Oh My Back! (Part 2)

i went for 2nd opinion at UKM Specialist Centre on 25 Sept 2024 after my follow up at PCMC on 19 Sept 2024. well, kena la confirm betul2 kan what is wrong with me. so after the 25th Sept appointment, my doctor requested for me to be admitted for further treatment. memang macam panjang kisah my back pain ni and it is not a usual back pain. so here are the chronology of my experience.

7 Sept - back jammed, went to ER PCMC via ambulance, got admitted, insurance declined. so, self paid for 1 night.

8 Sept - discharged from PCMC although my doctor suggested for another day. but since it is self pay, all the other treatments, i declined at that point of time.

18 Sept - since i have my knee MRI appt at HUKM, we went to HUKM with PCMC ref letter to set appt for physio or 2nd opinion. the date that we got at first was Dec 2024 ( 😂 punya la lama nak tunggu kan?) so the nurse at HUKM suggested we go to the private wing for specialist appt. so i got 25th Sept to see the specialist. 

19 Sept - follow up at pcmc -  my doctor strongly suggest mri

25 Sept - appt with specialist at UKMSC, terus isi borang admission for 1 oct 2024.

and bermula lah my journey for 4 days at UKMSC and alhamdulillah kali ni my insurance tak decline. this is the first time i get got admitted to this hospital. it is an old building, they tried to refurbish it. ok lah.. i get got my own room, just that i had to share with another patient. it was a male patient and i didn't like hearing all the sounds that the man makes in the bathroom. tapi, tak mo komplen lebih2... bersyukur je lah dapat treatment cepat. 

the nurses are ok, not perfect but some are okay and some masih ada attitude nurse gomen sikit, which i believe they should improve. the meal memang kena improve banyak la, lagi segi presentation and taste. kalau taste tu, boleh di katakan "rasa tak sampai" or it is because i was unwell, semua rasa tak sedap?

on the last day i was there, mama pulak masuk ER sebab BP mama tinggi but i cannot turun bawah masa tu. sian N1 kena jaga mama sampai subuh. alhamdulillah mama stabil and boleh terus balik. pagi tu dapat la i pergi visit mama sekejap kat ER.

will i get medical treatment at UKMSC anymore lepas ni? tengok lah macamana. harga tak murah pun but i heard PCMC is blacklisted by many insurance companies for overcharge, hmmm entahlah. 

so this was my room - spacious

toilet is old school but clean

part ni, hospital needs to do something
about it.

1st night here - cheapo la kan

day 2 dah better

my physio treatment

bila byk bergerak, gini la jadinya

sambil buat kerja - makan lunch

visit mama kejap kat ER

Oh My Back! (Part 1)

i had this incident last weekend, i was warded at pcmc for my lower back/spine, or whatever. TH and i were getting ready to go to my friend's FIL's funeral, and my back just jammed, when i was bending down to look for TH's pants. i quickly straightened my body and that's it - i couldn't move anymore. am sure TH thought i was kidding but i kid you not. it was too painful that i can hardly move. i can't stand and i can't move. so TH walked me slowly (in pain) while i was hanging on to his shoulder. 

i got seated on the bed and i had to wait until i can move a bit to lie down. and after that i could not move anymore - and i was crying coz it was damn painful i cannot explain. it happened at around before 11am and i took 2 tablets for pain killer, waited for an hour, nothing happened. called the clinic for the doctor to come but i was thinking what if the pain doesn't go away?

so i decided to call the ambulance, after making sure that my medical card is still active. so it was my 1st experience in the ambulance, as a patient. i was crying so hard when they tried to lift me up from the bed to the stretcher. but the 2 MA's were very patient with me. 

arrived at the hospital in about 20 minutes. and as they transfer me to the hospital stretcher, i was still in pain but lesser because i was given an injection before the ambulance left. and to cut the story short, my medical insurance was declined as they say i can be treated as out patient. err hello, i had to call the ambulance because i was really in pain!! i am really unhappy with my medical insurance, takaful ikhlas and simply because i was a bit high from the pain killer i had no energy to argue.

so i was diagnosed with lumbar annulus tear TRO PID L5 S1 and because my medical insurance were declined, i decided not to proceed with MRI. memang time tu kecewa sangat dengan my medical insurance. i started paying monthly since 2015 kut and when i really needed support, they give really unrealistic excuses. and maybe some of you might asked, why pcmc and why not government hospital? because, i have a choice and with the pain score of 10/10 i do not think a government hospital would treat me as fast as a private hospital. 

anyhow, i am home after 1 night in pcmc, and that cost us >RM3K. medical bills are expensive ok! so, do take care of your health. so my lower back pain journey started. and i started to feel numbness on my left leg and once a while i get spasm on my left leg too. i had to be on painkiller for 4 days after discharged then i stopped slowly. i try to set an appointment with hukm and the earliest date i got is in december 2024! caya tak?? 😂

wahh sekarang pcmc dah tukar design cawan

bermula lah journey di pcmc

masa ni tunggu nurse kat ER

depa letak aku kat corridor je ko..
sebab ada emergency case kat dalam ruang ER

macam ni la kat rumah, dari 11am - 2.30pm

Grateful

there are a lot of things to be grateful for. alhamdulillah, Allah answers to my prayers. memang betul lah, Allah akan berikan pada hambanya apa yang hambaNya perlukan bila tiba masanya. banyak perkara yang aku patut bersyukur, about my son, my husband, our home, my daughter. thank you Allah for the granted prayers.

