Learning to See Myself Through Their Eyes ❤️

I tend to feel that I am not good enough… sometimes even to myself.

But when I look back, I realise something.

So many people have seen a better version of me even before I was able to see her myself.

I’ve been blessed to have people in my life who noticed my progress, my strengths, my potential and even the things I didn’t realise I had in me.

I will always be thankful to one of my ex-bosses, who saw what I had contributed to the company. He saw the progress I had made, the improvements I brought to the organisation, and reminded me that I actually had more talents in me than I gave myself credit for.

I’m thankful for my business mentors too, including my younger sister, who sometimes believes in me more than I believe in myself. They sees my potential in the business and reminds me that what I do has actually helped people become better versions of themselves.

I’m thankful for my coaches, who saw potential in me as a coach — someone who could help other people discover their own potential, open up possibilities for themselves, and find their way forward.

And I’m especially thankful for my son.

He has seen me become a better person and, I think, a better listener too. I know I’m still not always good with words, and sometimes I struggle to convey what I really mean in the right way. 😂 But he notices the changes in me.

He has acknowledged and recognised that I have become happier, more productive and more positive after going through my own struggles.

And coming from my son, that means a lot to me.

Because he has seen parts of me that not everyone gets to see. He has seen me struggle, figure things out, fall short, try again and slowly become a different version of myself.

Then there is my husband.

He believes in me and supports what I do, whether I believe in myself or not. ❤️ And he has also told me that he is thankful for the way I supported him when he needed someone to believe in him.

And that one really made me stop and think.

Wow… I didn’t realise I could have that kind of impact on someone else.

Maybe that’s something I need to learn to see in myself too.

Maybe I have been so busy looking at what I haven’t achieved yet, what I could have done better, and where I think I’m still lacking…

…that I sometimes forget to look at how far I’ve actually come.

I may not always believe that I am good enough.

But the people who have walked alongside me seem to see something different.

They see someone who has grown.

Someone who has changed.

Someone who has become happier, more positive and more aware of herself.

Someone who has something to give.

Someone who can make a difference in other people's lives.

And maybe… just maybe…

it’s time I start believing in the person they already see in me. 🥹❤️

This is definitely not the complete list. 😂 There are so many people who have played a part in my journey, and I realised while writing this that I probably need a Part II… and maybe Part III! ❤️

Absentia on Netflix

We found this drama on netflix. To summarize it, started of with an FBI agent husband lost his wife who is also an FBI agent. She dissappeared while on duty. They have a 1year old boy at that time. 6 years later, the husband got a call in the middle of the night from someone claiming to know where his wife was. But he has remarried and their son knows his new wife as his only mom. The husband ran out to the said location with backup of police and found his wife whom he and everybody thought has died.

This sparks a conversation with Tuan. 😂

Me: Syg kalau benda ni jadi kat you macamana you buat?

Him: Ha susah jugak tu.. dua² ada

Me: Tu la kan. So kalau you kalau I lah yg hilang tu, yang mana you pilih?

Him: 🤣🤣 ah hahaha I tak nak jawab soalan you. Ini trap question namanya!

Me: 😂😂 alaa 

Him: aaah no no no.. tau dah you tu

Idriz Bday Party

N4 booked an airbnb homestay for idriz 7th bday party. Theme was pakai askar.. homestay memang best, spacious, byk bilik and memang idriz happy lah. 

And our cucu was there too. Kalau dgn sm mmg half day tu tak puas. I get to hold him lama today. He slept in my arms for about 45minutes.

We were at the party from 2.25pm until 6.45pm sebab ada meeting to attend. Tunggu la nanti kalau dah dapat gambar bday boy lagi, i will update this posting. 

And ohh seperti biasa N1 and her durians.. beli sampai 3 pack besar.. tapi dia makan sikit 😆 alhamdulillah thank you belanja durian.

Last Therapy Session

today is my last therapy session at HUKM. i was sad because i felt that this is the time that i can actually share my inner feelings/emotions without being judged. i find that this time, the therapy session was structured well, with goals, actions, follow up and reflections. and at the same time she also received some new lessons from me - we learned from each other. love the part that she summarized what we have gone through for the past 10 sessions together and i used gemini to make it look nicer for me to refer to some day. 

Short Break

We havent been really on holiday..of our own. Too much thinking of monthly fixed expenses. Hubby took leave until Wednesday after knowing about his dad who got admitted to the hospital. Alhamdulillah it was nothing serious.

I was thinking this would be a good opportunity to be out of our norm, our home area and just chill. I tried to reconnect with my zumba kaki of 10 years. Was a good catch up although yeah I did put up like more than 15kg 😂 plus point is, I look young 😍

After tea time, told hubby that I want to go to the beach, Teluk Chempedak. He just fulfilled my wish. I think somehow in his mind, he needed the break too, I guess. 

Nothing much at TC beach.. it was clean, short beach and very windy. There isn't a nice place for us to have dinner. Anak² muda and family with kids adalah a few. 

 

We were still scouting for a hotel to stay that night. After comparing prices, hubby decided on Red Hotel. Refurbished hotel, used to be City View.. if I can still remember 😅 The lobby was neat and nice. Decor rasa macam kat negara arab pulak. 

Terus check in after dinner and just santai.. tv pun tak ada channel yang best. I think next time jalan² kena bawak hdmi cable. At least boleh layan Netflix pakai laptop kan.

The next morning we had late breakfast and drive up to GPO on the way back.. sebab kira lalu lah kan. Cuma didn't find anything that we needed. I was looking for Hush Puppies slippers and/or baggy jeans.. nampak sangat Allah swt kata jgn membazir. 

We just had tea at the Kopitiam before headed home. Hubby had another day off to rest. Hehhehe nasib baik kita tak check in kat Genting that night 😂 apa² pun, thank you hubby for the time and jalan²... love you ❤️

Weekend Surprise

We were supposed to go to my cousin's son's wedding when suddenly hubby said that cancel the plan coz he needs to go to Kuantan. So i thought it was an emergency work thingy..when it was actually his father, was admitted to the hospital.

So I said "ok we go Kuantan. How many days should we pack for?" 

"3 days" he said. We did a pit stop to meet up with my new tenant. Yes alhamdulillah we have a new tenant for my apartment. Then after lunch we proceed to Kuantan. We wanted to arrive just in time for visiting hours.

Alhamdulillah, it wasn't serious. My father in law had high bp due to his stomach pain. At first they suspected heart attack. 

So we were there for the discharge processes. And check in for a night at the hotel in Kuantan to rest. The next day we send my father in law to Pondok Warga Emas Nur Iman for his stay there. He registered himself there to make new friends and re-learn Quran reciting.

Sri Ayu Apartment Setiawangsa - For Rent

wow, betul2 bersawang blog aku ni. sorry gais, memang tak de mood nak tulis apa2. nak share activities pun macam.. meh... 2025 has been just another year older. nothing interesting happens this year but, of course i am totally grateful for what Allah swt has put on my plate. 

so hmmm what do i blog about today? tak pe la next time i tulis.. sekarang sekadar nak masukkan something hahah supaya you all tak lupa that i exist! 😃

i have been active on threads nowadays, maybe thats why tak blog kut.. i am grateful today that i woke up alive. alhamdulillah. had a late breakfast - sebenarnya dah pukul 1pm pun.. tak sedar. lepas tu terus pergi 5Paws to do some work. and oh ye.. my apartment in Setiawangsa is up for rent ya in Jan 2026. 

Since I tak de photos baru.. these are some of the old photos that I have in my phone. Details boleh check sini