Divers Iftar 2019

Currently i belong to 2 groups, 1 group from the Tenggol trip last year and another group is the Maldives group. and since some of us belonged to both groups, we decided to combine the iftar for divers this year. mula2 plan awal bulan ramadhan but organizer postponed coz i was still warded and some other divers are out of KL. hehehe 😜so aku tak de la rasa guilty sangat kalau jadi penyebab iftar divers di postponed a few times.  

last night we had our iftar, finally. many thanks to MR jugak for scouting the place for our iftar. MR memang selalu keluar2 makan and he knows la which tempat makan yang reasonable pricing. and this time we ate at Homst Chinese Muslim Restaurant at Kg Baru. memang meriah la i makan all the udang.. bermacam2 jenis masakan gua cakap lu. you can browse more photos from the internet. ini pun i took from the internet coz that night, dah makan tak sempat nak ambik gambar.

detached from my wetsuits and fins on that night too. Lind bought my wetsuit. KR bought my fins and AR bought my gloves yang aku pakai sekali je, time maldives tu. i have to clear myself from my equipment so that i will move on. yeup, i have decided to quit diving, for now. i dont want to have hopes anymore, that is why i let go all the items. tak apa lah, in 2 years time, if i feel like diving again, i will do a full body medical check up and i can always get myself new diving equipment.

and disebabkan pipi aku yang gebus ini, pipi ini telah menjadi mangsa geram and cubitan other divers.. hahaha 😄 tak pe, cubit lah... geram lah while it lasts...i think i am getting used to this puffy face. nak buat macamana lagi, terpaksa la terima je. kalau bahagian lain kat badan ni boleh gak aku tutup dengan baju. dah ni muka.. takkan nak pakai niqab kut.. lol 😀

birdbox

watched on 24 dec 2018: this review was in my draft posting that i forgot to finish and post it up. so here goes. 

i saw the trailer about this movie on twitter. and when i saw that sandra bullock is the actress, lagi la i want to watch the movie. tapi i can feel that the movie is gonna be full of suspense. so when MrH was here, i asked him if he wants to watch this on netflix. memang sakit jantung kejap lah tengok citer ni.. ehh bukan kejap but almost the whole movie. aku dah siap tutup muka dengan cushion while asking MrH to tell me the progress of the movie. 

penat sebab you can't see what is actually attacking them. and not knowing what is their future like. she had to keep on rowing the boat for many hours to go to the next destination blindfolded. memang challenging gila. and the 2 kids were so obedient. sedih pun ya tengok... but they were all so strong. dengan current lagi... dengan hasutan from the voice that they hear.. with the 'zombies' lagi... adehhh.. memang aku suka sangat sandra bullock ni. 

and owh.. this was the first weekend that MrH and i watched netflix together. movie marathon i think. so back to the movie. sedih jugak sebab the guy who helped sandra bullock and her kids tu mati dulu. semangat diorang memang kental. pada aku when i watched this movie, memang jantung aku laju gila la. penat tengok tapi best and ending dia memang tak dijangkakan. 

kesimpulannya, happy ending. hehehe 😁 sorry la nak cerita panjang2, movie ni dah lama aku tengok so the excitement dah merudum sebab dah berbulan2 baru nak update cerita dia. 

me, stay home mom

me, being a stay home mom for another week after being discharged from prince court medical centre (pcmc) was very relaxing and i have achieved a few things. you guys might be tired of me talking about the pain that i have. pain score differs from 2 to 4 out of 10. bearable but with pain killers. my puffy face dah memang tak leh cakap apa2. my legs are also swollen, belakang lutut, ankle. 

i used the time that i have at home by relaxing, i am so glad that MrH was with me over the weekend. my only exercise was walking, not even brisk walking but window shopping walking with MrH and walking slowly for my standard. i still get tired easily and after sometime i will have to stop and rest. or sometimes, after a few minutes i will get dizzy while walking. so until today, actually walking alone is not that safe for me? i know it is so boring depending on others to accompany me just to go somewhere. what if i faint? #dramasangat but it is true. there was this once, as i was walking i just felt like i am leaning towards MrH coz i felt like falling. yes i feel so old! 😋

and that weekend we went out for laptop shopping for MrH. hampir2 jugak getting 1 for my own. bukan apa, kadang2 memang ada rasa guilty using the office laptop for my personal use. but nak buat macamana, facility dah ada, i am just using some space. and that weekend jugak we had our sahur at NZ. tapi kesian MrH, mee goreng mamak dia looks more like spaghetti goreng to me. i am sorry sayang, tak sedap sahur you. 

