tenggol here i come (part 12)

hari dah makin gelap. masa tu aku dah start resah jugak lah.. tapi sebab kawan2 macam selamba je.. aku pun cuba la tenangkan diri jugak. kepala dah kurang denyut tapi masih sakit. aku tengok dia dah siap tukar tshirt lain. dah siap mandi katanya. untung lah kalau lelaki ni senang je. looking at him somehow just calm me down. i dont know there is something about him.. he will be just watching most of the time, doesnt talk much and he would just smile. kalau dia nak banyak or bercakap pun maybe to his friends who were with him or whomever next to him at that time. aku? memang tak la nak lepak sangat beside him. aku terasa macam segan kut. 

most of us dah mati kutu or maybe dah kepenatan and melekit or sejuk. ada yang lepak2 in different group. aku masih jalan2 atas KMPekan ambik video and ambik gambar. hehehe 😜 aku happy tapi ada sikit risau lah.. its like.. whats next. 

tengok jam dah lewat sangat ni. dengar2 cerita bot yang sepatutnya nak bawak kitorang tak boleh datang.. entah.. aku pun tak berapa faham. sedangkan masa tu dah pukul 6 lebih. aku dah rasa tak best sebab dengan keadaan tak bersih, aku fikir, zohor dah ke mana... asar dah sampai penghujung. masa tu lah aku fikir, i should have brought extra clothes and telekung. but then again, dalam sejarah hidup aku dive, mana ada pernah this long kut. paling2 mesti sempat balik ke darat untuk solat. happy happy jugak naughty naughty jugak tapi kalau boleh tu solat tak mau la tinggal kut. 😎try jugak lah lengkapkan yang sepatutnya. so i supposed betul lah orang kata kalau dah routine, bila tak buat tu akan terasa resah semacam. kepala otak aku pun dah fikir lisa & joey. rindu sangat dengan diorang. kalau trip ni joey ada sekali kan cool. siapa sangka, aku boleh sama2 dive macam ni dengan bujang senang aku. sambil type ni adeehhh tetiba rindu pulak dengan joey ni... ye, happy happy jugak tapi dalam ingatan aku tak pernah lupa lisa & joey. they are my life. agaknya time aku kat KMPekan tu diorang tak sangka kut aku dah ada sorang bujang and sorang anak dara 🙇 kejap2.. jangan muntah dulu. bukan apa aku ni kadang2 pun lupa aku ni dah mak dara.. hehhe 😁maybe sebab my character happy go lucky and cepat peramah dengan orang. ye lah kalau tak idak la in customer service line kan. memang a people person. 

tiba2 hujan turun pulak.. kepala aku dah denyut2 balik. diorang suruh masuk dalam kapal and duduk kat tempat masa mula2 kitorang duduk awal pagi. aku gi jugak lah tapi bila dah sampai kat the sitting area bila terasa kapal membuai kepala aku pun lagi membuai. so i thought must be my contact lense. so i walk out of the dining room area (thats what i call it lah) and ke luar kapal and bukak contact lense aku. memang nampak kabur coz aku terlebih pandai tak bawak my glasses. nak melawa punya pasal la kan. so now, no lense and pandangan aku kabur. aku dengan LS lepak kat tempat they prepare the dive tank. aku terlelap sambil duduk - memang sakit punggung gak lak. aku intai2 kat tempat bag tu. time tu aku tak fikir dah rasa nak baring je. 

tak lama lepas tu aku terlelap.. tak berapa selesa but the most selesa tempat i can find for me to take a nap. sambil lelap mata tu aku masih terdengar suara2 diorang borak2 and hearing their voices makes me feel safe. and i think one of the maritime officer was there the whole time but i cannot recall which one. tapi aku dengar la diorang borak2.. cuma mata aku tak larat nak bukak.. aku ambik towel aku and buat cover muka. and tak lama lepas tu macam diorang dimkan lampu.. memang lebih selesa and rasa lega betul. time tu aku tak heran dah.. balik la kul berapa pun, janji aku dapat rehat kejap. rasa macam diorang sweet sangat lepak dengan we all. terasa lah ada yang temankan. 

gambar ni one of the diver snap... hahaha sib baik aku cover muka.. aku la tu bwh towel :P

sambil2 tu aku terdengar2 diorang dok discuss and which boat will be coming to get us. tak lama lepas tu, yang aku dengar they can only get boat nelayan to come and get us and take us back to the shore. hemmm memang truly superb experience lah in my thought. time tu aku tak tengok lagi keadaan laut. aku relaks lagi.. sambil2 borak, some of the officers memang advice us to just stay on the ship. aku ikut je tak kisah coz to me at that point of time, they are the expert. we should be listening to them.  

