wowieee...

i am so productive today! well, not the whole day... but at least i get lots of things done - the complicated ones.. hheheh :D maybe because i had my shopping therapy! hehhee :D happy nyaaa..

my high today:

• i bought 1 pair of shoes and sunglasses!
• i finished my online questionnaire for my office. now testing it. once tested okay, i will publish them.
• gonna have my 2nd dance class today.
• set a getaway for my staff at the office.

my down today:

• errr... i dont have any! :O great isnt??

aahhh... gotta finish some more work before my 630 class...

ahh sun is shining again... :)

and it puts a relief on my face as my sun is shining again. thanks to AA for helping. really appreciate it - for the time and the talk :) i am glad to see 2 people in my life are getting along again. well anyway, not gonna get into details as glitches are bound to happen anytime and anywhere. we looked into it, took action and look for preventive actions... ahhh i sound so ISO... yeahh too much ISO in the office - and it works at home too!

we had a good weekend. i am still feeling tired - but satisfied at the same time. we were at my mom's school - had our booth there. joelis had fun playing at the fair apart from working with us :) we had a few numbers to follow up. somehow, the weather was too hot for me. had a bad migraine when i got back. AD already went to the office for his 5pm meeting. i just had to take a nap. when i got up, showered and accompanied joelis to the pool. the sky was beginning to get dark so we'd better hurry before it rains. i just sat there by the pool side reading my motor trader looking for my new beemer... heh heh :D while joelis playing with each other in the pool. somehow my head was still - err not spinning, but 'berdenyut'... smsed AD, told him that i am going for a massage. brought joelis with me, bought dinner for them so that they can eat while waiting for my 1 hour massage. felt a lil bit better. went home... showered... and took a pain killer.. cant stand it anymore lah. tried to get some sleep. early bedtime on a saturday night :)

and that was my saturday story.... will come back for sunday story.. when i have uploaded more pictures, tonight...

have a great week ahead people... coz i know i will :)

Micheal Jackson Mikaeel died at 50

May Allah swt be with you Michael Jackson Mikaeel. Al Fatihah...

http://www.3aw.com.au/blogs/3aw-generic-blog/michael-jackson-dead-heart-attack/20090626-cyl8.html

Heal The World, Make It A Better Place, For You And For Me And The Entire Human Race, There Are People Dying, If You Care Enough For The Living, Make A Better Place For You And For Me...

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-1195645/A-life-limelight-aged-50-Why-fascinated-Wacko-Jacko.html

Michael Joseph Jackson (born August 29, 1958) is an American recording artist, entertainer, and businessman. The seventh child of the Jackson family, he debuted on the professional music scene at the age of 11 as a member of The Jackson 5 and began a solo career in 1971 while still a member of the group. Referred to as the "King of Pop" in subsequent years, five of his solo studio albums have become some of the world's best-selling records: Off the Wall (1979), Thriller (1982), Bad (1987), Dangerous (1991) and HIStory (1995). Died on June 25, 2009 of a heart attack.

silence

...................... miss this.....

there is still silence....................................

a picture with thousand meanings.......
deep down inside... they missed it too... no? :/

subconciously

feeling the guilt, way deep inside that she failed to make them happy. making up with whatever ways to cover back the gap. but can it be done? no one says there is a guarantee. there is improvement tho... positive one. a bit of relief but still not sufficient. set a lower expectation, that needs to be explained. reduce getting frustrated. aahhh... this is peanuts. gone through worst. kissing the lil ones are never enough. kissed them... went to bed... out of the room again - kissed and hugged them again...

fathers' day at mont kiara

joelis had a wonderful time at mont kiara. thanx to CB for allowing us to enjoy his place's facility. hehehe :D just like at the theme park - with less people of course. check it out!

ahhh its getting late... i better go home now... :( miss my joelis...

something is amiss

a beautiful, spacious large white house, but there is something amiss
laughter that are shared between them, but there is something amiss
giggling at the sofa, enjoying whats on tv, but there is something amiss
where has it gone?
have you ever wondered - how, why, where?
will it return?
somehow - it is still not back... and i am still waiting... better... but there is something amiss
why do i feel emptiness?
why do i feel lonely - there are many people around me..
why do i feel worthless?
why do i feel frustrated?
why do i feel tired?
dont i mean anything anymore?
*sigh*

International Health & Food Fair 2009

27th June 2009

8.30am - 4.00pm

happy fathers' day!

A Father means so many things...

An understanding heart,
A source of strength and of support
Right from the very start.
A constant readiness to help
In a kind and thoughtful way.
With encouragement and forgiveness
No matter what comes your way.
A special generosity and always affection, too
A Father means so many things
When he's a man like you...

