Joey's Grad Photoshoot at Suafoto, Wangsa Maju

i love photoshoots, and the last minute thingy end up with us having fun at Suafoto, Wangsa Maju. i wanted to have KalamsClan photoshoot just like what we had for Lisa. But again to get everyone, not as easy, and Joey was telling me, the photos that we took on the day of graduation were good enough. i was a bit frustrated but it's okay. my kids are all grown up. not everything that a mom would want aligns with what they want. so yeah.. i make peace 😂 i am grinning as i type this.. macam mengada je sedihnya kan.

anyway, suddenly last night joey texted me and asked, 

"mama nak photoshoot? i woke up late and i still have not returned my robe yet" 

dengan sepantas kilat i answered his text,

"nak!!!"

so, i found this place, when i was searching for photoshoot near me. not bad jugak and it wasn't expensive. we took the lowest package, ingatkan tak cukup masa, but end up cukup je with 65 photos. seronok jugak and might wanna go there again someday. 

we were given a room with all the photography facilities, and we were given the remote to control the camera. next time can do better la sebab cara nak click remote tu pun ada cara supaya gambar sharper, tak de la waste time and photos. kiranya it focus better lah, macam tu.

so inilah some of the photos we took 💗

Congrats Joey!! 14th Convo Ceremony - Uni of Cyberjaya

hari yang di nanti2, alhamdulillah so happy when joey [Degree in Psychology] finally informed us his graduation date. we had to organise with his dad in seating arrangement, macam biasa lah, kat malaysia ni seats akan dapat 2 sahaja. so TH dgn KK sat in the guest room to watch live online. 

seperti biasa juga, my parents do not want to miss this special moment to celebrate with their grandson. joey terharu tengok nenek datang juga sampai menangis. and that night we had our family dinner to celebrate joey's graduation at Rebung 2, Putrajaya. was a good decision, tempat spacious, choice of food banyak, and selesa untuk warga emas juga. alhamdulillah. we booked 2 tables memang cukup for all of us. 

kalau nak share semua gambar2 sini memang jadi albumlah blog i, so kita choose the best ye. congrats joey, mama is so proud of your determination despite lots of things happening in your life. love you! 

semoga lebih success in the future selama-lamanya. insyaallah, ameen

Grateful

there are a lot of things to be grateful for. alhamdulillah, Allah answers to my prayers. memang betul lah, Allah akan berikan pada hambanya apa yang hambaNya perlukan bila tiba masanya. banyak perkara yang aku patut bersyukur, about my son, my husband, our home, my daughter. thank you Allah for the granted prayers.

• my son, Joey has finally submitted his FYP and his graduation ceremony will be in October or November 2024 - alhamdulillah syukur  - Degree in Psychology.
• Tuan has completed his pilot training and alhamdulillah he is officially a pilot for APMM effective oct 2024. may Allah keeps him safe all the time in his duty.
• We finally finished our home renovation in SP and completed ground floor and comfortable enough to stay/live in.
• my daughter, Lisa and i have something in common is sports --> netball, yey!

Allahuakbar - syukur sangat2. am so happy. and now, to actually decide if/when we will be living in SP fully 😋

Welcome Back to Semenanjung - 19 Feb 2023

the week that i was in Tawau, TH got a formal message from HQ that he is to report duty at HQ on Feb 20, 2023. as much as i am happy that he is being transferred back to Semenanjung, it did disturb my planned schedule. Joey was supposed to have his knee surgery and it made me, again, had the hard decision to make. so anyway, did called Joey and asked - not that i know he was going to be upset coz to kids (no matter how adult they think they are), they will still feel being an option - not priority. if only they would understand, sometimes, parents need to make the hard decision. and all i did was to make the best of all situation and having to be at both places at the same time. Allah answered my prayers that i get to be at both places to be with my love ones. nak marah, marah lah... i am tired on the receiving end. 

oopps... lost track - supposed to post on happy moments.!! focus ain... focus!!

