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This is going to be a mixed postings, be warned.

i was misunderstood when i had my dreams visualized in a form of a photo. i used to have a vision board - just so that i look at it daily and in god's will it will come true. alhamdulillah some came true and some not, yet. so after many years, i came about the vision board again. the difference is, it is on social media - goes with the trend, flow? whatever you want to call it. sadly, when that was what i put up, it creates chaos in other part of my life. it seems, my dreams - my happiness creates uneasiness towards others. **sigh** it disturbs me till now. i may feel better some day - but i dont know when. 
2005, i was relieved from living in a world of liars. people who back stabbed me, and acted as though they love me but behind my back, they disapprove of my existence? i don't like to be reminded how hard it was for me, but to realize now of how that circumstances has transformed me to be a stronger person, i am blessed. of c…

EMCEE for the Day: Awareness & Benefits of Co-generation Workshop

actually i should be thankful to my boss for nominating me as one of the participants/volunteers as committee. to be honest, when i first attended the meeting, i was quite intimidated by the attendees. ye lah, semua macam dah experienced jer and ala2 bosses level. nasib baik lah ada MS and mamat ni jenis sempoi and happy go lucky je. dulu masa mula kena mamat ni, dia ni pendiam. maklum lah baru being transferred to our company. rupanya bila dah biasa, sempoi jugak dia ni and jenis suka tolong orang. 
so one after another, memang aku agak blur tapi so far aku try not to miss the meeting. i love doing events. for this workshop kitorang cuma tolong2 je. and aku tak lah faham sangat pasal co-gen ni. but when the time comes to agih2kan duty for the event, dengan selambanya aku offer diri as the emcee. 
the last time i became an emcee was when we had a reunion for divers somewhere last year. itu pun bidan terjun. sejarah jadi emcee ni, was at dinner functions and also wedding. so when the …

AKO Fitness & HKL in Selamat Pagi Malaysia

i am thankful to Dr Ros and team for giving us another opportunity this year to perform and lead the ZUMBA session during their Finale, closing of HKL Pink October 2019. i am going to be okay by october, insyallah. maybe i won't be able to do as many songs but i will arrange in such a way that i will get to team up with the whole AKO Fitness team member and create a memory. 
this year, AKO Fitness will be bringing Abang Manzale who will be coming back to Malaysia in October. So for fans of abang Manzale, please get your tickets fast by 7th Sepetember 2019! HKL needs ample time to print your tshirts. 

KL Pink October merupakan acara penjanaan dana bagi membantu kami sebagai penganjur dalam melaksanakan kerja-kerja amal untuk turun padang ke kawasan-kawasan penempatan masyarakat berpendapatan sederhana dan rendah bagi menyampaikan dan memberi kesedaran kepada mereka risiko kanser payudara yang semakin meningkat kadar kematian di kalangan wanita.
Dengan menyertai kami, anda bukan saha…

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha 2019

AH decided to celebrate hari raya with me and family in KL. i asked him if he has plans to go back to his hometown. but since the off days are short, he decided to be with me during raya aidil adha. despite me being happy coz he will be with me, i am also sad coz i don't know what was joey's plan. AH has been so sweet, and patient with me (for now - i hope he will stay like that even when we are married 😜).
N1 bought many durians on raya eve. so after we are done helping out preparing for raya, i asked AH to open up 1 durian for me. so that night from 1 durian became 3, i think. by around 9pm i was already tired and wanted to go home. actually kan, i don't know how to write about this posting. see, cakap/tulis pun macam dah tunggang terbalik. 

dah lepas makan durian tu memang aku nak balik dah.. and i was also chatting with lisa at the same time. lisa was asking me if i am going home straight soon, i told her i was. but she asked me to stay a bit since joey is on the way…

Nu Skin Expo 2019

10 Aug 2019: this was my first time attending Nu Skin Expo. so many people, the place was crowded with anxious guests and members who wanted to try every booth for the spas, health assessment and also listening to the talks. i should have invited more people but i wasn't sure how to go about it. 
i brought AH with me coz i want him to see what the business is all about. and getting to listen to SR about the compensation plan is very exciting. and how much Nu Skin has helped many people in terms of health, beauty and wealth. 

Emotional Me

by posting this today does not mean that i did not have my good times or good days since the last i posted. just that at times, i felt that i cannot express my feelings to people who can understand how i am actually feeling right now. i am sure they have their own opinion but still, they are not in my shoes. even by writing these i have all these vibration and uneasiness in my whole body. my fingers became semi-numb and i can feel my heartbeat became faster than usual, i have butterflies in my tummy. 
by me being extra emotional makes me become insensitive about other people feelings, which is not good for me. the latest, for example was, last night* - and until today i can feel the warmth on my face coz i know i have not let it all out and let AH understand what i felt last night - which affects me till today. and to make matters worst, i become someone who thinks negatively unnecessarily and started to ask questions that may lead to unnecessary arguments.
throwback *, i did not tell…