arti frustration

meaning to write on my blog few days back already but was not really in the mood. or perhaps, my mind was more at work and the event i am preparing right now. somehow other part of my brain is going elsewhere... started with a sad and shocking dream that i had. and somehow, it leads to something real that happened. damn i hate this feeling. can't remember the last time i felt this way. and somewhere... you start to think, you thought you can trust your family members because they are family... but it is really frustrating to know that they are just like some of people you know out there with hasat dengki.. etc... 

i want to write more but i dont have the mood. i wanna go home... i need a day off.. :(