lampu diorang dah switch on balik. aku pun bangkit la coz tak nak jadi gangguan laluan diorang. tiba2 time tu diorang dah kecoh2 macam suruh naik boat nelayan and ladies first? hmm biar betul.. aku masih mamai. and at that point of time i saw him already with his bag. aku pun macam confuse kejap. coz some said tinggalkan bag, bawak badan jer. bag aku pun tak de apa sangat la except brg2 dive aku la kan. 

and aku teringat jugak apa2 pun bawak barang2 penting je dulu.. so i have my blue drybag with me with my dry towel in there just in case i will need it again. and when i stepped out to the side of the ship, i can see nothing but high strong wave, it was dark and scary.. and i can see the boat nelayan swaying side to side and trying so hard to come near to the ship. i was like.."oh shit!! is this what we really need to do??"  jantung aku dah laju gila, tangan aku dah gigil. mata aku dah berair. dalam fikiran aku at that point of time cuma lisa & joey, and split moment thought of mama & ayah too. kalau apa2 jadi kat aku, kaiser boleh tengok2kan ke? entah.. kenapa aku terfikir kaiser.. walaupun antara aku dengan kaiser memang dah tak ada apa2. maybe sebab kalau pasal anak2, aku akan bercakap dengan kaiser sebab dia yang sama2 membesarkan anak2 aku. and aku tau dia sayang anak2 aku macam anak dia sendiri. Ya Allah will i be safe home? LS dah tarik tangan aku.. i felt like both of my feet were pinned to the floor and frozen and can't move.. 

this may not be the actual wave but this was what i saw!

bahagia bukan bidaan

insiden to watch this drama series happened after i have finished watching drama cik reen encik ngok ngek. patut nak tengok dynasty tapi tak dapat tengok lagi. so bila browse2 drama online, terkeluar pulak citer ni. and pull factor aku adalah adiputra, nora danish and zamarul. and memang tak nyesal lah tengok cerita ni. korang kena tengok sendiri. aku suka drama2 yang ada unsur nasihat macam ni. memang la pada awalnya geram jugak bila tengok si suami macam tak cukup2 dengan ada wife bijak, rajin, cantik and sabar tapi mata masih melilau nak carik perempuan lain. but i guess in real life sekarang memang macam ni... tak pernah2 cukup and puas dengan apa yang ada depan mata kan. but in the end he married a janda anak 2.... hehhe yang part ni je bagus coz at that point of time dia dah matang sket lah... and baru tau.. tak semestinya yang kunun chun sexy tu membahagiakan.. lelagi perempuan2 muda.. cheywah... emo pulak sis tetiba.

but hey this was about the drama ok. cuma helok pulak some of the jalan cerita.. yang jahat tu cepat je mati and the happy ending tu best la coz ain farhana dah la dapat suami baru yang penyayang at the same time seorang yang boleh membimbing dia untuk menjadi seorang wanita muslimah and jadi isteri yang solehah 😉 so anyway, kalau korang nak tengok citer ni kena la tengok online ya sebab drama ni dah habis sebenarnya.

macam ni ke malaysian?

since october aku start mengajar kat batu caves and normally lepas habis class aku akan balik terus sebab tak de kawan nak pi lepak makan. but somehow my mind macam dah set even before class untuk makan my grilled chicken. sebelum class aku lepak ngeteh dgn mr c and tengok dia  makan mee goreng sedap benau.. he offered lah tapi memikirkan aku ada class, kaghang muntah mee pulak lepas lompat2 kat class. anyway posting aku hari ni bukan pasal mr c tapi pasal minah yang aku jumpa kat dataran food truck tadi. aku agak bengang lah tapi tak pe la hak dia kut dia tak nak share.. bila aku post kat status fb aku, macam2 andaian orang/kawan2 aku pasal minah ni.

entah la.. agak2 lah nak sweet2 pun... tak consider langsung orang lain yang memang perlukan tempat duduk untuk makan. bukan aku nak pandang ke stare kat boypren ko kut.. sah2 bukan taste aku. so here goes my bebelan lah kan. kalau aku, i dont mind kut sharing thinking of the situation kan. haiishh... 

was alone at food truck.. cari meja penuh pulak.. nampak 1 lady duduk sorg2 at a table for 4.

me: dah full ke table ni?

awek: ada org.

me: owh.. boleh share ke?

awek: saya berdua.

me: (dlm hati.. habis lagi 2 kerusi ni kosong kan) boleh share ke?

