Sort of Lowest Point

July 17, 2026

i think for the past 2 months were my lowest point. Financially and emotionally. i believe more of financially. nevertheless i am still grateful for having a supportive spouse and provides enough for me and our household. just that, my own commitment(s) are not fulfilled. cant wait till my financial is stable again soon. 

i am not posting this on the day that this happens, in the hope that the day this posting is being published, my financial has doubled or tripled from todays situation. 

do you know that it is so damn difficult for me to even type this in my blog because i am ashamed of myself right now. so much to grasp and not enough effort/action being done.

i have been asking cash from my spouse. extra cash i mean, for me to grab food, or for my lunch. when my spouse asked me what am i eating for lunch, if i said something like too light, he will ask me, "what do you want me to grab for you? i will do it now?" 🥺

times when he peep at my wallet, and just pass to be a RM50 note to put in my wallet so that i have more cash. hehehe 😁alhamdulillah for such a loving spouse. insyallah i believe Allah swt will grant me more rezeki, insyaallah. i believe this is a test from Him.