seribu rindu

i know that this drama ada Zul Ariffin. daya penarik untuk aku to watch it. tapi somehow for now belum cukup tertarik untuk tengok. sekarang dah banyak episode kut. and i started watching it online i think this week. aku tau kadang2 kalau aku start follow drama online ni, tidur aku mesti terganggu. sebab kadang2 tu boleh bersambung after one episode and another. 

mula2 tu memang ala terexcited nak tengok balik lakonan ZA in drama... kadang2 dengar dia gelak jer dah.. cair... hik hik hik.. 😂 biasa lah kalau celebrity crush memang macam ni kan. bukan leh dapat pun. tapi bila nak masuk ep 2 kut terus potong stim. aku cukup bosan dengan drama2 sekarang.. mesti la pasal arrange marriage.. pasal tak setaraf lah.. dato2 tak leh terima orang2 biasa la.. etc.. terus off la .. tolong la tak de ke cerita lain sikit jalannya?

and lagi satu yang mengganggu mata aku - sakit mata kut tengok cara dressing bapak si Aeril ni.. Dato Muiz.. and aku tak sure siapa pelakon dia. and his lakonan pun pada aku macam tak best. aku rasa lah.. orang lain maybe suka. dengan kemeja colorful and entah lah.. sangat tidak menokoh as a dad in the drama and as someone called ahli perniagaan berjaya. hmm entah.. just aku rasa lah kan.. aku cari gambar dia kat google pun tak jumpa nak tepek kat sini. hehee 😀korang kena tengok lah kalau nak faham apa yang aku cuba nak bagitau ni. malam tadi aku baru tengok ep 4 half way.. terus turned off. baik aku layan Mr.H yang tengah tak leh tido sebab kerisauan tu. at least berbakti and bermakna jugak for staying up. tettt.. 

oh by the way, side track sikit. sekarang ni aku tengah sakit kepala. gara2 tak cukup tidur kut malam tadi or tidur tak lena. not sure if i should share the info here coz it is quite personal coz it involves Mr.H's family. anyway my prayers are with his family sampai aku terbawak2 dalam mimpi malam tadi. whatever moral support that he needs ie the doa and prayers.. you've got it from me, that is for sure. i feel you when you said at times like this we need a companion to be with, or at least who can understand and give us the comfort that we need. i guess that is the downside being single kut - agak pilu di situ bila tak de tempat nak mengadu and share rasa2 sedih and serabut macam ni. tak pe lah Mr.H, while we are both single, let's give each other the support that we need eh.. tettt... that's what friends are for kan. takkan time happy2 jer.. time susah senang pun sama2 gak kut. lagipun Mr.H ni aku dah rasa macam family somehow. i will see you real soon ok. hang in there. not sure if he is gonna read  this soon enough coz he will be busy at the hospital. 

Glo Laser Centre: SKINFIX Laser & Light Facial

26 Nov 2018: ni nama dia bila tengah tak de kerja or tengah mamai pi pandai2 dok click kat iklan kat IG and pi sign up for registration. tau-tau dapat phone call to attend this session. aku curious jugak apa benda la laser skin fix ni. if you ask me, i am not the type yang nak mencerahkan muka coz i love my tanned skin. tapi ye la.. bila usia dah meningkat ni tetiba aku terasa there are certain things yang wujud like pigmentation on my face and neck and i didnt like it. so was just thinking if this treatment can help. so aku pun agree je lah.. dah kena RM168 for the session but i got 2 treatments lah. 

i decided to go after my zumba class kat hotel maya. hari ni pun mood agak ke laut.. sebab pms kut. and ada la sesuatu terjadi yang aku terasa macam sedih & sebak. bila AH text pun aku jawab acuh tak acuh jer. entah.. macam tak de mood. or macam terasa diri sendiri bodoh... haa gitu lah.. drama sangat kan.. 

masa sampai tu consultant tu tanya la a few things and explain. atas nama aku nak beli their products, i dont think so. for now i will stick to my SKII which memang bagus and sesuai untuk muka aku, kalau aku berdisiplin pakai. cumanya aku ni tak rajin. kadang pakai kadang tak. tu yang muka macam berasap je tuh. 

and lepas sesi soal jawab kena tunggu for the treatment session. masa ni masak gak bontot nak tunggu... waiting time mula2 88 minutes kut!! apa aku nak buat wehh kat KLCC.. memang sangat merbahaya. hahaha 😂 dah dalam 20 minit tu aku dah mula bosan.. aku pun jalan2 la kat parkson.. dapat beli birthday present adik aku, N3. then i got back to the centre.. and time ni sib baik aku jumpa plug in charger - so aku pun layan la drama Seribu Rindu. 

tak lama lepas tu consultant panggil for my treatment. ingatkan lama rupanya 15 minutes je treatment dia. masa dia buat treatment tu i can feel my skin macam tajam2.. and gatal2 perih. and i can smell macam bau hangit. bila aku tanya consultant tu, dia punya explanation is sebab ada dirt kat muka aku. hahaha 😀lantak la labu... belasah je lah... so yeah aku buat je lah yang macam video ni. ni bukan video aku tau.. aku jumpa je kat youtube nak share dengan korang. heee... 😀 kalau nak tau sendiri pi la google Glo Laser Centre. 

rindu

kadang2 tak tau pun kenapa dia rindu. rindu kat tang mana pun tak tau. tapi, ye lah.. rasa macam tak puas kalau borak. or tak puas kalau dapat jumpa. that feeling just come on its own kut. will the feeling go away later on? no one knows.. kut. there are times that the mind thinks that you just cannot forget someone and you miss that someone so much. tapi kuasa Allah tu maha hebat kan? some feelings yang kita sangka tak kan hilang, when He says it will be gone, it will be gone, just like that. maybe some day perasaan rindu tu akan hilang. at least that is what i thought coz bukan hak aku untuk miss that someone. tapi mungkin ke sementara aku masih rindu, that it is ok? tau tak part yang paling sadis is bila kita rindu tapi kita tak tau if kita dirindui ke tak. 😂 hahaha sedey siot. tapi tak pe la kowt.. perasaan macam ni mana boleh paksa2. datang dengan sendiri kan.. walaupun dah pujuk hati sendiri.. "jangan monyet" tapi monyet tu degil.. dia kata "aku nak jugak.. aku nak jugak!" akhirnya? dia jugak yang rugi 🤣 back up plan? entah.. malas fikir.. ikut je lah ketentuan Nya. 

cinta & kawan

Satu hari CINTA & KAWAN berjalan dalam kampung...

