her husband yang akan start kerja soon. alhamdulillah semoga dia akan dapat rezeki lagi melimpah ruah - tempias kat kakak dia ni. buat masa ni, i tak de rasa nak buat review betul2 lagi, so you all boleh click kat link tu and go have a taste for yourself. sedap semua makanan dia, memang kenyang cuma macam ada yang kurang - apa ye, maybe tak pedas.. hahaha 😁but alhamdulillah syukur sangat. i drove both of my parents there lepas tu, dapat parking betul2 kat depan restaurant. so senang lah ayah and mama nak jalan, dekat je. 

tofu

butter prawn

nestum prawn

and next was, pergi wedding. memang nak sangat pergi wedding ni sebab exmalakoff colleague yang jemput. dah lama tak jumpa kawan2 dari office kan. masa pergi pun dapat jumpa a few. alhamdulillah syukur, masih ada yang kenal. cuma i missed the swordbearers masuk, i memang suka orang2 yang beruniform ni. teringat pulak masa reception i dengan TH tahun lepas.. eh.. 😍 and best sebab dapat pergi dengan mama. mama ni kalau ajak pergi mana2 jalan2 memang dia suka. hehehe 😁 ayah tak nak ikut sebab nak siapkan kereta dia katanya. so dating lah berdua dengan mama. sambil2 tu dengar la curhat mama dalam kereta. 

happy dapat pakai balik kebaya shanelharun yang dah bertahun ketat!

and today is santai day, tapi i decided lepas subuh tak nak tido. so lepak lah dengan mischa yang minta attention ni. ingatkan dia tido dalam bilik, aleh2 bila i baring kat sofa dia terus datang dok helok je atas i. tapi jangan tak tahu ye... pagi tadi dia dah bagi hadiah taik dia atas tilam dia! just because i did not clean her litter bekas dia kencing dah 2 kali. ye, si mischa ni kalau litter dia kotor, dia takkan membuang dalam tu. so memang kena clean litter dia 2 kali sehari. 

renungan my baby yang tajam!

how was your weekend? jawab lah kat comment

Ruma Puteh - My Personal Review

Simpan sini #creatingmemories. Kisah berminggu lepas, selepas hantar ayah pergi booster jab. Ayah ni memang kelakar, masa observation 10min, kat clinic tu ada free mineral water, so ayah ambil every bottle siap serve all patients yang tengah duduk for observation.

Selepas settle tu, bawa ayah & mama try a new place for for early lunch. Sedap lah the food, a bit pricey for some. Ambience menarik. Cuma parking agak mencabar. The waitress was very helpful, on her 1st day of work! Sorry I forgot her name. And because we don't eat much, we ordered 2 kind of dish and share 3 orang, itu pun tak habis.

• date of visit: 7 December 2021
• location: Ruma Puteh, Titiwangsa
• place & decor: nice, cosy, cantek.. insta ready..
• cleanliness: 9 out of 10
• restaurant service: friendly and service was quite fast. the waitress was really friendly and took us for a tour.
• food: semua sedap. we ordered 2 meals and shared 3 orang, portion banyak!
• price: it is pricey but ok lah.

my heaven: ayahanda & bonda

Check out my 2nd review after 2nd visit

Al Fatihah Buat Mok

Was awaken by sad news this morning, Mok, Lisa & Joey's grandmother has met her Creator. Semoga Mok tenang di sana & di tempatkan bersama² orang² yang beriman. 

Al fatihah 🙏

A loving MIL and grandmom to my kids that I had for 9 years. She taught me what nasi goreng budu was and it has become my request all the time whenever I went back to Kelantan then. Rehatlah Mok. I love you.