awek: (buat muka mata melilau.. cari boypren dia kut)

me: ok.. tak leh la tu.. (terus blah)

patut la.. tak nak share.. nak main suap2 dgn boypren rupanya 🙄 kat food truck kut.. seats are limited. apa salahnya share 🙄🙄

tenggol here i come (part 11)

kayuh jangan tak kayuh orang kata. aku pun gigih la swim backwards coz it is much easier macam tu sambil dalam hati aku doa, ya Allah Kau sempatkan lah aku dapat amik gambar sama2 dengan diorang ni.. heheheh 😂 alaa nak jugak terselit citer pasal dia. ermmm tak pe lah ehh.. dah memang dia salah satu highlight weekend aku pun. aku jeling and nampak dia kat the other side of the jalur gemilang. dia dah macam budak2 dah muka happy semacam jer. hahaha 😅

seronok time tu Allah je tahu and i don't regret at all for jumping in walaupun badan dah hampir tak daya but with the semangat of everyone time tu, makes me glad that i decided to join. selepas event bila dah dapat gambar dari drone, memang lah aku jadi bahan gelak tapi tak pe lah..kenangan manis tu tetap ada. hahaha 😅

so that part dah settle. and ramai2 sama2 kitorang lipat jalur gemilang and bawak balik naik ke boat untuk bawak balik ke darat. hehehe 😂jangan pulak ada yang ingat kitorang tinggal je kat dasar laut. lepas ni memang tak sabar nak naik balik ke KMPekan sebab kitorang memang lapar. eh mana dia ehh aku lupa lah. 

sampai2 atas kapal je makanan dah sedia - all packed food. kitorang pun bersila lah kat tempat helipad tu (betul ke dak nama tempat tu - korang paham2 je lah ya) memang best dengan angin, dengan semua keletihan, kesejukan, kelaparan. kitorang siap buat circle and makan dah macam makan kat kenduri pun ye. lepas makan... hoyehhh semua dok sibuk ambik2 gambar.. memang seronok la... gelak dok terkekek2... dengan melompatnya... dengan meniarapnya... pastu ada at one time tu tetiba KMPekan senget jer.. hahaha 😂 kitorang pun siap tersenget ke tepi.. dah macam konar baring. (lepas tu baru dpt tau masa tu KMPekan tengah mengelak pukat nelayan 😂)

 

it was so beautiful and fun to be with the crowd. but during that time most of the time memang aku akan stick with our own closed group lah. bukan apa, kitorang memang macam dah bonding dah. and oh ye... seronok bila dapat jumpa kawan diver yang dah lama tak jumpa.. SA hehhee 😂 and paling best pulak dia ni rajin ambik gambar.. so aku pun pass je lah camera kat dia.. haa korang layan lah gambar2 kitorang ni ye... time tu dah pukul 5 lebih... and when we were supposed to balik ke darat dah... 

sebelum apa2 kita kemas barang2 dulu

one of my fav group photo of us 💓

nampak tak betapa happynya kami? 

langit dah start gelap... aku dah start tertanya2... what is going on? walaupun, i am still enjoying the moment. kepala dah start denyut2 jugak sebab lama sangat pakai lense kut and or sebab makan lambat. perut aku ni berdisiplin.. time makan tak leh lambat. start lah aku bingung. rasa macam nak tercabut biji mata. masa tu aku terfikir jugak takkan kat kapal sebesar ni tak de panadol kan? nasib baik la masa tu PMR tolong carikan panadol, sweet jugak la orang tua tu walau kadang2 mulut tak de insurance. hehehe 😂 dah lepas makan ubat tu aku terasa lega sikit. and sambil lepak2 tu terus pulak elok aku landing... nak lelapkan mata. ada pulak paparazi ambik gambar kitorang tido.. sib baik helokk je tido 😆

lama jugak kitorang tunggu tak sure what's going on. well i am not complaining coz perut dah kenyang cuma rasa tak selesa sebab pakai baju basah kah. sejuk jugak dada. kitorang sampai mati kutu gak lah atas KMPekan tu. tak leh imagine the maritime officers yang kena kerja atas kapal kan. apa lagi nak buat... and kitorang dah memang terbaring dah macam kat rumah sendiri dah... aku dah macam di ayun buai.. 