enjoy this cute fluffy face while it last! 

never in my thought that whatever that i am facing is musibah. in fact, i think everyone is facing their own challenges in life and it so happened this is mine that Allah is giving me. i am so ever grateful with all the support that i get from people around me. i hope my family and friends are not tired of me being sick. my mode of transportation most of the time was grabcar. or my niece, kelly. i tried to drive but it hurts when i steer the steering. 

hemmm what else did i do? 

aahh eye lash perm!! started when my fav hairdresser sent out mass whatsapp on raya promotion at her saloon. what is that? i was curious. i just wanted to do something different. i do see some of my friends did eye lash extension. just that eye lash extension tak boleh bawak solat. so, errmm sendiri mau ingat la kan. hehehe 😀 so eye lash perm is just like you perm your hair but on your eye lash. eyelash perm does not involve the addition of fake eyelashes, rubbing your lashes will not cause them to fall off. and it is much cheaper than the extension. point is, i don't want to do something yang akan menyebabkan tak boleh or tak sah wuduk for solat. 

after:
bulu mata tak berapa nak lebat so kena tengok face to face lah 😁

before

next activity was apartment therapy. my first spot at home that i targeted was the maid's room. i cleaned up the cupboard that i used to store some of my clothes and even AO's clothes were still there. sampai dah bertahi lalat tshirt putih Porsche dia. and there was a box filled with clothes jugak, i sorted them out, some i washed back coz i can wear the blouses now. jimat tak payah beli. and found few long skirt that i can wear too. alhamdulillah. so 1 room cleaned and cleared! #happyme

next was my kitchen drawer of all the utensils and senduk2 masak. i don't know why i have to have few of the same senduk. and there are even old sudip that i still keep but did not use. so off they go. the word that helped me to tidy up was 'de-clutter'. all the fork and spoons yang tak sama i put aside. no i did not throw them but i packed in a plastic back and put it near my garbage bin for the cleaners to pick up. i was so happy to see my neat kitchen drawer after 7 years living here and left it as it was!! tessie (my part time helper) came over the weekend and helped me with the rest of the drawers and my tupperware cabinet. yeup, i let go all the tipuware and kept only tupperwares and ikea brand. those without covers, i threw them away. 

before

after

that's me at work, got to sit while doing the work.

what is left of my tupperwares. 

so next in queue and my biggest challenge is my home office. my plan is to get rid of all AO's stuff in there. already texted him and he said i can just throw away everything. then i need to sort the old files, need to rearrange all the existing files on home loan, sales and purchase agreements of all my old and new house, cars file, stuff from my previous dance studio, and also my workout clothes, which i will get rid of most of them. i will only leave the tshirts. since i wont be able to do zumba anyway for the next few months, might as well, i get rid of the small ones. ye lah, sekarang i tak pakai XS & S dah.. silalah muhasabah diri sikit ye. heee 😂 i think i should sleep. #missingMrH

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Iftar Zumba Sisters

my ramadhan was a short one being with my friends and family outside. since i was discharged from the hospital, i am limiting myself from being outside in the public. the only time that i blocked my schedule was to be with my zumba family and divers gang. 

last night we had our iftar together. thanks to AZ for organizing and sending out the invites. makan sedap sini cuma sebab my tekak and mulut masih rasa pahit, bila makan semua rasa pahit. try jugak nak pilih2 tapi masih pahit. so what i can do is just telan. walau pun tak cukup quorom macam biasa, siapa yang ada je lah. and as usual, when it comes to AKO Fitness ladies, sekarang ni orang2 yang sama je available. but aku tetap bersyukur. harap2 this friendship akan berkekalan sampai bila2. 

ZUMBA sisturs: Muhibbah Seafood Restaurant

so far dah a few times iftar with my zumba sisters, i will bring joey along. aku ni kalau boleh memang nak selalu ada anak2 berbuka sama2. sampai bila lagi pun. sementara boleh. ni lagi2, aku takboleh drive sejak keluar hospital, syukur joey ada. walaupun kadang2 bila dia drive tu akan jadi gaduh dalam kereta dengan dia. bukan apa, boys being boys lah.. kalau drive tu suka sangat macam laju menonong. jenuh jugak aku pijak brake kadang2 tapi tak lut pulak brake angin kat belah passenger ni. 😂

and tahun ni jugak first time aku print raya angpow packet for my friends and members. semua ni aku decide and fikir masa selama 12 hari aku kat hospital. ye lah.. lama kat hospital tapi my brain is working. so anyway, lepas raya ni aku masih belum boleh mengajar, but classes are still on and will be taught by the awesome 3 zumba instructors at XTreme Hardcore Gym, Zin Zeela, Zin Niz & Zin Nina.

