Istikharah Cinta - my version

i have done the toughest part of event in my life - this week is my most crucial moment in my life. although nothing is confirmed yet because i still believe the power of Allah and what He can do to everyone - i am sort of already broken down into pieces. i have told lisa first and she has been there for me while i broke down into tears. it just fell off like water fall. it just could not stop. Allah always tested a person with something/someone that we really love. and this time it was Kaiser. he is the love of my life other than my kids. and now, i might lose him. for the first time ever, i did solat istikharah for Allah to help me with my love. insyaallah, i pray to be strong to face this challenge. 

joey, thank you so much for the hug that i will cherish forever. and lisa, i am sorry that you had to be there all the time for me in difficult moments.

Kalau dia lah jodoh ku hingga ke Jannah, kuatkan lah cinta hati2 kami, berkatilah perhubungan kami. Kalau ditakdirkan oleh Mu bahawa dia bukan jodoh ku, kuatkan lah hati ku untuk menerima apa jua di depan ku. Ameen...