Mariah Carey - My All

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living…

my current fav song for cool down... and when i listen to this song now... it just reminds me of you..

cik reen encik ngok ngek

daripada aku susah nak tido ingatkan benda2 yang tak berfaedah, baik aku layan drama ni. memang la ada je orang yang kata buang masa layan drama2 melayu. tapi pada aku, aku suka je layan citer2 yang menghappykan aku walaupun aku jadi tak cukup tido. anyway, baik tak cukup tido angaukan artis daripada angaukan someone yang memang sah2 bukan milik aku.. perghhh... statement - memang tak boleh blah 😀

aku start layan ni sebab mama dengan adik aku yang start. mula2 rasa apahal tajuk macam pelik jer tapi bila dah start tengok, apa lagi.. memang dah stuck la ni. aku suka all the actresses and actors. dah lama aku tak tengok badrul muhayat kut. one of my fav actor - handsome. sekarang ni memang nampak sangat dia dah berusia, still good looking cuma aku rasa macam dia kurus sangat lah. 

and pasal mr ngok ngek pulak, lakonan fikry memang best. and he is so selamba and partnering dengan farah nabilah pun sesuai sangat. suka the romantic comedy dalam citer ni and all the unsur2 nasihat yang diselitkan sekali. see, it is not all merapu pasal drama melayu ni yeh. kalau kita tak sokong drama2 kita, siapa lagi yang akan support? and, aku tak start tengok dynasty sebab ni jugak. kalau time yang sama aku layan dynasty, mau tak pergi kerja aku.

kadang2 in life, akan berlaku perkara2 yang menguji kesabaran, keimanan and our trust in Allah's decision. at the end of the day, aku rasa daripada pening2 atau gabra2, baik go with the flow added with by berhati2. bukan apa, memang la jalan cerita hidup kita Allah yang tentukan. Dia juga yang membuatkan kita bertemu dengan sesiapa pun tapi kita kena pandai fikir and cari, apa pengajaran atau yang cuba nak Allah sampaikan atau uji pada semua hambaNya. 

and kalau la aku ni cik reen, aku akan terus terang je perasaan aku. macam jugak apa yang aku rasa dgn mr c. aku rasa aku dah cakap apa yang aku rasa and whatever happen, happen lah. cuma of course tak lah semua lagi sebab aku pun tak sure if i can actually express everything. only time will tell if this is temporary or leads to a happy ending. too early to tell and i am enjoying the ups of the journey. 

my current celebrity crush right now is fikry ibrahim. hehehe well it goes with the drama lah kan. i think i started to know who he is daripada drama rahsia hati seorang perempuan. tapi time tu aku tak rasa character dia as strong as now kut. 

i am ok

hmmm baru nak post kata dah ok. tapi rasanya macam tak berapa ok. but anyway, tak kisah lah.. ok ke, tak ok ke, buat2 je ok. that is what i need to portray to the public. 'all the time ok' sebenarnya nak bebel tapi tengah kepala panas and tangan sejuk. will write more next time ok. sorry about this.. tengah rasa tak best plak.

berapa kali kau kena macam ni. bukan salah sapa2 tapi diri sendiri. padahal sebelum tu dah tau and dah konon prepared the expectation. just stop it lah. stop being fragile and stupid and weak. take care of your own heart. benda ni temporary je. kau anggap je lah it is all too good to be true and the good ones are taken. Allah bagi kau peluang untuk jumpa yang lebih baik and meanwhile dalam proses tu akan ada je dugaan2 yang Dia akan beri. kau sendiri tahu Allah tak akan menguji hambaNya kalau dia tak mampu nak handle. ayat cliche tapi kau tau kan this is not the first test pun yang Dia bagi kau. bila Dia tengok kau agak lalai Dia akan bagi sebijik kat muka kau. pastu kau akan terduduk and muhasabah diri. mungkin dia hadir pun untuk test kau samada kau ni kuat ke tak. 

tapi sekarang ni kepala aku panas.. tangan aku sejuk. eehh ehh cakap pasal siapa ni? 

Pink October ZUMBA 2018 is coming soon!

tragedi oktober

sebenarnya tak de la aku rasa macam ni sangat. saje je melayan emo aku ni. tak de apa2 pun tapi bila baca tu macam terasa sket... sket je lah... or.. tengah nak monsoon kut. bila monsoon tak boleh gi diving... eh tiberrrr...! LOL 🤣 kalau baca memang la macam jiwang karat kow2 kan? bagi chan la sekali sekala nak propa. 

agaknya macam2 yang aku fikir - tapi most of it sebenarnya aku excited pasal event hari sabtu ni ok. memang badan and minda tengah penat. so apa2 yang aku dapat fikir untuk entertain kepala otak aku, aku layan. orang nak kata aku over ke gedik ke, aku ada perasaan kut. 

anyways, malam tadi aku seronok dapat kumpul2 balik members divers yang jumpa and kenal masa trip tenggol last few weeks. ye, aku tahu, 'novel' aku tak sampai ending lagi. korang tau la sebenarnya aku nak highlight kan part kitorang on the way back tu - the most challenging part, tapi biasa lah kan, nama nya je 'novel' so mesti ada ada selit2 kisah kengkunun jatuh hati etc etc.. baru la citer tu ada umpph.. kan? kengkunun kah?  😋 takotss... 