so yeah, joey's surgery date was postponed coz the surgeon was on paternity leave. so, i extended my stay in Tawau to check and help on the moving process. i was so amazed with the movers. had i known of this, all those times that i move houses i would have used their service. 😂 they managed to pack the whole house items in about 8 hours with 3 manpower.

so we had like 71 boxes/packages and about 20 boxes/packages are sold to TH's younger brother. some we brought back to our home in RGE. dah memang jadik macam storage. 

some of the big items left that they packed

checked in luggage... we had 20kg spare! rugi!

yey we are back in KL!

while waiting for my cousin to fetch

detour to KLIA for my sister departure to Mekah, pic with my mom

preloved clothes

so after this TH will be in Ipoh Perak for 18 months before he is being transferred to Subang for his new role. All the best TH!! take care, love you. 💖

Birthday Surprise Celebration & Raya Haji 20 July 2021

This year tak tau apa nak rasa on my birthday. Tuan confirmed tak balik sebab larangan rentas negeri. Lisa pulak tak sure sebab dia pun dok rumah sendiri and macam tak de plan pun nak buat apa². Memang down lah the birthday eve.

On the day itself, dah la jatuh pada hari raya aidil adha. kat rumah asalnya dengan joey and bibik je. alhamdulillah murah rezeki dapat bantuan prihatin dari N1 for juadah raya. and tiba² dengar bunyi pintu di buka.

Yey, Lisa balik, bawak cake sepotong 😍and hari ni jugak dapat cake and dessert 2 kotak! alhamdulillah.

Surprise Tuan sampai 1 hari kemudian. Masa dapat call tu, tengah bad mood, so bila rider call bgtau ada surprise delivery, tak de la excited sangat. 

But bila dah sampai tu, memang sengih sampai telinga sebab tak sangka Tuan bagi. hehe 😁suka sangat, sebab memang sangat2 tak sangka. bila part yang Tuan tak balik tu memang sedih la kan, tapi benda ni bukan kita boleh control, dah kata tak boleh rentas negeri. Macamana kan. Honestly lagi satu sedih sebab rasa Tuan macam tak de perasaan. His expression memang kadang2 macam tu, macam orang tak ada perasaan. Tu sebab selalu aku sound dia tapi dia ermmm macam tu lah.. jarang nak tau from his expression how he actually feels unless dia bagitau.

Buka at Mozers

every year mesti akan berbuka kat sini. kat mana? Mozers laaa.. sekarang dah pindah lokasi baru tau. kalau bab interior decorate, my cousin memang superb. dulu one of my houses pun my cousin yang tolong merealisasikan impian daku. she is so multi talented like that. and she is one very hard working woman that i know. 

mula2 tu biasa lah kalau dah satu family dalam lebih dari 10 kepala, banyak cekadak. 😁 N4 senang je, tanya dalam group nak makan kat Mozers, siapa nak join bagi nama. kitorang letak je la nama. ada je ahli-ahli KalamsClan yang asyik tukar2 fikiran. but then again, akhirnya kami semua pergi jugak sama2. 

Joey balik rumah just a few minute sebelum aku get ready, lepas tu nak fetch Lisa kat rumah dia. ye, bila anak2 dah besar (omg i keep on repeating this) they have their own space to live in. giler tak rindu? mesti la rindu tapi itu pilihan anak2, aku terima je dengan hati terbuka. (terbuka ke? 😛)

but anyway, to be able to berkumpul dengan anak2 is every parents' dream, kadang2 anak2 tak faham. but now that i am a mother, aku faham perasan other mothers. 

kami dah siap2 wudhu dari rumah, supaya senang sampai sana terus ke tempat solat. the trick berbuka kat luar is, bila azan, berbuka dengan kurma & air sikit, and terus solat dulu. biasanya time ni or just before waktu berbuka, orang lain dah queue kat buffet line. tapi, kami lebih suka solat dulu supaya dapat makan dengan tenang. and tempat solat disediakan just kat tepi tangga. kalau nak lebih selesa boleh je jalan ke masjid, sebelah tu je. 

