beautiful ending of 2018

actually i have a few postings that are due. just that it doesn't go with the mood that i am in right now. AH makes me so happy for the past few days. somehow he got his time off again over the long weekend and he has included me in his schedule, to be with me towards end of his leave. so yeah.. am one of those lucky person, i guess. although am sure i am not the only person in his schedule 😋

alhamdulillah sri ayu has got a 1 year contract tenant starting 1st jan 2019. just that i need to take out some of the furniture because tenant do not want them in there. and by AH being around, he is one of the victim to help me out carrying the heavy stuff our of Sri Ayu. sian dia.. tapi ok lah kan.. cuti2 buat ibadah sket.. heheheh😅 tettt lepas tu boleh la belanja makan... video kat atas tu masa AH tolong2 angkat dari Sri Ayu and bring to a few locations.

and this year kiranya 31 Dec 2018, i celebrated new year at Charmene's Cafe - SatayXpress, Valencia Golf Club. you guys should go there and try the food. am not sure about the ala carte though.. but the buffet that night was just superb. and thank you to AH for accompanying me during this year's celebration. aku rasa kalau AH tak turun/naik KL, i will be lepakking at home, mereput.. boring jugak. so by 6pm kut kitorang dah kena settle and get ready... penatnya aku.. Tuhan je tau. tapi i wanna use every second that i have with AH and not waste it. entah lah, somehow aku terasa lepas ni maybe aku dah tak boleh serapat macamana aku dengan AH sekarang. when you guys read this posting memang la rasa macam sedih bunyinya but reality sucks at times. aku kena berpijak di bumi nyata. sekarang ni pun aku dah down, ni pun sebab lepas aku dah sort of confront AH pasal a few things yang bothers me. sebelum ni aku hidup ala ala dalam alam khayalan. things that i forgot and i thought i could have in my life although in order for me to not be selfish i should tarik diri... ha macam tu lah lebih kurang sebab aku tau kedudukan aku, where i am, who i am and etc etc. ke aku ni cepat cair? hahaha 😂busdus... dah korang jangan gelakkan aku... kalau ikut bahasa lisa, aku dah rabak ni... jadi sekarang semua tak de mood. benci la rasa macam ni. ehhh macam tak kena je dengan tajuk blog posting aku ni... dah katanya beautiful ending?

memang la beautiful ending.. aku suka hang out dengan AH, entah la.. nak kata kenal lama pun tak but he is such a simple and easy going person. and aku rasa relax dengan dia.. and dia pun masih single (kata dia, kalau dia sebenarnya tak, bukan salah aku ehh) aku rasa macam dia ada je solution untuk aku kalau aku serabut.. cuma kadang2 memang la aku rasa dia macam hadir tapi his mind is elsewhere.. entah2 ingat kat awek kut... 👀😋 tapi aku buat tak tau je la kan.. takkan aku nak tanya kut.. nampak sangat busybody nya.. walaupun jiwa aku kadang meronta jugak lah. kekeke 😂over aku ni kan kadang2... but biasa la.. kena la ada drama sket dalam hidup.

aku sampai kat Valencia and lepak with my school friends.. bukan plan pun but kebetulan memang diorang pun nak lepak situ.. and AH memang selamba.. dia ni jenis yang boleh bawak je ke mana, and dia selamba je and pandai bawak diri.. sob sob... kenapa aku pilu tiba2 ni?? adehh menci aaarr..  aku rasa kalau satu hari AH tak de dah dengan aku, rasa kehilangan jugak. alaaa sekarang dah sedey... tak leh sambung dah blogging...

one of my fav photo with him