Joey saw me crying on my bed this morning, as he entered my room.
Joey: Ma.. have you heard the news?
Me: Yes.. **and cant stop from being teary**
Joey: Ma.. are you ok?
Me: **i looked at him and i cried more** 😭
Joey: **confused**
Me: I am sad
Joey: How did you hear about it?
Me: Lisa updated in the group chat
Joey: Oh ok..I have not read that one. I got from the group chat with Daddy.
Me: ahh ok.. I don't know Joey, I am sad.
Joey: Yeah.. i know
Me: Despite what happened, I loved both of them, Mok and Ayoh. And I have always been thinking about Mok too lately.
Joey: yeah.. 😪

and even while typing this.. I still have tears in my eyes. Mesti Joey mcm pelik why I cried so bad coz it has been years that his dad and I are divorced, since 2005. Just that dulu, I really loved my PIL like my own parents. And when I was at the kitchen with Mok, I can talk to her like with my own mom.. cuma bila loghat Kelantan tu pekat I had to guess and Mok jenis tak banyak ckp sangat, she was more expressive with gestures and the smile on her face.

Ayoh & Mok built a new bathroom in their house for us just because I am not used to jamban cangkung 😂

Allahuakbar.. sedih pulak menyusahkan diorang..but then again.. yeah those were the sweet memories. 🙈

I tried looking for our old photos together but.. stopped half way coz, some memories are too hard for me to korek balik. 

My son was so thoughtful this morning 😍
#MokDalamMemori

Allahyarhamah Cikgu Kalsom with my 2 children

My Dad - SuperDad & SuperAtok

getting into the trend, or the wave of celebrating fathers' day this year. the new norm bak kata orang. i want to share with you about my dad. everyone will have something nice to say about their dads and their dads are their superheroes. so is my dad. but this year, my dad did something unthinkable by all of us. but tak pelik because my dad is like that. he doesn't speak/talk much, but he shows his love in his actions.

so, this year due to the pandemic, the pool is closed, since june 1st. and his drama queen pinay cucu had a tantrum. bukan orang tua je stress, sebenarnya kanak2 pun stress sebab they cannot go out and do outdoor activities like always. so, guess what atok dia buat?

taraa!! atok bought instant pool!

pool tak berapa tegak tepi dia sebab tak betul pasang

yayee jadik lifeguard

7 Hari Mencintaimu

tak lah bermakna hari2 lain tak cinta. cinta je.. hahahaa 😂 so, from 27 Apr to 3 May 2021 i was in tawau, Sabah to be with TH. macam2 TH warning kat aku, takut sangat aku tak selesa kalau ada kat tawau. and sambil menyelam minum air. which what i did was to also get to know new people. 

masa baru sampai.. sengih sampai telinga

kat sana memang most of the time kat dalam bilik sebab suasana kat tawau still dalam pkp and ada pkpd etc. it was so convenience that kat sana ada wifey yang terrer masak which was for buka puasa. semua sedap2 yang dia masak. and other than that TH showed me one of the western restaurant yang famous antara diorang, pun sedap the food and dalam menu dia memang banyak gila. daripada western, to local asian food. duduk tawau 1 minggu, berat naik 1 kg weh.. hahaha 😁

for a few mornings, i did live on instagram to share with my followers and non followers on kebaikan our products for beauty. sebab belah pagi TH akan pergi kerja pun. and at times he will be with me and pusing2 kat kawasan tawau tu. memang tidak membangun sangat lah, masih seperti era 90s i would say. 

Day 3 kat hotel ni

and hotel yang kami duduk, ada 2, Royale Borneo & LA Hotel. we were scouting a few other hotels tapi tak meet expectation. next time i will do review on Royale Borneo - i find it the most modern hotel yang ada kat tawau ni walaupun cuma 3 stars, but still much much better than the rest. 

bila dengan TH ni memang rasa sekejap sangat, tau2 dah 7 hari?? and TH pun busy jugak kerja towards the end tu. which i am ok with that, ye lah, gi visit dia tapi tak leh la kacau jadual harian dia jugak kan. both of as LDR couple bukan mudah - tapi ada juga yang memudahkan. macamana nak cakap eh.. both of our life ni memang need independent partners. tak boleh nak clingy sangat sebab dah memang nature of our life gitu. sekali sekala manja2 tu ok tapi tu la. and ada jugak orang2 yang mempertikaikan that as a wife aku tak jalankan tanggungjawab aku yang sepatutnya to be di sisi suami. tapi aku tak kisah pun, sebab macam lantak pi la. korang memang tau nak komen pasal rumahtangga orang lain je kan?

buka puasa last day.. fuhhh

ada ke suami isteri yang sengaja nak pisah2 dengan pasangan masing2? tak de kan? suka sangat nak komen2 and sibuk2 kan. but then again...alaahh netizen..hahaha 😄walaupun yang komen tu kengkawan sendiri. 