Tiba-tiba CINTA terjatuh dalam telaga... 

Kenapa??

Kerana CINTA itu buta.. Lalu KAWAN pun ikut terjun dalam telaga... 

Kenapa?? 

Kerana...KAWAN akan buat apa sahaja demi CINTA!! Di dalam telaga CINTA hilang... 

Kenapa?? 

Kerana...CINTA itu halus, mudah hilang kalau tak dijaga, sukar dicari apatah lagi dalam telaga yang gelap... Sedangkan KAWAN masih lagi tercari-cari dimana CINTA & terus menunggu.. 

Kenapa?? 

Kerana...KAWAN itu sejati & akan kekal sebagai KAWAN yang setia...kan??

so, hargai lah KAWAN kita selagi kita terasa dia bererti...

pilihan ke syurga

in life kadang2 memang susah untuk kita buat decision. kalau semuanya senang, tak de lah cabaran dalam hidup. and tak de lah kita boleh grow to be a mature person and dapat belajar mempertimbangkan yang mana baik and mana buruk. yang mana ikut akal fikiran and yang mana ikut hati perasaan. cerita pasal hati dan perasaan memang tak akan selari dengan akal fikiran. is it always? or sometimes? entahlah, depends kut on situation. 

my kind of thinking changes as i get into a different phase of life. yes, i will hurt people's feelings along the way but sometimes, we get hurt too. that (when we are the ones who get hurt) is when we grow to be someone stronger and/or someone with experience. whichever way you will be a better person, insyaallah. i love talking to joey about life, about people's acceptance, people's behavior and so forth. he seems to be mature talking about certain matters and he knows what to ask and how to discuss on matters. it may be a heavy topic but i enjoy talking to him about these. and he will ask questions that will make me think too. and jangan tak tahu...😅 our most recent topic was.. "sharing in a relationship or polygamy vs monogamy"

"There is nothing like the love between a Mother and a Son..."

i would not say that it is the most difficult decision but, it is 1 tough decision when you had to choose between your mom and someone dear to you or someone you love. someone asked me, as a mom, would i allow joey to be in a relationship with someone who was once married and with a child. i did not give an answer because i am not in that situation right now as a mom, and i do not need to think of something that has not happen yet. it's like cross the bridge when the time comes kinda thing. 

but i can share my own experience as the person who was being left being a divorcee with kids. 

i was 34 i think, and i was already a divorcee then with 2 kids. i was about to fall for a guy (bachelor - same age) whom i knew since high school. didn't know him so close during school time, but we sort of got in touch online and we kinda clicked. anyway, to cut the story short, we were about to be in a serious relationship. but i had some reservation because i had a feeling that it will not be an easy situation. this happened in 2006 i think.. can't really remember details. but my concern senang je.. 

i told him.  

"ibu mana nak terima menantu 'janda', ada baggage lagi... i don't want to get into a serious relationship until you clear up with your mom and tell her the truth. i tak nak nanti penat2 dah rasa sayang, and it is not going anywhere. apa2 pun your mom is more important" and he was really confident about his mom's acceptance. 

i had doubt. and he said, "it is ok... my mom is ok.. she is open minded... " etc etc etc

when tiba2, when we sort of declared as a couple, and my kids are already close to him, he went MIA. he just went silent.. did not answer my calls... did not answer my messages. my guess was right ,that his mom could not accept and he didn't have the heart to tell me.

so the point is it, in any case, do get your mom to accept your partner naturally. apa2 pun as a son, tanggungjawab utama adalah your mom. and until green light is received baru lah boleh janji bulan & bintang. coz tak guna nak janji bulan & bintang dulu bila tak de restu. i am not saying all mothers are like that but i don't know.. syurga itu di bawah tapak kaki ibu, kan. jangan ambil remeh perasaan seorang ibu. 

and to women yang baru divorce pulak, get used to being alone dulu, focus on yourself, your kid(s), learn to be berdikari and tak semestinya yang hilang tu dapat/akan/perlu di ganti that fast. when i was at that age/phase i was too quick to think that i need a replacement father figure for my kids. sedangkan sebenarnya semua tu pun can be an option. kids will eventually get used to having their mom only as their protector or person whom they love. 

semoga semua pilihan kita adalah pilihan untuk ke syurga... insyaallah... ameen 😊 and me personally, will not want to be the person to be in between a son & his mom, and lagi2 bila aku sendiri ada joey. 

sand & sandals, desaru beach - my personal review

view from our room

in front of one of the function room

steps up to my parents space in the Couple Suite

Family Suite Hall/Space for kids

who knows that i will be visiting this part of malaysia again after my last trip many2 years back. which i don't remember which year. but i think i remembered it was with LS and her family. and i felt like we have been driving for so many long hours but did not reach the destination. 

but this time round, it was really beautiful - a beautiful trip as a whole. you can read my postings on desaru here i come to know my story and adventure coz this posting is only about my personal review on the resort itself.

i will share about the Couple Suite coz thats where we stayed in. they had a nice bar/ala casino counter at the living room with naughty games ideas. 😁 i find it cute. hahahah 😂 the ambiance was really nice and relaxing for honeymooners. the beach, the bar at the pool, the people who works there are friendly and helpful. perhaps if they have live band it would be nicer. or is it because we were there not on the day that they have live band? 