6 May - 17 May 2019

Salam & Morning.

After 12 days warded, Alhamdulillah i can be discharged today. Hopefully before noon.  Pain bearable although still there. So, coming home with painkillers tablet.

Yesterday evening was my 2nd time and alhamdulillah last injection for steroids on my right ribs.

Thank you everyone for the doas and visits 🤗🤗😘 only Allah swt can repay your kindness.

I am taking it easy and I do need your support emotionally.. be nice in your words to me if you see my physical changes. 👈i mean this

This #noordinarywoman WILL be back!  😜

love you all 😘😘😍🤗

Friday 17 May 2019
Prince Court Medical Centre, KL
www.ainkalam.com

last briefing before discharge process
sweet je nurse ni kan.. always smiling

Dr HL has been very patient with me and done all the necessary steps and listening to my complains on my pain. It was indeed a good decision to go under Dr HL's care after my incident in Maldives for his specialties. Yes, it has been a long journey. Setiap detail complains he address although I can see in your some like, not to say blur but you were also pelik why and how on all the pains that I complained. Kalau dah doctor pun pelik, me as a patient lagi lah lah.

All I wanted to know is to really get into the root cause of all these pains. Coz honestly rasanya macam tak habis2, and from 1 pain leads to another. I know that some of the reasons could be because I did not get a full rest as instructed coz I am degil and cannot sit still kind of woman. I really really have to do this. And those who thinks I am enjoying myself being warded - thank you.. Honestly I feel sick and tired with those kind of comments, and I don't think it was funny but I accept some of different characters on people I know. I would take it as you are amazed with my smiling all the time despite what I have to endure in life 👄 I love you still. 

I had a good rest and treatment from all the nurses on duty different shifts. Some I remember their faces during my last admission at PCMC. And I really want to thank every one for taking care of me here at PCMC. I know you ladies/guys are just doing your job but I guess when setiap perbuatan itu ikhlas, it shows all over in your face & gestures. For all the kesabaran to check on me and providing the essentials, seriously, I am so very grateful. And I cannot thank you all enough. With all the sweet smiles all the time and being gentle and courteous, you are a people person ladies! Salute!

The time that I was at PCMC, I still check on my office emails, answering some questions, check on zumba classes and plans and also did some thinking with a few other things that is going on with my life at the moment. And yes, if I can make time for office, zumba, I made time to blog. Coz I love to write and share. Bukan nya I terlantar tak boleh bangun pun. 👀 

What is my next career move was also on my mind, and I had a talk about this with Lisa. Maybe it will materialize, insyallah. I had my good wonderful moments talking with Lisa & Joey and have my heart to heart talk about us - and being far apart is difficult coz I so miss them a lot to be with me at times like this. Joey has been that young man who has been more responsible and mature and patient with his mom's kerenah too. love you son!

one of the nights when i had a dream of both of them sekali - scares me.

MrH, thank you for your patience too being with me every single moment until I do feel segan. He accompanied me in every second that he can and thanks to technology and we are on video call every night without fail. #silajanganmuntah.😋 He is aware of what is going on in my head, about us. His calmness and understanding just made me feel silly. But hey a woman is a woman, that is why Allah creates us differently to complete each other. What we talked about last night and discussed I think gave me some light and hope that we may achieve what we are dreaming of. And perhaps it was one of the booster for me to be well again and so looking forward to our future together insyallah. May Allah grant us perseverance, tolerance and understanding and love in each other.

thank you for being with me, and you know i know what we are to each other

always...love you mama ayah...

Family and friends [Divers, BBGS, PUO, office, ZUMBA members friends and instructors, Bridgeport University) which I might miss to sebut, I am sorry but you know that I am so thankful for all the doa and visits. As mentioned, do not feel bad for not coming to visit - I am truly ok. Yang hantar messages bertanya khabar pun, tq, silent readers with silent doa's thank you. 