No expectation, bila sampai sana, rasa macam kat Jogja pun ada. And the airport macam kat Airport Bandung sebelum renovate  Chill² je, pada yang shopaholic, tawau is not the place for you. orang tawau sendiri yang dah lama duduk KL, bila balik tawau pun boleh mati kutu.

 
Lesson learnt:
Jangan bawa hand carry yang berat sebab turun naik tangga manual.
Kat airport pun turun naik tangga, tak ada lift or escalator time arrival.
Hotel review, tunggu i update blog ya.
Kalau masuk Sabah pakai IC, make sure simpan resit masuk from Immigration, coz they need it back masa nak keluar dari Sabah.
Best is, pakai passport, sebab dah terus chop situ, risiko resit hilang lebih rendah (nasihat dari yg berpengalaman)

kat airport ni... macam tak bagi balik je

see you again in 9 days

Our Beautiful Wedding Reception

Finally after waiting for a year, and numerous times wanting to cancel our reception, we get to have it. I must say that I am so grateful, alhamdulillah that we were granted this beautiful wedding reception. And I am also thankful to TH who have been supporting me in getting what I wished for and many more.

• Intimate wedding - only those who matters were invited and came.
• My dream designer to design my wedding dress
• Sword bearers & Bagpipes
• Bride maids with the same material
• Singing
• Dancing
• Garden wedding

For now, I am not in the full mood to elaborate - maybe some day I will add to this posting. Meanwhile, enjoy my YouTube channel. 

I had to revise my guests list due to the circumstances. It was really up close and personal. Love every one who came. Thank you to those who made it and celebrated with us, thank you for your time and gifts too. For those who were not invited but knew about our celebration, we hope you understand and with will continue praying for our happiness till Jannah. 

Platonic Relationship Opposite Gender

haaa macam complicated je tajuk posting kali ni kan? well i am supposed to sambung day 2 of my tioman trip but tak pe, iklan dulu dengan posting ni, ok?

aku dah terjebak nonton movie indo, dah 2 kali. terrr sebenarnya tapi best jugak. cuma i noticed that movie indo ni suka benor buat kisah relationship yang asalnya good friends or close friends aleh2 jadi a couple. dulu aku ni kuat menyangkal that kalau man and woman rapat akan ada special relationship in the end. but thru these 2 movies, end up kawin or they fall in love. 

pastu aku teringat pulak pasal aku dengan AH. kitorang pun pada asalnya kawan jer. i tell him stories about my life and he tells me his mine. but then again, pasal AH, he is more of a listener than talker. but masa dulu kitorang mula2 kawan tak de la he treats me as special pun. i am just one of his female friends yang dia akan connect bila dia ada line. 

so anyway, what do you say? betul ke kalau lelaki & perempuan tak boleh jadi best friend? and aku teringat jugak antara aku dgn AA, kitorang karoks buddy dah bertahun dah, ok je. he has his own life and love and so do i. hmmm 

aku nangis tengok citer ni.. adeh.. but so sweet

aku suka laki watak Bimo tu, handsome doe..

Joey and I ❤

I would like to continue having fresh postings as much as possible.. so here goes

Kisah pagi ni, Joey drove me to the hosp for a check up.

Me: joey balik nnt singgah drive thru mc d

Joey: ok ma, yg mana?

Me: tak kisah la mana2

Joey: ok yg kat petronas tu

Me: boley

Spi Mc D

Me: Joey orderkan mama bfast set dgn bubur nasi for lunch

Joey: Ok. Joey nak bfast set

Dah spi counter bayar..

Me: Joey bukan puasa ke today?