one of my favorite dish kat Mozers is the kentang masak apa entah. hahaha 😀😆 tapi memang sedap. sekarang ni aku tak berapa nak makan nasi. selepas ambik TR90 programe memang perut automatically tak akan nak makan banyak2 macam dulu. kalau ada jugak orang yang boleh buat gitu, means dia hanya melayan nafsu je. 

and kitorang tak stay lama pun sebab kena hantar Joey balik ke Cyber selepas makan. aku rindu nak selalu dengan anak2 aku. 

anyway, you all yang nak merasa masakan arab, boleh lah ke Mozers. sorry tak de gambar buffet spread sebab time aku queue, makanan telah dicedok2 oleh customers, so nanti you all dah tak nampak dah apa hidangan situ. nak tau? kena la pergi ke Mozers. 

cinta hati

organiser, N4

ayah & N1

i dah sampai, you all bila lagi?

ni budak yang lebih2 berpuasa

the other table 😆 tak muat dah semua in 1 table

click here →   Mozers Bukit Jelutong

kalau nak buat event kat sini pun boleh. 
pic: FB

Be Grateful

in my thoughts right now is to rant about how much i don't feel happy about things that is going on around me. but you know what, if i were to continue thinking of that, i will be feeling worse than ever. no? hmmm it is like i am focusing on the negative thoughts instead of the good stuff of what has happened in my life. so yeah... i will put aside all my frustrations, and write about what i feel good about this week. 

i am at my happiest yesterday when i get to speak to my son on the phone. anak bertuah tu pranked me. well secara tak sengaja actually. he posted a picture of him and mischa in our chat group when i was at my parents' house. and i thought he was at our home! punya la excited that i gave him a call - and he laughed. he said, "ma, tu gambar throwback la.. kan joey tak de rambut tu.. hahhaa" ishh sabar je la anak bertuah aku ni. and we had a good about 20minutes talk catching up with him. i will plan for a lunch session with him one of these days insyaallah.

few days ago TH messaged me and informed that his housing loan is approved. alhamdulillah. i am so happy for him but i am feeling a bit worried as well. i went to see the showhouse with N3 and my parents without TH because he was not in KL at that time. and somehow N3 managed to book 2 houses and to cut story short, i took one of those. after discussing with TH, and of course my style is, we try and leave everything to God. if it manages to go through means it is our rezeki. 

i told TH i have too many commitments at the moment and he will have to settle the house himself. but i guess dah memang rezeki, despite sharing with him of all my worries, TH said, "tapi i nak sangat beli rumah tu untuk you" gosh.. he really wanted to buy for the house for me. 😍 how sweet is that. alhamdulillah i am so so grateful to have such a loving and thoughtful husband. i may have been married twice before TH but i have never received what i am receiving from TH right now. Ya Allah i am so ever thankful and grateful for all You are giving to me.. please keep them coming 😆 ameen

the house size is just nice for us and it is landed property. my 2nd property that is landed but my previous one was much smaller. i guess kalau Allah kata itu lah rezeki kita, tak akan silap timing. the house will be ready end of 2022 or depends on the progress, selepas tu baru TH and i will think of what to do next. 

i was also talking to Joey yesterday, kalau he is willing to come back and stay with me after his graduation, then i will think of moving to our own house lah kan. best jugak kan, ada garden sendiri. ada space sendiri kalau nak organise BBQ or home spa. hmmm yeahh exciting and interesting! but hold kejap, kita tengok in 2 years time macamana. 

belum apa apa dah fikir, boleh renovate tak besarkan sikit kat belakang sebab i will want to have a maid's room kat belakang. hehehe kesian TH, the other night, while kitorang discuss about the house plan, i dah tertido... dia baru tengah syok2 cerita pasal lantai rumah lah etc. 😂 sorry sorry i was really sleepy that time.

i know TH is excited and happy. 

it has been about a month since my parents moved to Nilam's Residence. and so far nampak like they are happy and comfortable. and for us sisters pun lebih selesa to go and visit our parents now. alhamdulillah. cosy small comfortable space for both of them to manage. with security - tak de lah kawasan 'atas kayangan' sangat but cukuplah untuk keselesaan both of them. and i am also thankful to N3 and N4 for the teamwork to make this a reality for our parents. not easy to satisfy them but i guess, semua tu perlukan kesabaran. and as for me, i would spend a night every now and then there. 