anyway malam tadi kitorang lepak ramai gak lah.. gambar ni cuma sebahagian je. untuk menghormati privacy and permintaan some of the members. hik hik 😀 and catch up sambil discuss for our next dive trip. bak apa yang aku kata dalam group jalur gemilang lah, kalau lah aku kentut keluar $USD, alangkah indahnya dunia. 

sekarang ni memang aku tengah tense kut, my jaw spasm is back and this time lain macam dia punya denyut2. aku tak tau nak buat apa dah. aku tak tau nak suspect sebab stress ke atau sebab apa2 lain. ada kena mengena dengan gusi aku ke? infection somewhere ke? haisshh serabut lah. jangan sampai dia affect telinga aku sudah. tak pe lah, apa2 pun aku bagi event sabtu ni habis dulu.. lepas tu baru pergi thorough check up. 

and actually i have a half written posting pasal 'paskal the movie' nanti i will post lah bila habis eh... and pasal 'tenggol here i come' tu, you will know that is the ending bila instead of tulis part berapa, i will write as ending. ok... 😋 thank you for being my setia readers.. sayang you alls ketat2 😘

tenggol here i come (part 10)

agak2 bila 'novel' aku ni nak habis eh? hehehe 😁 seronok ke you all baca? jenuh jugak nak kena mengingat balik what happened. so the story might ada yang tertinggal details ok. apa2 pun i think whatever that i feel for him could be something temporary. and even if our feeling is mutual... cheyyywahh... it could be just a crush. and i / we just go with the flow. honestly he was the highlight of my weekend trip. korang jangan pulak kecam aku awal2 ni... semua ini ketentuan Illahi... ehemmm... the doa for me to meet new friends is fulfilled and get new excitement, sort of. okay back to the weekend story...

it was a bit kelam kabut going back to the small boat for the 2nd attempt. i was feeling really weak but tengok all the other divers - memang sangat jealous lah. semangat len macam kot! aku sebenarnya dah tersadai kat tepi boat polis marin tu. ehh ok ok sekarang dah atas boat kecik. aku nak angkat tank pun dah separuh nyawa.. tapi tengok muka dia adehh.. cair dowh.. #bongok

anyways... semua dah jump dalam air, aku masih terkial2... and bila penat, start la cramp sini sana. he was the last to jump kut before me, if i remember it correctly la.. and masa dia swim ke arah jalur gemilang yang dah atas dasar laut tu.. aku tengok dia.. aku dah weak. aku dah nak give up. aku siap cakap dengan boatman, should i jump in or should i just stay. masa tu the whole team dah bersorak sebab drone dah sampai kut. jantung aku dak makin laju. siot... kata hati aku... sempat ke aku ni? karang aku jadi bahan gelak je kang! tapi boatman tu siap bagi semangat kat aku.. dia siap cakap.. sempat lagi kak.. boleh.. cepat..! aku pun lompat la.. and swim secepat mungkin... and tengah2 swim tu.. dengar lagi the team dah jerit..."TARIK!!" sebab diorang nak stretch kan jalur gemilang.. aku dah fikir.. point of no return.. wait up!!!! 

korang rasa... aku sempat tak?? cuba korang tengok jarak dari boat ke jalur gemilang... jeng jeng jeng...

Tenggol here i come (Part 11) on the way - so stay tuned 😘

plans

i wanna write about tenggol tapi sekarang tengah tak de mood. mixed feelings.. tettt.. jeles? #bodo!

anyway, i will be having an awesome diving trip next year, dari mana aku nak korek duit, aku pun tak tau. but if that is the goal - i will sure work for it and will get it! kalau tak, tak de la my life tagline as, "always get what i want" kan?

somehow, i received another conference yang rasa macam susah nak tolak. tengah fikir should i or should not... breaking my bank dowhh.. it is also something that i wanna achieve... tapi ... adehh.. serious dowh.. berapa extra classes aku nak ambik??

aku ke yang nak semua? tapi.. haishh.. entah la.. aku dah agak serabut jugak ni.. nak kata aku boros tak jugak. i have been buying stuff yang memang aku perlu untuk dive. tak pe lah. sekarang ni aku kena doa lagi supaya rumah aku kat taman setiawangsa tu ada monthly tenant. or dapat lagi job. or bonus tebal by december 2018.