Joey: eh haah lah Joey puasa

Me: tu mama pelik Joey order

Spi rumah

Joey: mama, joey punya masukkan dlm fridge lah

Me: oh.. joey puasa la ni

Joey: Ye... *sambil masuk bilik, tutup pintu

🤭 alhamdulillah

Tak Ada Cinta Sepertimu - My Personal Review

cannot remember macamana terjumpa drama ni. dah bosan layan netflix sebenarnya and terasa macam movie2 kat netflix tak de yang ringan2 and cintan2 sweet. so entah macamana terjumpa drama ni. yang membuatkan aku tertarik nak tengok sebab pelakon wanita utama dia. suka tengok zahirah mac wilson. so cantek. macam perfect muka dia. and another one pelakon lelaki utama dia, syafiq kyle. 

somehow dah lama tak tengok drama melayu, somehow aku tak boleh nak predict sangat jalan cerita dia. how they met kat super market and bila athea (watak zahirah) on the phone mentioning 'mama', i was like... laaa baru ingat boleh fall in love, bini orang ke? but towards in the middle of the drama, semakin menarik. zahirah berlakon memang so bersahaja. 

and syafiq, as hazran. i think the drama yang aku ingat pasal syafiq is when he became an ustaz. so aku kena adjust sikit my imagination dalam drama Tak Ada Cinta Sepertimu ni. and sebab sekarang ni pun AH tengah berlayar, aku start la imagine cara percakapan hazran tu lagi buat aku rindu kat AH. 

and during time AH had a break 1 day, aku pun cerita.. and i told him that hazran and athea reminds me of us. athea tu orangnya keras tapi sebenarnya ada hati dia lembut kat dalam. and hazran tu macam sabar je. 

just that one thing yang aku tak setuju dalam drama tu, si hazran dah bertunang, boleh lagi berdua2an dengan athea which walaupun jiran - but boleh jadi rapat eventually. so agak bahaya di situ.. although memang sebenarnya aku geram dengan tunang si hazran tu ngada2. and dia pun pi bagi muka kat boss dia. 

i guess moral or the story, kalau dengan perempuan - they want attention and kalau dengan lelaki, jangan nak ngada2 sangat sebab mana la tau, lelaki ni depan lain kat belakang kang jadi lain. so, better bersederhana and berpatutan. ha gitu.. heheh aku rasa lah kan. aku pun bukan la pro pasal relationship. ni sebab layan drama tu je.

and character mak si hazran tu best and ayah hazran pun cool je. haa baru la best husband and wife macam tu kan. but the part yang dia menyamar tu - korang rasa kalau korang kat tempat athea, korang marah tak?

anyway ini drama tahun 2018 kut. aku ni memang suka korek2 drama lama. kesimpulan dia, drama ni best layan coz it is not so heavy and sweet2 banget gitu.. pelakon2 pun semua best2.

Apr 6, 2020

don't ask me what day is it already to be home. i have lost count of the day. the only days that i am counting right now are the days that i can be in contact again with AH. he is away at work on a special mission. selalu kalau AH berlayar pun tak de la lama macam ni. paling2 pun rasanya 9 hari kut. itu pun in between days dapat jugak line sebab maybe kapal dia ronda dekat dengan pantai. so dapat la hilang rindu, kan. 

tapi kali ni memang lama, sebulan lebih. ko rasa? haaa... kan.. dah la baru kawen katanya 😋 tettt... ihik... sabar sabar.. bukan apa. he was at rumah atas angin since 17 mac, sebab masa tu aku breakdown teruk. ye la.. sedih tu tak lah sangat pasal banyak changes kena buat pasal wedding kitorang. aku lebih sedih bila darah daging sendiri cakap tak kira perasaan aku and tuduh aku macam2. so aku nak ngadu kat sape kesedihan aku kan. kat AH la.. and then knowing AH, dia tak boleh kalau dengar or tahu aku sedih sangat. so aku rasa hari isnin malam, 16th tu dia dah turun KL tapi lewat and he booked a hotel near rumah aku. part macam ni la aku appreciate sangat AH coz he is sensitive about what i am feeling or most of the time dia boleh rasa apa yang aku rasa walaupun aku cuba jugak nak hide dari dia sebab tak nak lah kang dia ingat aku mengada2. kan? hehehe 😁but on a serious note aku memang sedih tahap gaban masa tuh. aku type ni pun tersedu2 dok ingat. 