• date of visit: 4 Nov - 6 Nov 2018
• location: Sand & Sandals Beach & Spa Resort, Desaru Beach, Johor, Malaysia
• room: we booked 2 different suites, Couple Suite & Family Suite
• decor: cosy and romantic for the Couple Suite & fun and creative for the Family Suite. we stayed at the Couple Suite. 
• cleanliness of the room: 9 out of 10. 
• hotel service: It was okay at the reception and up to the room. but the technical service needs to be improved. had the bathroom sink sort of blocked and the repair was not to my satisfaction. and when i called again, the technical guy did not turn up. informed the reception but no response although at the reception, he said they will get someone to check. 
• cafe service: food was so so for me, but my other family members like it. (main cafe)
• food: 6 out of 10.
• pool: nice but not enough chairs by the poolside. 
• lift: needs to be taken care of. it was slow, and the door sensitivity needs to be checked and upgraded. 

desaru here i come [part 5] - end

aku terjaga dalam lebih kurang pukul 6.30am kut.. err or at least before 7.00am.. eh apsal macam dah terang ehh.. mama kejutkan aku, padahal aku memang dah terjaga pun. mama kejut aku solat subuh. tido dengan mama & ayah memang akan terjaga every about 2 hours and mama memang dah warning sebab she needs to go to the bathroom. aku pun tak kisah. aku ok jer. best apa tido dengan mama & ayah.. like how i used to masa kecik2. sekarang dah tua bangka dapat lagi manja dengan diorang, it is an opportunity jugak kan. and again, i am so glad i actually stayed on with them on the trip. and thank you jugak AH sebab join the short trip.. he blends in dah macam our family member. 

aku turun bawah tengok lampu dah terang. AH dah bangun rupanya. aku terus pi bathroom and clean myself and ambik wuduk. on the way up aku tanya AH.. 

"you dah subuh ke?" 

"dah"   dia jawab. alhamdulillah... dalam hati aku.. 

bagus dia ni... time ni dah up sikit lahh points untuk dia.. husband material.. 😂untung lah siapa dapat si AH ni.. sopan santun orangnya.. pandai ambik hati & bercakap dengan orang tua. kadang2 orang perempuan ni nak semua yang luaran je, sedangkan dalaman pun sangat penting sebenarnya.  nak cari kena cari yang boleh mengimamkan kita as ketua keluarga. i guess how they are brought up plays an important role, i believe. si joey tu je, aku nak kena basuh lagi, bagi lagi helok sket perangai. tapi maybe sebab dia masih budak2, only 18 years old, so masih belum matang on certain things. so, guys - readers out there.. lengkapkan diri for this if you wanna be a good spouse coz you are the one yang nak bimbing your life partner esok 😉 okay enough of bebeling.. kita sambung citer...

settled kewajipan, aku lepak jap kat atas dengan mama & ayah. and ayah mintak coffee.. aku masak air and buat coffee untuk ayah pagi tu. kunun2 breakfast in bed.. ehh more of coffee in bed for my dad. hehehe 😆 aku siap kemas barang2 aku sikit. food kat dalam fridge memang banyak tak yah cakap lah kan. i took some drinks that i bought the day before and brought it to N1's room for my nieces and my nephew kalau diorang lambat turun for brekkie. 

AH packed 1 of his bags to bring to his car. aku dah bagitau mama & ayah that AH and i will have breakfast outside. aku lagi puas kut.. i can get my roti canai and teh tarik.. and as i said, aku tak makan banyak mana pun.. and plus the breakfast package untuk 2 pax je for mama & ayah's room. 

view ni memang rare untuk aku. dah lama kut aku tak buat benda2 ni..
sorry eh AH, i ambik candid. 😆

aku perhati je AH buat benda2 ni untuk keter dia. aku dah lama kut tak tengok view ni.. hehehe 😁entah aku ingat lagi entah tidak. kalau dulu aku lah akan maintain kereta aku sendiri. ayah aku ajar apa nak buat, apa nak check. tapi bila dah malas.. tu yang aku decide beli je kereta apa2 ikut kemampuan poket aku and aku tak yah pikir maintenance. 

kitorang pergi balik kat restoran mamak yang kitorang tapau mee goreng untuk ayah malam tadi. masa tu time berlalu cepat sangat aku rasa. borak macam tak puas pulak dengan AH. tengok2 jam dah pukul 10.30am and N1 kata by 11.00am our driver sampai and nak bertolak balik ke KL. aku ni banyak cakap/bercerita agaknya tu yang tak habis2.. dah macam sessi bebelan pulak untuk AH. harap2 dia tak bosan la dengar cerita aku. 

sampai2 kat bilik jer, mama & ayah dah siap bawak turun all their bags. aku baru nak mintak tolong AH.. hehhehe 😁 but dah terlewat. diorang dah siap packing semua. tak lama lepas tu aku panggil bellboy to assist us with the bags. bila bellboy sampai, AH helped with the bags. ni another plus point, AH ni jenis ringan tulang, rajin nak buat benda2 macam ni tanpa disuruh. aku harap si joey ni esok2 pun macam tu jugak. tau bila nak menolong, tak payah disuruh. haa macam tu lah.. baru bf/hubby material! banyak aku dah bagi point kat si AH ni. 

dah keluar bilik, AH rajin lagi layan aku nak bergambar kat area dekat2 dengan bilik we all. cantek kut resort ni sebenarnya. and entah bila lagi dapat merasa nak dok sini. dah la jauh, mahal pulak tu aku rasa. ni pun sebab rezki tumpang bilik mama & ayah... hehehe 😁

TQ AH sebab ambik gambar ni i nampak slim sket 😋

we gathered at the lobby ngam2 11.30am and the driver and our ride pun dah sampai. time to say goodbye to AH and desaru. it was indeed a short and sweet trip and time spent with AH. unexpected but was fun. and tak tau lah if we can have another opportunity again macam tu kan. we'll see. 