buat masa ni - ini masih samar2 😓

TENGGOL HERE I COME (PART 9)

i saw a few of the participants dah terduduk kat bench tingkat aras atas of the police marine boat. at this point of time, memang dah berdenyut2 kepala aku. rasa nak tercabut dah bijik mata and it was affecting my right side of my head. i am the type yang kena makan on time. and i will have my main meals 3 times a day - tak kisah la even kalau breakfast lambat pukul 10am atau 11am, but by 1230 noon i must have my lunch. 

i was hoping that kat tingkat atas tenang sikit because level bawah dah macam sesak dengan divers at the table. yes we have like meja makan kat tengah2 boat tu. serious aku dah tak larat. at the end of the 2nd floor dah nampak 1 of the DM dah terbongkang tido kut. so i find my way somewhere next to him, cari tempat bersandar nak tido jugak. hoping at least lega sket sakit kepala kut. 

supaya korang boleh imagine tingkat atas boat tu

tq for his hospitality siap buatkan teh o panas for us divers.

yeap found a spot... tried to close my eyes. and i think i dozed a bit. not long after i saw him coming. he looks tired too and he was also looking for a spot to rest. he leaned near the box that looks like aircond compressor to me. kesian dia. he looks tired too. if i am not mistaken he looked as though he wont be joining the 2nd attempt of jalur gemilang. and my thought at that time, hmm ok lah i dont feel so bad coz i am not gonna be the only one. i wish i can post up his foto, hehehe 😁 he looked so comel but nanti korang tau la siapa dia.. ahakss 😋

tak lama after that tetiba they started to call out the team for the 2nd attempt. LS dah pujuk2 aku. aku perhatikan je dia. tetiba dia pun turun bawah and with his tired face, he will be joining the 2nd attempt. masa ni hati aku dah berbelah bagi.. alaa.. takkan aku sorang tinggal kut kan.. rugi lah.. and dalam hati aku, bila lagi aku dapat jumpa dia pun or dive dengan dia lagi pun. dalam fikiran aku, memang tak lah kan. coz this is just a 1 weekend thingy that we are doing. aku tengok muka dia terus aku cair. 

kepala aku dah mcm nak pecah dah.. adehh.. but dia punya pasal, aku turun la jugak.. sib baik my air masih ada banyak... still dalam 150 lagi. so, in the end.. yup.. i went.. gedik tak? lol 😝

nanti sambung cerita lagi ok. lagi kelakar and sedih kisah aku for the 2nd attempt.. kalau korang gelak siap! hahahah 😆

hope

i always ask myself why is it that whenever i am at calm, He will give something to make my life more interesting but with some challenges. not that i have not faced those challenges, i have but why does it keep on coming back to me? the same scenario quite a number of times. am i searching? if you ask me, no, coz i have done searching. it if it comes to me, i will accept with an open arm. just that now, i know what i want in my life.

thank you for making my life journey still as colorful as before. but please make me able to go through it too, once again. You know best what is in my mind, in my heart and yet You like to let me fly high - floating and i really hope that You will let me grounded once again safely.

with all these feelings that i have for him, deep down inside there is no hope as i wish not to rock the boat. i know how it feels to be on the other side - i have been there. if i were a bitch, i wouldn't care. wahh it rhymes 😀but please let me enjoy this temporary happiness that You have given me, yes? and please guide me and take care of my fragile heart as well.

Tenggol here i come (Part 9) on the way - so stay tuned 😘

Cat Day Run 5KM Virtual

sekarang tengah jiwa kacau so my postings agak bercelaru sikit and there will be delay 😋 tak pe don't worry, aku memang macam ni. kadang2 bodo dengan perasaan sendiri lepas tu bila dah tersungkur terpaksa la hadap sendiri. masalah aku dengan terlalu optimistik tentang orang ni payah. agak2 la kann... dah helokk je gayanya mesti la dah berpunya - otak kau kat mana ain?? dah.. distance yourself - so i said to myself.  masalahnya.. dah kena pasak katanya.. lol 😵 apa2 pun, orang tua2 kata jangan bermain dengan api, nanti terbakar sendiri... sekarang ni dah agak hangus jugak lah.

okay, back to original posting aku, which is about my 1st 5km virtual run in oct 2018 sempena Cats Month! 

this is my medal i am waiting for... 

this is my mischa whom i am running for 😘

i slept around almost 2 am coz waited for Kate to arrive from Lombok. and in the morning i woke up still contemplating - should i just be lazy in bed while waiting for Kate & Joey to wake up and make myself usefull!..the thought came that i have 2 5km virtual runs to do in oct 2018.

and today i did it after few weeks stopped running. went on a different route today.. ingat nak lari ke kilang tapi tak tau arah so decided to turn into my old housing area.. lalu lah belakang rumah neighbour that we used to call 'budak jahat'.. and ended up at rumah mok2 and saw his dad siap lambai2 lagi 😂 i am sure dia tak perasan. conclusion, i am happy with my result today. expected 1 hr tapi its less so oklah.. 