anyway, semalam whole day aku dapat la hantar2 message kat AH. memang rasa tenang and happy je. and we video called for an hour. dok borak2, and sebab macam baru sangatkan, macam tak percaya pun ada jugak that akhirnya Allah tunaikan doa kami to be husband and wife. alhamdulillah syukur sangat and insyaallah we will be the best spouse to each other - before that, we must build a better and stronger relationship with Allah swt, our Creator. insyaallah

so bila sampai time malam, time dia ada kerja, aku pun sambung buat kerja aku.. and one thing about mature relationship, we understand each other's responsibilities. so tak de la nak merengek2 kalau any one of us busy for each other. and we both understand that no matter what, insyallah we still think of each other. 

aku teringat time AH ada kat rumah and Joey pun kat rumah, seboleh2nya aku ajak semua solat jemaah sama2. insyallah one fine day Lisa will join too. Ibu rajin tanya kalau anak2 aku terima AH dalam our life live. All i can say is, i have understanding children, and plus masing2 dah besar, they will eventually leave me to have their own family. except that joey selalu ingatkan aku, "kan Joey dah bagitau mama, joey akan jaga mama" yes, i have a sweet son lik-dat 😀. insyaallah semoga ada yang jaga aku nanti - bukan berharap tapi berdoa the best for all of us. pasal penerimaan Lisa, aku tak boleh nak jawab on behalf of her. i would understand kalau dia rasa awkward cuma aku selalu berdoa kat Allah supaya satukan hati kami semua sekeluarga. and Joey pun selalu cakap dengan aku, "kenapa kita kena biarkan perkara2 lama menghantui hidup kita & mengganggu proses kita untuk kehidupan baru and move on" a mature thinking for someone his age. and this is my principle for a long time. bukan aku tak ambik kisah perasaan orang lain. but at times, macamana kita explain pun - people will accept what they want to think. 

AH i miss you so much.. but sempat lah dia whatsapp kan gambar2 kitorang sama2 yang aku pun tak ingat bila dia snap.. hahaha 😁🙈we didn't really get to say goodbye before your vessel went on the move again. i will always pray for your safety and your team. love you 😘

Gratitude

i have many things to be thankful for, despite having to stay home due to the outbreak. and tonight since i cannot sleep, i'd like to list them here. #alhamdulillah for the following: 

1. Lisa decided to graduate 1 semester earlier, or i will be worried like hell if she is still in the US. 
2. Lisa get to have her graduation, coz looking at the situation in the US right now, don't think there will be any graduation ceremony anywhere.
3. Joey is with me at home and i do not have to worry about him having enough food, or if he eats right, or if he is healthy etc.
4. I am no longer an employee coz at least during MCO, i can do whatever i want during the day and do not have to think about office.
5. I get to cook everyday and polish back my cooking skills.
6. My nikah is a very simple occasion and there was only 20 people or less attended, very intimate event.
7. Having a husband who can be my Imam during prayers. 
8. Although Lisa's room is still in a very bad shape, at least i have a place to live in.
9. Such a loving baby gurl name Mischa who will be with me all the time.
10. I am still breathing - all my family members are safe at home and healthy #alhamdulillah sangat.
11. Insyaallah masih ada cash to survive.
12. Two independent children and i do not have to worry about what to do with kids at home 😅 

Our Story - #hadiainstory

hi everyone. alhamdulillah we have already tied the knot on mac 20, 2020. due to covid 19, we had to postpone our wedding reception. i started a private group on FB with the idea of sharing our moments live online. but somehow it was stopped by N4 who is worried that it might get out of hand ie gambar tersebar ke, video jadi viral sebab nikah time covid ke.. ha benda2 macam tu lah. ini pun entah macamana a picture of us dah sampai ke tangan a family friend. 