time to go back to KL *sad*

bye2 AH.. last memories at sands & sandals.. ada rezki jumpa lagi.

kitorang gerak ke KL and ada misi lain lagi... N1 seperti biasa misi mencari tempat makan yang menarik kat johor - which is mee racun katanya. aku dengar pun seriau.. agak2 lah kan. bagi la nama best sikit for marketing pun. ini mcam mendoakan pelanggan keracunan pulak. and bagusnya driver we all dia tabah je melayan kerenah we all dalam kereta. dia senyum jer.. hahaha 😂 dengan ragam ayah aku kentut lah... dengan N1 kentut lah.. adehhh.. pening..

i ordered the one with tulang i think... and boleh la sedap jugak..
but am not gonna sedut inside the tulang.
coz am not gonna sedut what i can't see! 

so i guess, this is the end of our desaru trip. seronok sangat.. really enjoyed time with my nieces and nephew.. and manja2 dengan mama & ayah at the same time. tak tau la bila lagi dalam trip dengan kalam's clan macam ni. Ya Allah murahkan la rezeki kami for more future trips together. ameeennn 😊 and until today, 3 weeks after the trip, haritu aku kelentong dengan ayah bagitau AH on the way nak datang KL.. ehehe 😀sian ayah, dia percaya.. beriyer ayah tanya the next morning, "AH mana?" kekekeke 😀 dah seronok la ayah tu borak2 dengan AH. hmmm tak per lah.. ayah pun tak de anak lelaki, boleh je kalau nak buat anak angkat 😎

disclaimer: apa2 yang aku tulis dalam posting kali ni, aku dah dapat permission dari AH okay. and even to put up his photo, actually he didn't mind pun if i were to post his picture. cuma aku saje je letak sticker tu... heheheh 😋 and tak de la 100% apa yang terjadi aku nak cerita kat sini. semua my postings memang macam tu.. ada la rahsia sikit2 for me and for whomever i write about untuk jaga privacy masing2.  maybe sebab dia single kut sebab tu dia tak kisah.. 

6 REASONS THAT PREVENT YOU FROM LOSING WEIGHT [6]

6. TAKING MEDICINE


Photo Credit: bartsz

A host of drugs that treat diabetes, depression, high blood pressure, inflammatory disease (such as Prednisone, above) and more affect weight regulation. Some will make you hungrier and others stimulate your body to store fat. And if a drug affects the brain, there’s a good chance it affects weight. Ask your health care provider if an alternate drug or a lower dose could work, but don’t change your medications without discussing it first.

ain: difficult, yes but to me personally, jangan la sebab you all ambik ubat, your food intake pun main belasah.. memang bertambah2 lah kan. so yeah, it can be a reason but just don't add to it, find ways to do extra to lose your weight - things that you, can control. 

credit: https://dailyentertainment.me/health/6-reasons-that-prevent-you-from-losing-weight/6

desaru here i come [part 4]

.... resort ni memang tenang and cantek and sangat sesuai for couple for honeymoon. when we got back at the resort lepas dinner, i wanted to look for some entertainment, mana lah tau ada live band ke by the beach. boleh la lepak lagi sambil mengopi. but somehow the resort dah agak sunyi. maybe sebab it was not really on the weekend kut. kat lobby pun tak de orang. cuma kat area poolside tu macam ada lights... so we kinda follow the light.. 😆 

there is a bar behind this small Jacuzzi pool.

sampai je kat hujung tu, rupanya kat bar near the poolside tu diorang dah kemas, ada lah music sikit. and on the other part of the poolside ada a smaller macam cafe yang ada stage kecik. AH pun pergi la ke situ.. ada info notice.. la hai.. melepas lah. kat sini biasa ada 3-piece band kecuali on monday. hahahah 😁 tough luck lah... it was a monday! nak balik bilik macam masih awal. kat tangan dok pegang bungkusan mee goreng mamak & roti bakar yang ayah & mama pesan tadi. i saw tempat duduk macam settee kat tepi bar tu, so kitorang pun duduk la situ kejap.. kejap je pun tak sampai 10 minit. music was a bit loud jugak kalau nak borak. i can see some people - a family and friends kut, playing by the beach. macam best jer. aku fikir, kan best kalau i get to stay here for a few more days. lagipun aku cuti sampai hari khamis kut. tapi semua tu aku bercakap sendiri je lah... banyak expenses nanti kalau stay lagi satu hari. ishhh tak leh... tak leh...

the beach was nicely lighted.. and terang benderang.. cantik sepanjang pantai 

kitorang jalan lagi kat tepi bilik kitorang, and ada swing yang cantek, tempat aku ambik gambar siang tadi dengan marissa.. malam pun cantek jugak with all the lightings... tapi segan pulak dengan AH nak ambik gambar lagi kat situ. sure kang dia ingat, minah ni pantang betul - suka benor nak ambik2 gambar... haa..memang la pun kannn. so aku pun padamkan lah hasrat. tapi bila dah nak sampai bilik tu, aku ajak la AH selfie. harap2 dia ok lah.. tak de awek/bini yang nak marah kut.. aku bercakap sendiri. si AH ni memang terlalu selamba and orangnya tenang je.. kalau bercakap pun lembut je.. he is so different dengan character yang dia portray masa atas kapal - which i thought at that time orangnya mungkin tegas atau garang. time ni aku rasa aku dah comfortable dengan AH tapi of course lah masih control perangai walaupun aku pun selamba jer tak la gila2 sangat. aku ni bukan jenis ada banyak perangai, kiranya. maksud aku, dengan sesiapa pun perangai/sikap/character aku sama jer.. means, what you see is what you get kind of person. kalau dah kenal, mungkin senang kut. kalau aku pun selesa dengan sesiapa, aku akan banyak cakap. kalau tak, aku lebih senang diam2, and perhatikan orang. kira i will just jadi observer la, haaa gitu. 