• my son, Joey has finally submitted his FYP and his graduation ceremony will be in October or November 2024 - alhamdulillah syukur  - Degree in Psychology.
• Tuan has completed his pilot training and alhamdulillah he is officially a pilot for APMM effective oct 2024. may Allah keeps him safe all the time in his duty.
• We finally finished our home renovation in SP and completed ground floor and comfortable enough to stay/live in.
• my daughter, Lisa and i have something in common is sports --> netball, yey!

Allahuakbar - syukur sangat2. am so happy. and now, to actually decide if/when we will be living in SP fully 😋

hello september 2024

omg time flies so fast. i have watched many movies on netflix to do review on. not that i have to, just that these are movies that i feel like worth for me to give a review. anyway here i go again... today is the 1st day that i want to revamp my meal plan. i did my blood test yesterday and alhamdulillah my thyroid count is much better. now my next follow up in 4 months. 

however i do have other result that i am not happy with and something that i can control. maybe is that why i have been having chest pains, ribs pain, cramps, tightened joints on my fingers.. and etc. let's see in 2 weeks time maybe or 4 weeks, i will go and do another round of blood test.

wish me luck everyone. what about you? do you have anything you want to achieve in september? or have you achieved you goals in 2024 so far? drop me a comment so that i know you are here 💋

The Lost City on Netflix - My Personal Review

i have been on netflix since this afternoon and getting bored looking for a movie. somehow as i was browsing through the movie titles, the trailer featured sandra bullock and channing tatum.. i went "eh.. i love both of them and the movie is in 2022" so, yeah why not?

turns out it was a romantic comedy. and it is so me, watching a romantic movie. somehow channing tatum's character is so not like him coz in the movie he is someone yang macam dumb blonde. body hot tapi busdus, like dat. 😂 it was full of action and i loved it. just that i couldn't stop thinking about sandra bullock's age.. cant believe she is already 60 and she still looks hot!

anyway, the movie is about a novel writer who was kidnapped and the guy who is the model for her novel cover tried to save her. they both ended in the jungle, getting shot at but they survived. and like any other romantic movie/story - i loved it more when it has a happy ending. 

in my personal opinion - the story is not something that you will remember for days. it was a kind of movie that, when you leave the cinema you will feel happy and that's it. aahh i dont quite know how to explain the feelings. maybe tak ada ummphh like that lah. 😆

but ok lah to watch, it was quite light.

Happy or Not Happy?

how do you make yourself happy when you don't feel that way? urgghh.. i have not written anything for the past what... 3 months? and reason? busy? happily busy or unhappily busy? does it even make sense? actually you can choose how you see the world. you are the ones who define whether you want to be happy or not. 

people's level of happiness is different. i see housewives, being happy ironing their children's clothes. i know that is not my kind of happiness 😂 hehehe 😋 sorry not sorry but i am just not a housewife material. i see people happy going to the wet market like weee early in the morning - err i would rather be in bed cuddling. i see people enjoying or at least trying to enjoy their workplace and share them over their status. urrmm i know i am happy at the cat hotel and play with the residents cats and the flexibility time that i get not going to the usual 9 - 5 job thingy. 

so yeah, choose your own happy life, your own bubble. i am babbling - i don't know where i am heading right now. i should just sleep. eh wait!

i was reminded by someone that no matter where we are, and what situation we are in, always remember to be grateful and thankful to the Almighty of what He has granted us. and for that, i am truly grateful for having a comfortable places to stay in, food on the table, beautiful family, supportive husband, wonderful children, loving sisters... err.. hahah 😂 yes they are! alhamdulillah, thank you Allah. 

Tickets To Paradise - My Personal Review

well i am a lil bit bias coz i love  both of them. i have not been being myself lately. and somehow just now i just found this movie just added into my netflix. so i thought why not. it was about parents and their only daughter who somehow after graduation did the same thing like what they did when they were young ie got married early and i guess too young to understand what marriage is all about. 

what i love about the movie is the scenery -  it was in Bali and i really miss travelling. circumstances made me end up like where i ended up now. i miss being anywhere near the sea. i felt like i am being deprived with from what i enjoy most. *sigh* 

i miss travelling really bad. i wanna be able to do that soon - real soon please. ooh i have deviated from the original post. 

well, okay, the story is about a parent who was trying to ruin their daughter's wedding because they feel that their daughter is making a mistake. one thing that parents should not be doing is to mess with their children's life. let them make their own decision and face their own mistakes. let them learn themselves. stop making decision for them - stop interfering in their life(s).

i love this movie, love the actors and actresses and just love these kind of love stories, and family. go watch it on netflix while it is still there.