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Grab the Opportunity

Richard Branson, businessman, investor, and founder of Virgin Group, says that opportunity favours the bold, a lesson that he learned early on, and has used to guide the Virgin story.
“If somebody offers you an amazing opportunity but you are not sure you can do it, say yes – then learn how to do it later,” he said. i attended a business opportunity talk with my sister (N3) and my cousin AN yesterday. each time i want to be motivated, i will attend such talks. there were so many corporate personnels who actually resigned or decided to retire early to do this business full time. when i saw ms nancy last night, she was a sales director of a private company, and she resigned to do this business full time, all her reasons matches my reasons.

at that point of time, i just felt like i want to resign immediately and do this full time. her talk was very inspiring and from someone who do not believe in network marketing, she is now 1 of the high achievers in STWW, NuSkin. Yes, the company is N…

My Happy Pills

takat nak letak ayat2 poem yang jumpa dalam internet terasa geli geleman sebab jiwang terover. walaupun sekarang ni boleh la kalau korang nak kutuk kata aku jiwang. kalau2 korang ada yang nak gelakkan aku sebab aku bercintan balik. tapi kalau ye pun aku bercintan, masalah ke pada korang? aku menyusahkan korang ke? atau korang jeles sebab aku masih boleh bercintan? alaa pada korang yang in a relationship - apa lah salahnya korang semarakkan balik rasa kasih sayang antara korang daripada static je. belajar mengappreciate balik orang yang sentiasa ada depan mata korang, yang jaga korang. 
aku pun kena jugak sedar diri - sebab dok sibuk bercintan dengan kamal adli, nanti lelama MrH jeles pulak... hik hik walaupun kamal adli tu tak tau pun kewujudan aku. 😝 ala.. apa2 pun romantik2 kamal adli tu semua dalam lakonan jer.. tapi kasih sayang, rindu and caring MrH untuk aku is real. kannn.. 
MrH has been my calming potion since ketiadaan Lisa kat KL ni. nanti2 pun kalau Lisa dah balik KL tak …

Quiet Weekend

It is a quiet long weekend for me. MrH is back to visit his twin brother who just got out of surgery for his shoulder injury. 
Today is my hair saloon day. And also my moment where I would rather be quiet, reading a book, or browsing the internet.. or sometimes will fall asleep on the chair while getting my hair color done. 
There is 1 cute maybe 4 or 5 year old girl who would just chat with anyone in the saloon. Rajin MrH melayan.. Entah la sekarang ni aku memang macam ni, kalau ada mood aku layan la budak2 baya2 macam ni membebel. If not aku akan bolayan and tengok je diorang. 
Anyway, sekarang tengah rasa letih exhausted, tak tau kenapa.. malam tadi tengok bola.. dok harap la Perak menang, dapat gak MrH cuti tapi malangnya tak menang.. don't like goodbyes.. but that is how we are I guess.. 

eh by the way semalam masa balik dari PCMC saw 1 nice bmw yang memang aku tak pernah nampak.. aku rasa macam futuristic betul kereta tu.. kaya betul depa ni beli kereta macam ni.. bila aku n…

Still not OK

last wed, memang aku sakit kepala sangat. dah start since tues lagi tapi aku tahan kan jugak. migraine aku kali ni memang extreme. sebab banyak sangat benda berserabut dalam kepala otak aku. so on wed tu memang dah tak tahan. aku try tutup mata kejap kat surau office, tu pun dah pukul 4.45pm and sangat2 aku tak tahan. aku panaskan eye pad kat microwave kejap and pakai kat surau. untuk relaxkan mata yang terasa macam nak tercabut. tapi seems like tak reda. aku bangun solat asar. masa tunduk tu, ya Allah ngilu nya kepala aku dah macam nak pengsan. i quickly keluar dari surau and texted my cousin if she has arrived my office. and since dia dah sampai aku terus balik, awal 3 minit dari biasa tapi memang aku tak larat sangat.

i told my cousin that i want to go straight to the clinic. sampai je kat clinic aku dah gigil, nak berjalan pijak tanah pun bergegar kepala aku, and i cried bila sampai kat dalam bilik doctor. dah tak boleh bukak mata. doctor checked bp aku naik tinggi sebab menahan s…

Alhamdulillah Another Year Wiser

count your blessings, orang kata. MrH awal2 dah bagitau, dia akan balik KL minggu birthday aku. which at that point of time, honestly aku tak rasa apa2. rindu MrH tu memang routine aku, cuma maksud aku, aku tak rasa pun birthday aku is an important date for me. mungkin sebab aku frust aku tak dapat fly ke USA on the date yang sepatutnya aku fly. 
MrH tanya aku banyak kali: aku nak makan apa? aku nak buat apa? aku nak pergi mana? and aku masih tak de jawapan yang konkrit. sabar sungguh dia dengan aku. memang aku tengah moody pun. sorry MrH, aku masih sedih dengan penangan anak2 since last week. but MrH tu sabar je dengan aku..and aku rasa syukur sangat to have him around. ni lah yang kita selalu dengar, Allah swt punya perancangan tu memang tepat pada masanya. Allah swt pun tau yang anak2 semakin membesar, they will have their own plans. memang la aku sangat tak sangka yang Joey akan ignore aku sampai macam ni sekali. keras betul hati dia and memang membuatkan aku tertanya2, marah sang…