mata dah memang agak berat, tapi aku rasa macam sayang pulak nak tido awal. ye lah, bila lagi aku depat dapat lepak dengan AH kan. sementara aku tak de sesiapa... tetttt.. and aku masih bebas untuk lepak and hang out dengan sesiapa.. tetttt.. and of course while AH pun masih single.. which tak lama kut... hahaha 😂teetttttt.. nak ajak AH stay up lama2, risau gak kut kut la dia penat.. ye lah.. dia drive dari kuantan.. pastu balik kampung dia dulu kat mersing, and then drive ke desaru nak jumpa aku.. penat kowt.. so i guess time tu, we better get back to the room. 

on the other side of the resort pulak walking towards our room

so we got back to the room. aku terus naik and check on ayah and mama... both of them masih main phone atas katil. ini lah dia couple zaman sekarang - walaupun orang2nya orang zaman dulu.. asyik main hendphone jer.. 😋 dah letak food kat bilik my parents, aku pun turun balik nak tukar baju. and kemas2 sikit the room's bar counter. yes, the room has a bar counter. and siap ada tips how to play games for partner lagi.. hahaha 😜memang fun bilik tu. aku sambil pasang tv, tapi bukan ada movie best pun. aku kemas apa2 yang patut. masa tu dah memang lewat lah.. 

N1 offered AH to sleep in their room coz they have an extra bed. but as aku agak, memang la AH tak nak... aku pun tak nak bagi (sort of 😋) .. jauh kut jarak our rooms.. and bakpe kawan aku nak lepak sana.. kitorang nak borak2 lagi sampai lewat malam.. aku pikir lah kannn masa tu. so aku dah settle clear a few things kat ruang tamu tu.. or the living area sebab AH nak tido kat situ.. takkan nak biar sepah2.. nanti serabut kut nak rehat kat situ. and lepas aku tukar baju, aku tengok AH mata dah kuyu kat sofa.. 

"you nak buat apa tu?"  tanya AH. 

"ada nak check kerja kejap online"  aku cover line.. padahal... aku nak ajak tengok movie sebenarnya, tapi bila tengok dia macam nak dah letih, aku pun macam tak sampai hati.. so aku ingat betul2 la nak check email kerja kejap.. or maybe i can blog a bit. 

as i thought... tak lama tu, elok jer aku intai AH... laaa... dia dah berlayar di alam mimpi rupanya.. 😀 so aku pun switch off la laptop aku, nak kena tutup lampu so that dia boleh tido dengan selesa.. he must be so tired.. driving and aku pulak heret dia ke sini sana.. kikikiki 😀 sebelum aku naik atas, i woke him up coz he was sleeping on half of the sofa. aku dah sediakan bantal and selimut untuk dia. suruh dia tido selesa sikit.. and aku pun naik atas join mama & ayah, lepas tutup lampu... 

tapikan.. kalau la si AH ni laki aku.. memang tak de chan dia nak tido.. confirm aku kacau and layan aku tengok movie! hahahha 😄

this is not him, but the best illustration to show how he sleeps.. heheheh 😀 gigih aku cari gambar kat internet tau! 

6 REASONS THAT PREVENT YOU FROM LOSING WEIGHT [5]

5. TOO MUCH STRESS


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When you are under too much stress, your body begins to produce cortisol, the fight-or-flight hormone that worsens insulin resistance and promotes the storage of fat! There may be nothing you can do to stop the stressful situation but try to find a relaxing outlet to help you deal with it.

ain: hemmmm part ni camna pulak ehh? sometimes we dont know that we are having stress? it can be work related, life related, relationship related etc.. so, only you would know which one applies to you and find out how to manage your stress. or, you can find a professional help. or you can also talk to someone about it. 

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6 REASONS THAT PREVENT YOU FROM LOSING WEIGHT [4]

4. LACK OF SLEEP

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Think you’re doing yourself a favor by skipping sleep so you can workout more? The truth is, you’d be better off staying in bed and finishing that sleep cycle because studies have shown that more sleep equals a healthier waistline.

ain: i have this problem now... it has been like these for a few months. and i think i know the reasons... tettt.. but what can i do about it? hahaha 😁 pi layan perasan siapa suruh?! but yeahh... got to improve on that. so this takes discipline especially for those who are addicted with gadget... tetttt.. nope not me so much... yeah i chat with my friends.. or sometimes i will watch online movie.. or drama series.. yeahh.. hehehe **guilty! so everyone, please have enough quality sleep ok. 

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DESARU HERE I COME (PART 3)

when we decided to take a plunge in the pool, many guests were leaving already. so it was not as crowded as it was earlier. we were lucky enough to get the chair nearer to our side of the pool. sib baik air tak sejuk sangat. AH banyak tipu.. berendam je lebih daripada swim 😋 since that is another form of me exercising, i took the chance to do a few laps. cukup la kut after the day walk by the beach kan. and we borak again. entah la macam ada je yang nak diborakkan. after the big pool, aku try pulak pool kecik ala2 jacuzzi dia, cuma airnya sejukkknya wehhh.. so tak la lama sangat kat situ. lagi pun lepas tu terfikir nanti mama & ayah nak dinner pulak kan. so dalam pukul 7 lebih tu kitorang pun naik to our room. cheywah our room... heheeh 😝 ye, our room with my parents in there. jangan gabra pulak.. tak baik buruk sangka tau... ahakss.. ha.. nak membawang la tuh... 😋 suka hati korang lah. 

time ni dah nak naik pun... hari pun dah start gelap... dah la aku pun gelap 

swimming pool @ sands and sandals resort, desaru. cantek kan?