i had a very bad breakdown a few days before our solemnization. a lot of things, plans, needed to be changed. movements pun restricted. so the day before my malam berinai - which bukan la event sangat pun, i just wanted to pakai inai thats all. my mata was so bengkak. 

so anyway, to cut story short, our solemnization was attended by only 20 pax because that was the permit given by the committee at my parents' place. and the process should be done within 30 minutes. my 2 younger sisters did not come to give way to others, lisa did not come because she had to quarantine herself due to a positive case at her condo. so we had our solemnization via video call. 

anyway, ada jugak among my friends yang tanya.. senyap2 je tiba2 nak kahwin dah.. or dah kahwin dah. ye la babe, takkan nak pukul canang sebelum apa2 confirm. kan? and plus semua ni aturan Allah. jodoh pertemuan tu semua kat tangan Dia. 

again sebenarnya aku tak tahu arah mana tujuan posting aku ni. cuma just nak bagitau, aku dalam process nak update the labels on my postings to add #hadiainstory sebab kalau orang tanya since bila, yang aku tau, kitorang jumpa on in sept 2018. and we were friends dulu, most of the time we chat. and i guess - just go with the flow. i keep on thinking - takkan kut coz aku pun tak terfikir akan kahwin lagi, at this age... ihik.. 😝 but like i said, semua ni aturan Allah. Dia nak ada orang jaga aku, so aku terima, semoga ia berkekalan. 

so yeah.. lepas ni korang boleh search ikut label #hadiainstory which i also have it in my ig for that hashtag. 

Hari2 Tanpa Malakoff

after coming to the 3rd week upon early retirement, i am still in my relaxing mode. dont have to rush to go to work and at times lazying at home. although to be honest, i have so many things lining up. ada lah jugak terfikir2 pasal office. team aku ok ke tak, of which i am sure diorang ok jer. it will be just another day at work. 

aku rasa sampai aku kena categorize kan apa yang perlu aku buat sebab banyak sebenarnya cuma aku belum dapat susun sangat my new way of life. aku cakap dengan AH last week, aku banyak nak buat. and macam biasa he will ask and see if there is anything that he can help with. kesian jugak AH sebab for the past few weeks dia asyik kena marah je dengan aku. somehow he is the one who keeps on apologizing. i really should jaga my temper which seems to be appearing quite often. not forgetting my migraine yang sekarang ni every 2 days aku kena attack. and bila kena tu memang sakit gila rasa nak terkeluar biji mata. 

AH took some time off to be in KL to settle a few of our stuff. yang kali ni memang aku manja and dont feel like doing anything and berharap AH buatkan untuk kitorang for all the process. ye, aku penat tapi tak bermakna i am not excited about it. aku penat sebab aku ada banyak benda lain yang perlu aku uruskan. yes we are getting hitched soon. real soon. 💘 and aku tau ada je orang2 yang kat luar sana tak akan gembira dengan berita kitorang ni for whatever reasons. but you know what, jodoh itu pun kan rahsia Allah. aku terima dengan hati terbuka and redha dengan His decision for me. 

time sekarang ni dah pukul 1.45am and aku sebenarnya banyak lagi nak tulis tapi macam tak sesuai kat posting ni. come back real soon ok!

Lelakimu Yang Dulu

after tengok drama kamal adli dulu, aku tak de lagi tersangkut apa2 drama. terasa kosong jugak hidup aku. hahaha 😁 but somehow bila aku dok masuk youtube, asyik keluar je drama ni. after so many days, akhirnya aku pun terpanggil nak tengok. mula2 tu tengok nelydia berlakon macam tak berapa best. maybe sebab aku dah pernah tengok uqasha. patut aku tak leh compare tapi terrr compare jugak. sorry lah ye. but after a few episodes, dah boleh terima lah nelydia ni berlakon. less manja than uqasha but ok lah. and since dulu pernah kut sharnaaz berlakun dengan ayda jebat, aku dah tak de peluang nak tengok sharnaaz berlakon lagi. dah lama tak terjebak kan? tapi bab berpasangan memang sharnaaz real lah berlakon... kalau aku suami si nelydia tu, memang confirm jealous. 