Perhaps we'll never understand each other.
Loving doesn't mean that we agree.
If that were so, then I would say, why bother?
But there are things I know I'll never see.
I'm sure your heart knows what I don't yet know:
The pain of loving a reluctant son;
The anger, coming fast and building slow,
Of being helpless to control someone.
You want only that I grow up right,
But you know what right is, and I still don't.
I have to learn to wield my inner light,
And if I follow yours, well, then I won't.
I'm sorry for the anger in the air;
Though we fight, my love is always there.

this is no fairy tale

i had a chat with my sister this morning who commented about the contents of my blog. well, i thank her for the concern but i am no pretender. i write what/how i feel. perhaps i should write less now... life has its ups and downs and i accept it as it is... we learn new things everyday. and we grow up to be stronger. i am a stronger person now compared to before and i am gonna train my joelis to be that too. it aint gonna be easy - but we will manage. you readers out there, you have a choice, to pray for our happiness or the opposite. as for us, we take one step at a time.

so, what's new... today is sunday... CB has been asking AD when kids can come to his condo for a swim. it seems that 2 weeks has passed. see how busy my joelis are.. heh heh :D well anyway, today is the day. AD is having his class there so, we'll just meet him there after joelis' music class. looking forward for it...and me can have more color on my skin... ihikkk... perhaps we will upload pictures later ;) *wink*

we went to a pool wedding yesterday. it was lovely... simple and beautiful.. we had fun dancing.. food was good. AD and joey enjoyed their japanese food... lots of 'em... for a while, few hiccups here and there... but overall it was nice... congratulations john & larisa...!! hi lights of the day:

• when a Scottish couple said that AD and i are good dancers... hahaha... nak tergelak tuh... but at least this time i feel more comfortable doing the turning part... heheh and more confident when AD did that err what do you call it when i had to bend on my back thingy...

• on the way back last night, joelis and i took a detour, went up to puncak and watched the nice scenery of kl at night and took pictures...

and before we slept, we did our last prayer for the day and recite yasin together and pray that Allah swt will help us, and fulfill our doa. :) Ameen...

had a good time anyway

it was our 2nd party with xango 13th june 2009... and this time the theme was white.. me.. shopping? errr... hehehe :D does that answer your question? oh... and fiza if you are reading this.. sorry i could not get back to you on time... :( will get something from your shop when i found the one that i like okay.. :)

the seminar was great... i did my last minute shopping right after the seminar... that left me only 2 hours err.. less to do my hair... alamak... too many people.. i had to wait for 45 minutes!! no cant do... so, i went round looking for more hair saloon... found it.. called APT... err ok lah.. had a good head massage coz my head was already spinning..

ahh.. i sat beside francesca peters... thats the best part... how did that happened? ohh.. coz, my hubby is her trainer.. so, she became his guest for the party... it was fun sitting beside her.. shes funny.. :) and i was too shy to ask for her autograph.. hmmmm but i snapped a pic with her... few pictures...!!!

feelin' down

at first I was so excited to write exciting stuff in my blog. Had lots of activities, but with the unstable internet connection at home, really turned me off. I guess, after a while, to get back on track with blogging takes time lah. With lots of tasks to do at home, office... laptop trying to be funny... all sorts lah. [will do some back dated postings soon - i promise :)]

but let me just talk about me feeling not nice today. you see, i am a person who will get sad very fast. especially when someone started to raise his voice all of a sudden simply because he doesnt know how to control his temper.

who realized it? first of all, my lil joelis. and joey asked me in the car yesterday, 'why are you so quiet ma' and i just continued being quiet.

no one says that being married is easy. it takes time to know each other. especially about staying together - lots of give and take thingy...

anyway, i really dont appreciate people who is so unable to control his/her temper and acted stupyd and spoiled everyone's mood.

whatever it is, his action spoilt my mood yesterday when it was time that we are supposed to spend 'the time with family'... duhhh...

joey and i shared the same feeling... when we talked about it last night, before he fell asleep in my arms... we both agreed that the family time was not nice... :(

ps: i love you

a picture that tells lots of stories behind it... more meaningful when it's about me :) hehehe :D i had a good time last night..during and after watching the (dvd) movie at home. actually since during the day... but let me upload the photos from the camera first before i share what we did on the weekend :)

Bowling & Desa Parkcity

the times when we had a good time out... :) had 2 games and i won! of course lahhhh.... :D so, normally, the champion, tak yah la letak gambar kan... muahahaha *evil laugh*

after bowling, we took a drive to desa parkcity. we have this new hobby now... window shopping for a new place to stay. a place where kids can have more freedom playing outside, cycling, jogging... running... playground... :) desa parkcity is quite a nice place... but still scouting around. i prefer mont kiara, i think... :P

joelis had the freedom to play at the clean playground. AD and i took a stroll by the mini shopping mall, enjoying the lake view.. then, we stopped by secret recipe - enjoyed the cake... and we ordered mushroom soup when joelis came to join us.

where else to go eh...? :)

the wedding at dewan tun rahah

it was a full weekend alright. Started with a wedding that we attended last friday. i was looking forward to attend it simply because it was at the dewan tun rahah. the place that i wanted to have but could not... hehehe :D but you know what, after that night, the place was not that nice lah... it was so so... food was also so so... sound system was bad (my standard) even our friend's sound system sounded better in a bigger hall for my sister's wedding. the waitress and waiters were not courteous... err... anyway, AD looked handsome with his baju melayu... joelis helped him with his butang baju melayu.. well, when i am so hungry, my hands start to tremble... hahah :D can't even put on the butang baju melayu for him.. so, joelis came to the rescue helping their father :) they looked cute!

we took more pictures with my phone camera... result was mengeciwakan... what do you expect from a small phone.. 1MP camera... duhhh... blur giler ok... oh... and after the wedding, we went for a dance at a WH... yeup... some of us with baju melayu and kebaya.. dancing salsa, meringue.. bachata... hehehe :D i love to see them dance... AD got excited that night and we took lots of pics ourselves.

gotta stop now... someone's checking my laptop... till later.... :)