bila kitorang naik ke bilik, aku pun mandi and solat kat bilik my parents kat atas while AH was getting ready downstairs at 'our area' hehehehe 😀 ye lah sebab luas kut duplex tu kan.. and seperti yang aku jangkakan mama & ayah malas nak keluar dinner. well more of mama lah. mama kalau pi holiday memang kadang malas nak keluar balik. and plus kitorang mana ada transport kan to fit in all 8 of us. so senang2, aku orderkan room service for mama & ayah and biasanya diorang akan share sebab siang tadi dah makan banyak katanya. 

aku memang plan nak keluar dinner kat gerai ke, kedai makan mana2 kat area luar of the resort. entah tekak terasa nak makan macam thai food tapi AH pulak tak tau yang mana sedap. so kitorang pun just belasah je lah. macam yang aku cakap la, AH ni memang bf material sebab dia ni memang faham dengan kehendak perempuan.. hahhaaha 😄 sambil aku type ni pun aku dah gelak. kalau kat kedai ke, kat gerai ke yang kitorang stop.. dari siang tadi lah, dia akan cari parking yang betul2 dekat dengan kedai/gerai tu. so that tak jalan jauh. haa.. so tak yah la nak gaduh2 bagitau carik tempat parking yang dekat. hik hik 😄plus point di situ. kitorang ronda2, jumpa la satu kedai thai, kitorang belasah je.. sebab dah lapar.. and i ordered sup ekor for me.. slurpp.. teringat balik.. lapar pulak sambil tulis blog nih.. haishhh.. and aku ni kadang bila nampak satay, terexcited.. so, bagitau lah kat AH... tup tup sekali berapa cucuk eh dia order.. 10 eh.. alaa aku tak ingat la.. tapi satay daging dia sedap lahh.

dalam tengah makan tu lah AH bagitau aku, rupanya tadi macam ayah aku nak ikut.. laa siannya.. tapi mama tak lepas.. akakaka 😆 biasa lah mama.. samada mama tak nak dok bilik sorang2, atau mama nak bagi chan kat AH dengan aku bonding, cheywahh.. well anyway, kalau ayah nak ikut pun kitorang ok je. pi makan je pun.. tapi sorry lah ye.. tak ambik gambar food pun sebab we wanna enjoy the moment, the food and the conversation. and owh sempat jugak tapau for ayah for supper roti bakar katanya.

i wanna write some more.. tapi dah ngantuk.. esok2 lah sambung eh.. part 4, kitorang jalan2 lepas dinner... nite2 everyone 😘 resort ni memang tenang and cantek and sangat sesuai for couple for honeymoon. 

acceptance

i never imagined that one day i will be a fitness instructor. for this i would like to thank kaiser for all the encouragement that he has given me. this is what we called, 'people come to your life for various reasons', and yes it is true. it either you can see and realize it or not. pejam celik pejam celik dah nak masuk 6 tahun i teach people and mostly ladies. 

why do i teach? originally because i love to dance and kaiser said, why don't i transform my passion into income and so i did. and i am the kind of person who likes to equipped myself with adequate knowledge before i actually pass on what i know to the public.

my satisfaction? is when those who attends enjoy dancing in my class because they can follow the simple steps. my classes are all moderate taking into account that my members are from 18 years old to 60 years old.

what i am deciding to do is a business decision. sometimes i think more for people without thinking for myself. well, of course ada lah jugak for myself. i think lifetime as a zumba instructor tak lah lama sangat lagi2 for me yang started lambat. not regretting it coz i feel God says that is the right timing for me.

i started with 2 classes a week, then jadi i had my own studio.. then i decided to close down my studio after 2 years (alhamdulillah for the experience) and shifted all classes to my friend's gym that i originally started my class. masih semangat studio so i added classes.. cuma nowadays (or maybe sebab dah hujung2 tahun - fitness industry memang macam ni) members tak seramai dulu. it goes with my own errmm apa tu.. feel or semangat kut. bukan aku tak semangat cuma sebab dah start diving balik... so macam terdivert sikit attention.

so anyway, i think next is i am going to kurangkan class to 2 classes a week balik and 1 extra class tu je i spare for inhouse instructor. so, back macam mula2 asal dulu kut... and i need to rethink of the cost. so that i won't feel the burden and enjoy teaching at the same time. and i accept the fact that some of the members are trying other type of fitness and by reducing my classes they won't get too tired joining my classes and other fitness regime. 

6 REASONS THAT PREVENT YOU FROM LOSING WEIGHT [3]

3. YOU SKIP MEALS

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Skipping a meal seems like it would be a sensible way to save on some calories. Sure, it may cut calories but it slows down your metabolism and kicks your body into starvation mode. This causes the body to cling to fat because it feels it needs to in order to survive. The truth is, smaller regular meals is the best method, as it keeps your body in gear throughout the day, as opposed to stopping and starting between large less frequent meals.

ain: i know a few people who do this. it has been a long time that people believe if they don't eat at all they will lose weight. but logically, if you hold yourself from eating, you will starve, and for the next meal you tend to eat more in terms of quantity. so, best is, eat small portions and don't skip meals, especially the main meal time. 

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happy friday

sekarang memang tengah serabut. so pagi tadi tarik nafas dalam2 

and start again, to be grateful. 

kadang2 in life banyak benda yang berlaku and kita lupa bersyukur. 

sebenarnya bukan aku lupa bersyukur cuma kurang bersyukur daripada yang sepatutnya. 

aku masih lalai mengejar benda2 yang tak sepatutnya.

lupa yang depan mata tapi perhati yang jauh... ha gitu.. 

.. and banyak benda yang tertangguh disebabkan kehendak lebih tinggi dari keperluan.

so, in the end aku kena tanggung consequences.

tapi tak pe.. aku akan manage benda2 ni.

dah lama kut aku tak buat perangai macam ni.

so aku tengah susun benda2 yang sepatutnya aku settlekan - which expenses aku for the past 2 months lebih tinggi dari pendapatan aku. 

hahahah 😅gelak kat diri sendiri sikit.. 

so pagi ni aku mencacau jugak la tarik sini sana, kambus sini sana. 

tapi tak pe, rezeki tu ada je Allah bagi

insyaallah ada tu.. aku je belum jumpa

atau Allah belum nak bagi excess. 

exaggerate sangat gambar ni.. tapi aku still maintain ketenangan hokeh..