#nevergiveup #keeponmoving #zinako#runningfroggie #meniscustear#fracturedbone #postrecovery #training#akofitness #zlife #lifeofazumbainstructor#fitwoman #fitmom #fitover40 yes i have a set of gucci & prada bags under my eyes 😜 for not having quality sleep . #acceptyourflaws but macamana nak treat eh eye bags ni... lama2 jadi size L luggage bag ni... hik hik 😬

mischa, i am running for you.. 😘

ZUMBA Pink October 20 Oct 2018

Let's Do a Come Back!!!

The annual HKL Pink October Zumba #hklpoz2018 is back for it's 2018 edition and this year, it will be bigger and better than before.

The HKL Pink October Zumba #hklpoz2018 is held in conjunction of the HKL Pink October Week (15th - 20th October 2018). The aim of the Pink October Week is to increase awareness towards early detection and prevention of breast cancer at the earliest stage possible. The theme of this year's celebration is "FIGHTING BREAST CANCER, YOU ARE NOT ALONE".

For the finale of the week, on the 20th October 2018, we welcome you to the HKL Pink October Carnival (open to all) that will be happening since 2.00 PM and at the height of the carnival, there will be a a Night Zumba session ( zumba kit holder only) that will be start at 8.30pm.

20th October 2018:

6.00pm

• ZUMBA participant check in and goodie bag collection

8.30pm

• ZUMBA SESSION 1

9.00pm

• VVIP Arrival
• Lucky Draw Session/ Prize giving ceremony
• HKL Pink October 2018 Closing Ceremony

9.45pm

• ZUMBA SESSION 2

10.30pm

• Mini concert

Register here Register ZUMBA Pink Oct 2018

Info sources:
https://www.eventbrite.com/e/hkl-pink-october-zumba-2018-tickets-49692478541

Photos:
AKO Fitness

tenggol here i come (part 8)

we were divided into 3 groups. team A, 1 & 2 (team aku la tu - yakni team hanya untuk bergambor) 😋our transport to the dive site was on a police marin boat. memang la kitorang teruja. fuuh best siaa.. dari maritim ship, naik polis marin pulak.. bukan senang nak dapat kut. we were lucky that lepas pasang our gears, diorang yang tolong angkat sebelum naik ke boat police marine. nak melangkah ke boat tu dah satu hal. 

during this time, there is one of the maritime officer yang banyak tolong we all among others. he was really helpful and cool too. nampak la he is one of the friendly officer compared to the rest. at that time my thought was maybe ada protocols yang they need to follow kut bila ada guest on board. ye lah.. unit2 beruniform ni kan bukan senang kut. banyak rules and regulations. sis nak tegur lebih2 pun macam suspen jer. 

once we were on the police marin boat kitorang pun lambai2 lah macam ala2 ratu universe gitu. by this time he could have already reached the dive site and dived doing the task given to his team. and aku pun tak tau macamana one of his teammember ada sekali dengan we all. tapi bagus jugak la coz this guy suka ambik gambar and video, hence the result dapat lah video yang best ni.. bravo la tuan! 

time ni memang la aku berangan macam ala2 polis pun ada... macam ala2 charlies angels pun ada.. best banget sihh.. tapi rasa tu sekejap sangat la sebab lepas tu dah sampai ke dive site. and we need to be transferred to a smaller boat. ha time ni la ada delay sebab our weights apparently ada kat another small boat. dont ask me how or why their arrangement macam tu. 

so memang our group patut yang last turun selepas the 2 teams dah naikkan jalur gemilang dalam air coz kitorang cuma turun untuk sibuk2 ala2 retis ambik gambar je.. #silajanganmuntah naaahh seriously, memang kitorang untuk ambik gambar je. so kitorang pun terjun lah sorang2 and memang LS and i were among the last 4 divers yang turun. 

sampai dasar laut tu, aku terus pening. dah terasa macam traffic kat highway dengan ramai nya divers bersimpang siur kat dalam air. maybe after 2 years tak dive, benda2 macam ni jadi serabut jadinya. as always aku turun memang slow sebab telinga aku ni memang ada hal everytime dive. selalu kalau dive trip, after 2nd or 3rd dive baru aku rasa selesa.

kat bawah air tu yang paling meriah and sibuk2 si LS la.. sibuk bergambar and bervideo sana sini sampai aku pening layan and ikut dia. in the end aku pun dok situ diam2 floating and perhatikan orang. and i was also trying to adjust dengan pakai contact lense dalam air tu yang aku rasa agak serabut tu. 