Sepi

aku tau kata2 yang orang akan cakap, selagi kita ada Allah swt, kita takkan rasa sepi atau sunyi - atau omputih kata feeling lonely. tapi i am a mom. i know i am not a perfect mom. aku tak kan cakap yang i have done the best i could coz all moms (mostly) will do the same for their kids. cuma i wish i have not shared so much of how i feel with my kids, my sadness or perasaan kecewa dalam kehidupan aku kat anak2. i used to be much stronger when they were smaller kids. going back to history, i used to cry out so much outside of the house and when i am home - i will be the happiest person on earth coz i won't show those to my kids - my sadness. and when my kids have grown, i slowly shared with them how i truly feel about certain things - which now i regret it.

mungkin dalam pada aku share atau aku mengadu dengan anak2 time tu, it was too heavy or too much for them to handle? or maybe they were trying to be strong jugak for me - for my support but at the same time diorang rasa terteka…

3 Things You Should Do For Effective Weight Loss

Have you ever felt that you have tried almost everything to lose weight but you are just about to give up? Or you have already gave up? Do you feel tired everyday, feeling sleepy and it is not even 2.00 pm yet, not even half a day. Do you have short of breath while walking in longer period?  Losing weight can be tough if you do not have the correct guidance how to go about it. What I want to share here is, I saw my sister's changes. My sister is the toughest person for me to advice to lose weight. She decided to make changes when she almost fall asleep while driving back from work. She went to the doctor and she found out that her sugar level increased and until she was advised to get the insulin injection. She gets short of breath when she needed to walk up the stairs for her classes. That is when she said to herself, she must do something to make a change in her life, for her own good!

After the programe she lost 10kg and still working on losing more. She has the energy the whole …

My Low Season

i have been feeling so down for the past 2 weeks. 2 weeks ago i had a fight with MrH and it makes me so sad, it was such a waste of time arguing and fighting with him. i was feeling so tired. the long distance relationship is already a tiring one for me, maybe for him too, i don't know, but i am just exhausted. i am also already tired on the uncertainty, and now being far and angry. *sigh*  and baru a few days feeling ok dengan MrH, now issue dengan anak2 pulak. 
there are certain things about my kids and i, that i am not able to share with MrH coz i feel either he will not understand or he will take it wrongly. 
i believe my kids and i have issues bottled up even since my divorce(s). Lisa with his dad and Joey with his papa (i presumed) and i did not see this coming coz i always thought that my kids are strong and understand what was going on, but i missed realizing or noticing that there is a feeling of loss in both of them. 
bringing up children is never ending. even after you…

Setelah Terlafaznya Akad

i dont know why but now tengah suka sangat tengok kamal adli. since few weeks ago aku terasa kamal adli ni macam MrH pun ada. tak la exactly the same tapi somehow ada la iras2 dia... and sweet sweet dia.. currently ada 2 drama yang aku tau kamal adli berlakon. but tau2 je lah drama melayu ni, mesti pasal dengki mendengki and in law tak suka lah, and berlaku kejam lah. so, untuk mengurangkan stress aku, i decided to watch cerita 'setelah terlafaznya akad' compared to the other one. 
drama ni ada sampai ep 28 tapi aku baru sampai ep 6. after every episode aku akan emo. bila emo tu, kadang sedih sampai nangis or kadang sampai sengih sampai telinga. and kadang2 aku tengok kamal adli, aku jadi rindu sangat dengan MrH. lepas tu aku akan whatsaap MrH. kesian MrH, dah la sibuk study, kena layan aku yang meroyan just because of a drama. 
semalam aku layan sampai ep 6, pastu geram, sedih, happy tengok cara si Hanan (kamal adli) tu layan Nawal (Uqasha Senrose) padahal itu wife dia kut. …

Sebak - Part II

And due to this, I could not attend the training session yesterday. I know I will not be able to focus. Aku dah rasa that creeping feeling inside of me and I can feel that I can just burst into tears at any moment. (Actually dah ternangis pun) Kalau lah aku ni sihat 100% macam dulu, I would just dance myself out, or call my PT and will do my weight training with him, but currently at the state of my health right now, I have some limitations. 
So, I decided to do some walking. Nak jalan2 atas treadmill, memang muntah kebosanan lah aku kan.  Jogging and walking on treadmill is so not me. I'd rather sleep in my bed than doing something as boring as that. Tak leh imagine macamana some people can do that for half hour or so. And thanks to AA for accompanying me. Sekarang ni pun aku rasa I cannot be doing exercises alone, walaupun just brisk walk. Somehow at times, I can just get weird spasm which I cannot explain where and why. 
Semalam mengah jugak but alhamdulillah we managed to wal…