Desaru Here I Come (Part 2)

sebelum korang nak wujudkan spekulasi apa2, let me clarify dulu, that AH and i are friends ok. we get acquainted during my participation for the Tenggol Malaysia Book of Record trip and AH is the DMEO of KMPekan, the maritime ship that we explored on that day. and somehow we connected after i am back in KL via IG and by exchanging pictures that was taken on the ship... and the rest just follow through. 😊​ kena gak buat disclaimer kat sini, kesian dia kaghang tak pasal2 kena gossip pulak... 😝 jatuh pulak saham dia. i ni tak kisah kena gossip ke kena bahan citer sebab dah biasa.. hahahah 😬 tettt... broken hearted pulak admirer2 dia kang... tetttt.. apa2 pun nanti maybe at the of this episode sis bagi recommendation pasal AH.. hahahah 😋 jangan marah eh.. mana la tau kut2 nanti sangkut sorang peminat when they read my blog about you. 

okay, sekarang boleh sambung cerita 😜

on the 2nd day at the resort we had breakfast at the cafe.. food hotel, macam biasa lah.. for orang yang tak berapa banyak makan like me, would be rugi kalau makan buffet spread. 

AH mentioned that he will arrive around 3ish to 4pm and because i dont really know him in person sort of, i did not have high hopes on him coming. weird isnt? that i only met him once after the tenggol weekend and now he will be joining us for this short trip. but anyway, i am sure he is a nice person, and plus my parents are around, so ok lah. 

and so, it was the 2nd day at the resort and we wanted to have lunch out of the resort we were staying at. someone suggested to my dad to eat at an eatery place next to our resort. and only to find out it was a restaurant at another resort  so sama je lah lebih kurang. walking there was quite a challenge for my mom but we did ok.  

we were thinking of how to walk back to our resort when i told my mom that AH will be driving so maybe i can ask him if he can give us (my mom and i) a lift back to the resort. 

i was kinda nervous thinking of seeing AH coz honestly i dont know what to expect.  and when he called i directed him straightaway to nelayan restaurant, tunamaya resort. and there he was walking towards us smiling and he was so selamba meeting us, my family member and all. it was, a relief for me. coz i am happy to see him comfortable around my family members. 

dia ni kalau atas kapal, nampak la segak and mature or shall i say he looks his age.. hehehe 😊 tapi bila dah offshore onshore terus nampak muda belia and look younger than his age.. tettt.. suka la tu bila dia baca ni nanti 😝 tapi yeahh memang he is young pun. anyway, he came to our table and salam with my nephew who was at the table after our lunch. my dad was already at the beach walking back to our resort. and we had a chat for awhile before i asked him if he can drive us back to our resort. 

after dropping off my mom at the resort lobby i asked AH if we can drive somewhere to the nearby shops as i need to get myself a pair of slippers. yeahh all i have was the pair of gold converse shoes and nike sports shoes but no slippers.. how to jalan2 on the beach lah? so off we went to find for whatever mini market there is at the small town. one thing about AH, he is, so far, a bf material 😜 he get most of the plus points from me as an observer. hahahaha 😆 well, i will compliment someone when its due. there are a few things that he does, that is sweet and would melt a woman's heart, kind of. would not go into details here anyway.. hahaha 😆 bengang tak? sajer je nak bagi you all yang baca ala-ala terfikir, apa yang dia buat eh? hehehe 😜 relaks.. relaks.. he is a nice guy & sweet. 

anyway, we found the mini market, got myself new pair of slippers and few bottles of mineral water for our room and we head back to the resort. when i get back we changed and went to the beach. wait, sebelum tu, i started my steps / walking tracker on my samsung health. rugi lah kalau jalan2 banyak tak track kan. tengok air laut memang best tapi sebab ombak tu macam ganas sangat takut la nak swim although there are guests who swim jugak - memang berani la.. bukan apa, takut bila ombak pukul tu kena batu ke, or if the ombak pull you from underwater.. haa gitu lah. 

cantek kan beach dia... this pic taken by my niece, marissa, pun rajin layan aku

ni pun marissa yang snap... bagus la my niece ni

we took a stroll along the beach from our resort and passed like 2 other resorts kut, tak sedar and we had a good chat. macam acah2 sweet lah.. pakal je kitorang bukan couple.. hahha 😜 kalau tak dah memang bersemut lah kan... owh cuma.. being with AH sort of saved me from a stranger, sort of. yang ni cerita bab lain pulak... tapi macam malas nak blog about that one. bukan la teruk mana cuma not something that i wanna share here..  we got back at our resort at 6pm lebih kurang... or was it 6.30pm. i was expecting my nieces and N1 to be at the pool swimming but they were nowhere to be seen.

so next activity, apa lagi... swimming la.. and we borak lagi.. actually best jugak AH ada, he keeps me company and tak de la rasa sepi sangat. ada je benda yang kitorang nak borakkan.. from dive stories, and a lot more info pasal KMPekan.. or pasal people we see during the tenggol event, pasal our family background.. yeah banyak jugak lah.. and thanks jugak la AH ni rajin melayan aku nak ambik gambar situ lah... sini lah.. hahhahha pendek kata, dia ni rajin la melayan aku merapu and mengarut.. hahahaha  😜

Desaru Here I Come (Part 3) on the way... 