aku tengok watak idlan aku jadi penat. ada ke orang macam tu. and owhh the sister si faiqa tuh pun macam tu. letih aku. tapi yang peliknya aku layan jugak kan. ini la penangan drama melayu. and another pelakon, redza rosli, somehow i felt like cara dia berlakon macam beriyer sangat and i think once upon a time ada orang compare dia dengan sharnaaz, but now when both of them are in the same drama, sharnaaz seems cooler. 

aku ni review drama ke pelakon drama sebenarnya? hehehe aku pun konpius... tak pe lah, kalau korang nak layan, boleh lagi search kat youtube tu. 

Welcome to Uni Life

i still prefer his hair botak 😀
all the best adik... belajar rajin2 okay. 

The day has come that now, my son is registering for his Degree progamme. rasa macam cepat sangat masa berlalu. i always have confidence and faith in my 2 kids. alhamdulillah, they grow up to be good children - challenges in bringing them up and understanding them tu perkara biasa. each time aku ada challenge, i will look back at my own childhood. was i like that before? sebab orang tua2 kata, anak2 kita sedikit sebanyak akan ambik perangai kita jugak. i always pray to Allah that apa2 pun yang turun kat anak2 aku, biarlah benda2 yang baik2 jer. 

joey dalam part senyap dia, memberontak dia, cara study dia, memang banyak ikut aku. aku tau dia bijak (macam aku 😜 #silajanganmuntah) tapi sikap malas tu kuat masa dia kat high school, atau mungkin he has internal issues yang time tu aku pun susah nak get to him. and lagi satu ikut perangai aku adalah --> selalu buat last minute. adehhh... but anyhow, alhamdulillah since dia dah masuk college for his foundation last year, memang banyak sangat improvement in terms of his studies. and aku selalu doa supaya anak2 aku jadi anak2 yang soleh and solehah, and cemerlang in their studies supaya berguna di dunia and akhirat. aamiin... 

last weekend AH balik KL and memang dah bagitahu dia yang aku akan busy dengan registration joey and also wedding one of my staff kat office. so, dia kena ikut je lah activity aku tu. well, kalau ada anak macam ni lah kan, so consider it practise. tetttt.. 😜 

we arrived at Cyber Uni dalam pukul 11am. amazed jugak joey dah sampai awal2. sangat bagus perubahan anak teruna aku ni. semoga istiqomah, orang kata ekk.. so, my task was just to sign off on his registration. and comment yang aku terima, 

reg: ini mama ilham ke?

joey: ya

reg: mudanya nampak mama ilham

me: **senyum je** thank you

reg: anak sulung puan ke?

me: tak, ini anak bongsu

reg: owhh.. muda nampak..

time ni nak je aku bagitau - nak nampak muda, amalkan lah ageLOC! 😎

anyway, dah settle tu, kitorang went to the hall and dengar welcome speech and after that joey ajak pergi lunch kat alcea cafe where he used to work masa habis foundation. sekarang stop kejap to settle for his classes dulu. mula2 aku masuk kat cafe tu memang terpegun sebab cantik decor dia, and memang taste aku lah. kalau nak tau review cafe ni, korang boleh baca my posting on review ya. 

time ni tengah layan briefing

dah habis makan, we proceed to the wedding pulak. sekarang ni macam2 tempat orang buat wedding. and this place aqua hall kat bangi, kalau tak sebab wedding Z, aku pun tak tau wujudnya tempat ni. meriah betul wedding dia, siap ada performance and the emcee pun pot pet celoteh dia. start lah aku berangan, tapi aku rasa wedding aku nanti tak la besar macam tu... kecil kecilan je dah lah... cheywahh 😎 and disebabkan aku dah lunch kat cafe tadi, bila sampai kat tempat wedding, kitorang jamah dessert sahaja. sedap pulak bubur kacang hitam tu... sluurpp.. 

dah settle with joey's registration and wedding, next kita pergi dengar talk on business and ho wto earn passive income pulak and this time brought to us by Dr Sugeng, a successful entrepreneur from Pekan Baru, Indonesia. till my next posting okay!