Day 10 - warded

today marks the 10 day i am being warded at the hospital. i don't know if this has got anything to do with my incident back in maldives in january but what i know i have vulnerable lungs at this point of time. although i tried so hard not to get myself sick, somehow the environment is not helping people like me. or was it work stress? or too much thinking of what is next life has for me? i know for sure it is somewhat about AH. hmmm too much on that. i should deviate my focus on other things - things that we/i are more certain and i can control of. 

i should just get back on track on getting really healthy. really try to do something else to distract my frustration on not having be able to do the usual exercise that uses my strength so much. so, right now, definitely no weight training, no full zumba teaching, no swimming hmm what is left? yoga?? i really need to get the time with maria.  

as i am writing this now, i just had my minor procedure to jab steroid on my right ribs for the pain that i've got due to my long due cough. it hurts when i breathe in or when i cough. i had my jabs on my left ribs few days ago and i felt a bit better and relief. next question how i landed in the hospital this time?

chronology events:

💪 i had flu for more than 2 weeks, so somewhere in early april after i came back from Langkawi. could be due to the hot weather over there. 

💪 i made it to shadow my zumba instructor friend during KLZM2019 on 20 April 2019 - Malaysia Book of Record Marathon Zumba for 12 hours - yey #alhamdulillah, i felt good about myself and AH has always been there to ensure i am ok throughout the event. basically my own private medical team. hahhaha love you sayang 💋

💪 after KLZM event, i started to get bad cough, and phlegm. went to GP and get the medicines that i needed, but still there. until 26 April 2019 when my detail lungs test is due with Dr HL at PCMC. it was ok, not so nice coz i was having bad cough. Dr HL prescribed inhaler and etc for me. felt good for the first few days but nothing much changes after that although i still took the meds religiously. 

💪 then i started joining my zumba classes and have practices since i took a job end of April 2019 (27 Apr 2019) for a school event. i have to start somewhere coz i need my stamina back. did i have short of breath during the practise, yes but i can manage. i stopped and rested in between. my throat and lips were dry. i tell you, during that time, my breathing was at the tip and i was tercungap2 but show must go on... many thanks to ZZ and ZN who covered me up during the 30 minutes session. they both are my left and right wing/strength who have always been supportive towards me. 

💪 after 2 weeks of cough, it went bad to worst, i had to go to ER sent by AH since he was around over the weekend, and i took nabulizer to ease my chest. and got referred to Dr HL back on Monday. 

💪 sunday, i decided to do some light swimming exercise at my house pool. hehehe 😜with AH. mengah tercungap dah macam ikan keluar air. i was really panting swimming from one end to another. but i am happy i am ok for the fear. i fought my fear of water after jan incident. that was my intention. 

💪 monday, i went to the office and coughed so bad that my face turned red. waited for the time for my next appointment with Dr HL and he got me admitted for full check up.. and so here i am. 

joey who accompanied me when he can 

this is like a few times a day to help the phlegm and my breathing

got this on google and understand why DR HL did all the steps.

so basically while i am here, we have done XRays, CTScans, blood tests, culture samples, urine samples, physio chest and all are okay just that i have viral, sinus, bronchitis and now due to the long bad cough, my ribs are a bit swollen and it hurts. still managing my cough now and treat the swelling. 

so yeah now on day 10, i will come out okay. 

keep on breathing ain!

i am a person with full of smile no matter what... 

more of the bruises at my back and hands

AgeLoc is For You

Like some of you, i was skeptical at first. What drives me to share this programme is when i see my younger sister (N3) changed her lifestyle with this programme. Everyone know how much she loves to eat and she is a wonderful baker. And her cakes and cookies are yummy which makes it difficult to change her lifestyle to a healthier way. I have tried many ways  to help her [believe me, i gave up on her being her sister who is also a group fitness instructor] but all these while, 

👉 either she didn't want to do it, 

👉 her yes is not powerful enough, 

👉 she didn't get enough support from her close family and friends, 

👉 she is just plain lazy, 

👉 i think she hates the fact of being hungry and craving

👉 she is frustrated with the rebound when she stops on any programme. 

Sorry sis... hehhehe 😀 i love you still 😘no matter what, okay. and I am so proud of you on the transformation and decision that you have made FOR YOU!