6 REASONS THAT PREVENT YOU FROM LOSING WEIGHT [2]

2. YOU DON’T DRINK ENOUGH WATER

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The benefits of drinking enough water are huge! It helps in weight loss, clearing up skin problems and maintaining blood sugar levels, as well as MANY others. Start replacing all of your beverages with water and start making yourself drink 2-3 litres of water a day. You’ll also notice you feel fresher when you wake up in the mornings. Be sure to space it out over the course of the day – don’t just sit there and drink 3 litres of water as that can be a health hazard.

ain: ini masalah sis juga lately.. i used to be quite disciplined in drinking at least 1.5L before lunch and another 1.5L for the rest of the day staggered. so now i have to get back on track. my skin is so dry and i really have difficulty in losing my weight... dok static kat situ je.. now it has been playing between 62kg to 64kg and it is at my heaviest and am not liking it. so, really need to get back in better shape (for me) before my next dive trip. just that now i do my own other toning exercise coz ala2 poket ketat nak engage PT for now until i am done with my next dive trip. well, saya juga manusia biasa yang makan gaji... hahahha 👀 

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6 REASONS THAT PREVENT YOU FROM LOSING WEIGHT [1]

People often mistakenly think that in order to lose weight, you simply need to exercise. Unfortunately, this isn’t the case. Of course exercise is paramount if you’re really wanting to shred the fat, but there’s several other things that you need to keep in mind, if you’re ever going to fit into that dress, or get the 6 pack you’ve always dreamed of. Here’s 6 things you need to remember when trying to lose weight.

1. YOU DON’T HAVE ENOUGH MUSCLE

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The more muscle you have, the more calories you burn. Fat and muscle tissues consume calories all day long whether you’re running, reading or sleeping. No matter what you’re doing, muscle rips through more calories than fat. So it’s not just about jumping on the treadmill for half an hour. Strength working is just as important. In fact studies have shown that building muscle over cardio is actually better for losing weight!

ain: now you know why i do weight lifting? coz i like to have a lil bit of muscle and get toned. not to get bulky - and please people, change your mindset on the thinking of doing weight lifting makes you big like a man. do come back for the rest of the reasons.. 😘 ingat sis tulis pasal citer2 jiwang je ke? kat sini semua ado! hahahaha 😁

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no regrets

and i don't regret it

itu je nak bagitau kat sini

tak tau and tak mau tulis lebih2

enjoy the ride, the friendship, the whatever ship there is for us to travel together

no one knows what is written for us except Him

but, yeah... 

haaa... suka la tu.. cer teka... cer teka... sis tulis pasal siapa?

pasal sesaper lah.. pasal A, pasal B, pasal C, pasal D?

haa amik kau... apa2 pun for now, something like dah kena pasak, ha gitu lah.. kut

good night, and sweet dreams... may we meet in our dreams...fuhhh.. jiwang kau!

short and sweet trip - KL - Spore - Desaru - KL

i dont really know what to put as the title for this posting. things were happening too fast. lots of unplanned stuff like the concert and about me joining N1's plan in taking my parents for holiday. and about AH joining us during the holiday. in summary everything went well and i loved it. i love every moment that i spent with my parents, my nieces, my nephew and AH. i told AH i was going to spore for the concert, and originally i wanted to go to tioman for my last dive before the monsoon really starts. i knew it was risky. my closest friends were against the plan, so was mr. c and my parents.. and other divers as well. okay lah, in short every one! lol 🤣

1 group photo before we leave the apartment in Spore.

Desaru Here I Come 😉 (Part 1)

AH asked on the dates i was going to be in johor, and apparently he will be on leave. so if i were to be in tioman, i might get to see him for a while before i go back to KL, i think. and then when somehow i changed my mind and decided to join the rest to desaru, he said he will see me there, in desaru. i remembered the last time i was there, i felt like it was really2 far2 away! and i hated the journey. i didnt take his words seriously that he will be seeing me in desaru. although in my thoughts at that time, it would be nice if he comes. that will be an opportunity for us to know each other better. something like that. i just wanna do things that are different and perhaps know more new people/friends in my life.

all of us were in 1 mpv from spore to desaru. with light travelling, all 7 of us fit in 1 starex with a driver. hummm not bad ehh.. i kinda enjoy the ride. and before we reach desaru we stopped at a seafood restaurant at senibong and N1 order like super crazy.. she ordered almost all kinds of creatures .. hahaha

i was so full until i couldnt breathe... and to go on a diet is not smart when you are on holiday with N1 coz she will order lots of stuff.. yeah she is too generous like that on food. her idea is that she wants mama & ayah to have a taste of everything that she gets to taste. haa macam tu lah.. apa2 pun alhamdulillah semoga rezeki N1 melimpah ruah & berkat, ameen... aku ni menumpang jer.. kekekeke 😜

we got a very nice couple suite coz i bunked in with my parents. it was a duplex at sands & sandals resort, maybe next time i will write a review about the resort. i slept almost the whole journey to desaru from singapore. tau tau je dah sampai kat security gate of the resort. we quickly got to our room or more of a duplex apartment as i have not perform my solat yet. we (my parents and i) got so excited looking at our room. dengan tenangnya i asked my mom... "mama kalau macam ni AH boleh je tido sini ekk" and her answer was "boleh je". ehhh terkejut jugak time tu.. biar betul mama aku ni, sporting nya.

my dad came into the room a few minutes later.. "wahh, besarnya bilik ni ain" he said. 

"Yah.. nanti kawan ain datang dia tido sini je boleh?" 

"hmmm boleh" 

"ruang tamu ni besar kan.. ain tido kat sofa, dia tido pakai sleeping bag kat bawah, boleh Yah?" 

"ishhh.. mana boleh" 

"eh tadi kata boleh?" sambil aku gelak2..

"tak boleh la dia tido bawah, kesian dia"

"aik... habis, ain mintak extra bed?"

and while he was walking upstairs to look for my mom, "ha boleh"

and aku tergelak sendiri... in my mind at that time, apa hal mama & ayah aku ni... kawan aku tu lelaki kut, selamba je dia bagi aku tido dengan AH kat ruang tamu ni 🤣

my parents bed upstairs - macam honeymoon dah hehehe 😀

Desaru Here I Come - to be continued ...😜