korang jangan tanya la if i see him anywhere under water. memang sah2 aku tak nampak yang mana satu, kat dalam tu semua dah nampak macam sama je. dah stay kat bawah tu cukup dalam 40 min kut, aku pun dah start boring and of course lepas ambik2 gambar jugak.. kitorang pun naik surface. and time ni memang aku terasa bosan and letih. entahlah badan macam tak larat. and we went back straight to the small boat untuk naik ke boat police marine.

i am on the left - jangan buat2 tak cam pulak 

ni tengah makan snacks before the 2nd attempt

sampai je kat boat police marine tak lama lepas tu memang i saw him and he looked a bit tired too. aku dah pening kepala sebab dah lambat sangat and belum lunch. migraine terus. memang nak dah told myself, am not gonna go for the 2nd dive. and i went to the toilet, went upstairs cari port untuk tido...

to be continued... before that, enjoy this video!

follow your heart but

.. remember to bring your brain with you.

this is the usual statement when it involves matter of the heart. my close friends once told me, hati aku fragile. aku senang jatuh hati kat orang...#bodo 😁 sebab tu kut senang jugak koyak #bahasalisa. ok ke mana arah tuju posting ni sebenarnya? lol 😂

ok la aku ni luar nampak macho tapi dalam hati memang ada taman. kadang2 aku boleh control and kadang2 emotion aku control aku. and for me to control myself and akan menyebabkan tangan2 aku sejuk, dada aku berdebar2 - ha macam sekarang ni lah. memang aku rasa tak tentu arah sebenarnya. tapi aku rasa aku kena control sket ke-excitement-an aku ni. ok perkataan ni tak wujud dalam kamus, but you get what i mean la kan.

he gives me that excitement and happiness but the fact that i know so little about him, from himself makes me make a step back.. or perhaps 2 steps back. when he told me yesterday "tun ckp, kalau makan, sebelum kenyang berhenti. baru sedap rasa nikmat. overdose of everything is not good" aku terasa macam dusyum kat muka aku semalam and terus rasa macam jantung aku drop gedebuk kat tanah. apa dia cakap memang betul and aku terus tarik handbrake aku. and bila aku borak jugak dengan EK, dia dah tunjuk muka 😠 aku terus suspen. 

perlu ke aku selfish sebab aku happy? or maybe, i can enjoy this moment a lil while longer? he also mentioned, brain and heart cannot come together, selalu conflict... **sigh** sekarang aku sebak and sedih siot... dada aku sakit. aku rindu tapi... aku suka rasa macam ni.. tapi aku takut jugak kalau jatuh.. sakit kowt... or maybe this can be a happy ending in my life.. siapa tau... khennn.. will you pray for my happiness? pwweessss.. 

tenggol here i come (part 7)

masa pasang regulator tu aku kan macam sure tak sure.. suspen siot takut kang tak bernafas pulak aku dalam air kan. tapi sib baik SA tolong checkkan untuk aku dgn LS. eh kenapa aku tulis dalam bahasa ni? anyway, time ni mata aku melilau jugak carik dia and tengok gang2 dia macam steady je. memang la style orang yang selalu pergi dive, bukan macam aku yang kalau dapat setahun sekali tu dah memang hoyehh... 

and time ni jugak semua orang memang buat hal sendiri uruskan their own diving sets. and i dont remember what we were waiting for. oowhh boat police marine kut to bring us to the dive site. we had briefing session and group photo sebelum masing2 berpecah ikut group masing2 to go to the dive site for tasks to be done. dah lepas ambik gambar group tu, i saw a group of maritime officers still hanging around kat tempat heli tu. well i dont know what its called - nama tempat tu, tapi korang paham je lah kan. memang nampak kemas and kacak lah diorang semua - al maklum, sis memang rambang mata sket tengok men in uniform ni. masa tu dok cakap jugak dengan SA, yang aku nak bergambar dengan diorang. and to hilangkan rasa malu, i tell myself, whatever it is, semua memang muda2 and i might not see them again. so what the heck la kan. 

memang excited aku ambik gambar dengan diorang sambil aku pun berangan that i am one of them. sure aku pun nampak macho kan? #silajanganmuntah 😋 dah lepas tu masing2 start hilang segan and start ambik gambar dengan these officers. 

i am one of the boyz!

okay time ni memang aku pun tak nampak dia dah. hhaahaha 😂nampak tak bila sis dah rambang mata. tapi dia pun entah2 ada somewhere kat tepi tu tengok gelagat aku yang excited tak tentu arah ni. 

and to be continued... sis dah ngantuk nih.