I saw her journey when I go to #38 (our parents house code), she was actually happy with her routine of food intake and the timing of food intake. She looks happier and energetic (very important), she wasn't starving and craving (she takes it easy, no stress, don't think too much, but with discipline and she knows what to eat right and the quantity) owhh I LOVE the COLOR Code for this programme.

So, the one in green is N3 with ref: ZK and she did it in 2 months. If you wish to set a 30 mins date for FREE Consultation, No Obligation with us, to know about the programme, please let us know which Ref attracts your attention, (ZK or AN)

The pic at the bottom is my cousin, AN and she has a different journey which was much faster for her in terms of loses inches. After joining the programme she became so motivated to share her success and it makes her happier with her lifestyle changed to be healthier. We can share more during the 30 mins date for FREE Consultation, No Obligation.

Create your opportunities | Don't sit & wait

It is our business is to help you to transform to a better health person. result shown in the programme depends on body and routine. we provide support group along the way so that you won't be left alone and blur throughout the programme.

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Ref: ZK [do not use without permission]

Ref: AN [do not use without permission]

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Get Motivated!

Why do people say you can't do it?

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relationship goals

what is relationship to you? sometimes being single is okay until you really have or found someone who is worth to be with. maybe betul lah apa orang cakap/tulis, bila dah lama single, being in a relationship membuatkan kita rasa sedikit pelik. off late ni aku banyak fikir, or maybe aku terlebih fikir. tiba2 aku risau aku tak dapat bagi yang terbaik untuk dia. i am feeling a bit errmm i dont know what is the word for it. but offlate ni aku kerap fikir, am i enough for him. will he be happy with me? what if i cannot give him what he wants? what's next? memang aku fikir banyak 😪 

for the past few months he has made me a happy person and almost complete. selagi kitorang tak de 'lesen' tak boleh la nak kata complete lagi, kan? 😋 tapi memang he has always been there for me, time aku sedih, happy, sihat, tak sihat, memang dia sentiasa ada and aku memang thankful sangat. tapi sekarang ni aku tengah emo sendiri kut. 

this week ada cuti kat tengah2 minggu. aku baru cakap bestnya kalau tetiba kelas dia cancel ke, untuk khamis & jumaat. sekali tup tup, dia hantar message bagitau tak de kelas hari khamis & jumaat. kalau lah aku cuti kan best. ni aku kena kerja jugak so terpaksa lah dia layan diri sendiri.. tapi at least aku balik rumah, dia ada. and dia dekat dengan aku. dekat tapi jauh.. tettt... hehehehe 😛 tolong jangan muntah, orang bercinta lah katakan.. ehhh...

anyway rambling kali ni kan pasal relationship, so cuba korang fikir balik in you all punya relationship, are you a changed person? changed meaning, you are not being yourself. and pada aku bila aku with him, i am being myself. except of course la ada benda2 yang aku kena berubah.. hik hik... 😜and pada aku tak susah mana pun, maybe sebab we all dah kawan2 dulu sebelum we both jump in a relationship. aku pun memang tak sangka that we can go this far. tapi i am happy and glad he is in my life. anak2 aku pun ok, maybe sebab diorang pun lega that i have someone who cares for me and love me. cuma satu je, apa2 pun aku tak boleh nak berjauhan dari anak2 aku. simply because despite him being with me, his nature of work membuatkan kitorang selalu berjauhan. and bila dia tak de dengan aku time tu pun i have my me time, time aku dengan gang2 zumba aku atau gang2 divers aku. ha.. ada je activity aku sebenarnya. paling tidak pun, aku kat rumah dengan mischa lah. tapi so far, anak2 aku ada je lah berdekatan. ni sementara anak2 aku belum ada family diorang sendiri lah kan.

kejap, sebenarnya apa yang aku nak tulis ni? ok lah.. i think too much.. yeup that is about it. or maybe sebab we are together tapi we do not have that official thing to tie us together? sebab tu aku masih terasa seperti di awang-awangan? aku masih sure tak sure? walaupun dia sentiasa mengconfirmkan aku. i just kenot lah.. banyak sangat benda uncertain kut. aku pun masih risau dengan his parents acceptance.

macam yang aku pernah cakap dengan dia dulu.. i cannot undo what i am right now. my situation and my condition. i am already what i am. i cannot change that. but of course in all our life, semua orang akan cuma cuba yang terbaik and to be the best for people they love, kan? and cuma tadi aku terbaca postings2 aku pasal relationship... way back in 2008.. and how people change a few years later sedangkan aku masih yang sama.