Sebak

i am at this juncture that i am feeling 'sebak' and aku pun tak tau macamana nak keluarkan rasa tu dari dalam diri aku. see, and i don't even know how or where to start, tapi aku rasa kecewa sangat. it sounds so drama, i know. i am not going to get into details or even general sangat. i am talking about me. tapi aku rasa macam aku dah make it clear what is expected in a relationship. 
there are so many reasons for a relationship to fail. kalau betul2 tak de chemistry, the relationship did not start pun at the first place. the most saddest thing to happen is when it fails disebabkan oleh surrounding yang sememangnya tak de kena mengena pun dengan you as a couple.

surrounding or orang2 sekeliling yang sebenarnya tak penting dalam hidup you and your partner, and yet, you let those, i don't know what to call it at the moment but yeah... those yang sepatutnya tak de kaitan dalam hidup you, affect the harmony of your relationship. berbaloi ke?
sekarang ni memang aku sedih a…

Determination

Original posting from my IG: @zin_ako
Getting there.. After discharged from the hospital on 17 May, 2019 - i had the moon face effect due to steroid medication from the whole 12 days at the hospital. .
To be honest, there are many mean people out there. People whom you hardly meet or even so called friends. Without them even asking if I am OK, they simply attacked me with statements on how I looked physically and how fat I have become.
Yes I got affected by those words. Why? Because I am already not well, I cannot do any exercises due to my swollen ribs and injured lungs that has not fully recovered. .
With the pain I had to endure, and people bashed me with mean words. .
Well I guess, I still have those people who have actually been there for me and morally supported me. #alhamdulillah#thankyou
After more than 1 month, I am happy to see progress. It may be slow and I just have to be patience but I am getting there.
#akofitness#prayforzinako#struggleisreal#strongerbyday#zinako#nevergiveup#ke…

Welcome "Upin"

2nd July 2019: the day "upin' was born. he is the 9th grandchild for my parents. yes.. a boy! our family ramai girls sebab tu nak boy lagi. originally there was supposed to be upin & ipin but unfortunately Allah swt has decided not to let ipin to stick around. so, tinggal lah upin. 
N4 yang preggy and aku rasa she had quite a challenging experience during her pregnancy. muntah dari awal sampai end of pregnancy. jenuh jugak lah. and her selera makan very limited. dia pun bebel and maki hamun tu - kena sabar je lah telinga siapa yang mendengar. not necessarily maki hamun about her pregnancy but other things happening around her. 
anyway, yesterday i went to visit upin. hahha 😁 memang la macam yaya.. so kalau orang kata adik yaya pun boleh diterima.  
presenting 'UPIN"! today dah selamat sunat... hehehe 😁

20 Years of Service - MCB

Pejam celik pejam celik dah dapat award for long service. dah jadi macam ala2 resume pulak posting ni. oklah aku summarizekan. i joined MCB in 1994 and tapi resign end of 1995 sebab pergi study kat USA in 1996. Bila balik time tu memang recession tapi rezeki aku dapat kerja kat tempat lama aku bekerja, MCB. so 1 Jan 1998 aku start kerja balik kat MCB.
today 3 July 2019 MCB buat Raya Celebration and LTSA at the same time. seronok jugak cuma LS tak de, rasa jugak kekosongan. al maklumlah kitorang selalu ada je. otai2 MCB... but tak pe lah LS ada kerja kat site, atau dia merajuk... jeng jeng jeng...
hari ni for the first time jugak time karoks, aku senyap je. macam tak de mood nak karoks. LS tak de.. DK pun balik awal pulak. but, i was lucky sebab dapat lucky draw KFC vouchers. alhamdulillah.
ini je lah posting aku kali ni. happy tapi kaki penat sebab lama pakai heels.




Bukan Cinta Aku

another malay drama that i got hooked on. maybe sebab shafiq kyle selalu tweet and maybe sebab nak tengok janna nick lagi. tak sangka dapat jumpa baim wong... hik hik hik 😋 dah lama gila kut tak tengok baim wong berlakon. pendek kata - terjebak lah gitu. 
agaknya cowok2 indonesia kalo bicara kayak gini ya.. lembut sekali pertuturan bahasanya. 
again, drama melayu, what do you expect...? cinta antara 2 darjat lah kan, apa lagi. so this riana the rich girl fell in love with his driver, arjuna (baim wong). bila tengok expression si arjuna ni kadang2 geram jugak.. macam, betul ke mamat ni sayang kat riana ni. i guess some men are not good in showing their emotions but the actual fact, they do love their women. is that right? 😁
so the thing is, kalau pun parent si riana ni bengang sangat dengan arjuna ni, bukan la dia tak berpelajaran pun, he could not continue his study coz his dad died, so tak cukup duit gitu. again, pasal si miskin dengan si kaya. oh well.. honestly, i do not think r…