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Showing posts from December, 2017

wishing for an awesome 2018

lots of pending posts on: malacca tripmy parenting sadnessmy plansmy studio shifting progressmy fitness regimemy happy pills
oh dear... and lots more... maybe if i still have the mood i will do throwback postings :D hahaha LOL 
i miss him.. please return him back... my happy pill... 


every day i will be opening my blog with the intention to update with lots of interesting things that have been happening around me. but somehow terbantut due to other responsibilities. and.. now got to stop again... hahhaha :D

hypptv and i

after so long having hypp tv being paid monthly..only yesterday i sort of clear up my issue. i am too lazy to study about the package. and ends up, i only have basic channel. since last month i have been buying video on demand which can be expensive for me.. like RM15/movie that i only watch once? but of course at the comfort of my own bed at home ;)

anyway, somehow i read a bit about the packages and yesterday i registered for monthly package of RM30/month and i get 2 movie channels.. i am so happy with myself.. hahaha :D so yeah thats all i want to blog about today. :) nyeh nyeh nyeh

my fitness journey

i sort of started again with my fitness pal apps. but still too lazy to update food intake. you must be asking then why do i even bother have the apps? hahhah LOL 😀 well, because i sort of plan to update my fitness ranting there. coz they have a blog too. so yeah.. i will try to update my fitness story there and not here.. or maybe depends on my mood? errmm.. **being fickle.. hahaha 😀
so here is the link for my latest update. i think you can have the option to follow that blog or maybe you will have to request first?

AKO Fitness Journey

moving mirror

the activity at my studio last tuesday when IH came with his team to dismantle my mirrors. Yup, he took all my side mirrors and place them at the new space in his gym. So basically i have like some art of AFDA there :P

migraine is my bestfriend

or some people can say it is called headache. but this headache was really really bad that i felt like my eyes are popping out. i wish i can hate him or dislike him. is that what he is trying to do? testing my patience? Allahuakbar... please please ease it for me. let me see his flaws that i can get him out of my mind because that is what it seems that he wants me to do. but being me, i always see positive things in people - most of the time. in fact when i was mentally abused, i still see the good part of my abuser. these were what i learned through my difficult time before. that i trained myself to be positive. the bad side of it - i get stepped on. **sigh**

can't be talking/writing too much about this because this is the path that i have chosen. trying to get as many distractions but nothing seems to work. is it that strong my feelings for him? damnnn

what has this got to do with the title???? it messes with my head - that is why!

tapi bukan aku

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