**sigh**

she knows what she is getting into. this is only a challenge that she need to learn and that this is not even the real thing yet. this could be like a mirage. something that she thought she sees in front of her but when she reaches at a certain point, it is not real. the nice things that she thought she sees are not there. it could only be there to distract her a little while, to let her see other possibilities that she may be able to achieve in life. she sees this coming, she warned herself earlier. she guarded her heart. its okay it is still intact but what is next? still proceeding... going with the "going with the flow" bullshit? he may not understand or sees it coz to him, it is nothing...