and i had a good contractor who is also willing to come over to help apa apa yang masih belum berapa complete or wear and tear lagi. 

if you guys are looking for a renovation contractor, boleh leave a message in the comment and i can share his handphone number. price is reasonable and kerja pun puas hati. 

this week i have been changing my style and created a momentum. i manage to meet up at least 1 person per day. i may not close every one of them but at least i have shared with them on the technology that we have to help people out there settle their health issue and also beauty cravings. 😁 anti aging is not only on the outside but the most importantly is it is on the internal health - which ada lagi yang belum sedar or aware of the importance. being healthy now and getting the right, safe and effective supplements are important to prevent diseases. usaha itu penting. at this moment when a lot of businesses cannot sustain and close down, our business is growing due to the need of people has changed to getting healthy. semoga we get to reach out to more people out there, insyaallah. 

Broken

aku rasa aku dah tahan lama. tahan lama untuk kuat. untuk cuba focus kat kerja aku. tapi sekali sekala koyak jugak. i keep on telling myself that i should and i will find exciting things to do. tapi sebenarnya hakikatnya aku sunyi. sunyi tanpa anak2 and sunyi tanpa suami dengan aku. memang aku kecik hati dengan semua sekeliling aku. aku ke yang tak faham lagi dengan kehendak anak2 aku? diorang tak terfikir ke untuk contact aku at least to check if i am ok. ke, pada diorang bila aku dah kawin, they don't have to ask me anymore? apa je yang aku buat masih salah dalam mendidik anak2? 

everytime aku cuba bagi my mind untuk brush off all these negative thoughts. apa lagi aku nak buat? aku tak tau. every day jugak aku pergi rumah parents aku so that aku busy. aku tolong apa2 yang patut sedangkan sepatutnya aku follow up my existing customers. aku dah tak tau nak buat camna dah.

for the past few days memang aku dah rabak. hari ni aku pun sedih dengan TH. aku tak faham macamana dengan proses perpindahan pegawai kerajaan lah. kenapa tak ada persediaan untuk bawa family? kalau dah tau pegawai akan lapor diri in january, kenapa tak ada preparation for accommodation? are they proposing that kalau pegawai atau anggota pindah yang ada spouse tu, kira it is not important? aku memang sedih sangat. aku terasa aku ni tak penting ke untuk TH?

just jangan ajar aku jadi extra independant dah la. senang untuk orang cakap supaya aku sabar. cakap senang la, cuba try kat tempat aku, tengok. or maybe aku kena imagine yang sekarang ni memang apa2 pun aku sorang je.. dah tak payah tak perlu fikir orang lain? boleh? hati kayu macam tu? 

tadi masa aku video call dengan TH pun dia macam nak marah - muka memang dah macam fed up. maybe pada dia aku tak mature? maybe pada dia aku tak sabar? aku tak faham? ye, memang aku tak faham and no one is helping me to understand this freiking situation. and i had to hang up just now sebab memang aku nangis - aku nangis sepuas2 hati.. biar lah kalau orang tak faham pun. lepas ni biar aku tak payah cakap dengan sesiapa!

Joey Turned 21

 memang terasa cepat sangat waktu berlalu. and this time i plan to make it big for my only son. i want it to be a memorable one. dapat kumpul semua ramai2 macam masa ayah celebrate his 80th birthday. but then, Allah has better plan for us. we had to cancel it to another time due to MCO. it is not looking so good in Malaysia right now. 

i have ordered a birthday cake for Joey, so as always, bila celebration besar2an not on the exact date, usually on the exact date we will still do a small celebration. i am grateful because i have everyone together, my children and husband. hehehe 😀 we hijacked N1's house (with permission of course) to have the cake cutting session. small do tapi good enough. sayang NI's family yang not able to be around sebab jauh and quarantine issue.

Joey dah dewasa sekarang but please know that mama will always be here for you whenever you need me ok. Mama sayang Joey sangat2. 🤗