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yes he makes me happy. he makes me feel high in the air. but off-late i do not know where this is heading and it pulls me down. someone who used to cheer me up and accompany me during my down time has somehow vanished. i have become someone who loses my energy. i have lost my genuine happiness and i felt like it shows on my face and my attitude towards life. i felt lost in him. and i lost control of myself. i have become someone who is depending on someone else to be happy. not to say that i am not happy without him - just that when he does what he does, it pulls me down - sorry if you don't get what i meant. all i wanna say is i should focus back my energy to something that benefits me rather than someone who doesn't appreciate how i feel about us. at least that is how he makes me feel now. maybe i hope too much - on him and where we are heading. maybe i am not what/who he wants. despite saying all these - my heart is still with him but i let the Almighty to decide my next steps.
anyway what i am also saying is, there will be changes in AKO Fitness. soon.... when i decide to reroute my energy - good things happen. and i hope Allah will make it easier for me insyaallah.
19 Feb 2018 6.50pm: I arrived IVetPetCare to visit Minnie. Dr Atiqah brought her out of her cage, wrapped her in a blanket. I took Minnie from her arm and hugged her just like a baby. She was weak but she was able to open her eyes wide. I get to play and talk to her for about 20 minutes. Then i noticed her paws and ears are cold. I just had this uneasy feeling immediately. I called out to the Vet. One of the Vet took her temp... it was really a sad moment. And when the Vet said, "hope the thermometer can still reads her temp, or..." and at that time, I just need to accept that perhaps for Minnie, this is enough for her to endure the pain and the severe injuries.
Dr Atiqah advised to bring Minnie home, and just be prepared if she could not make it. When i asked her how much time Minnie has, she said, "At most tomorrow morning. If she survives, please bring her back for us to do her dressing for her wound". And i just nodded and just couldn't stop my tears alread…
I created this to collect fund for Minnie as the bill is getting higher and we want the best medical treatment for Minnie. For those in Malaysia, you may also bank in to my bank account directly as I am the one to takes care of Minnie's bill right now. This is solely on ikhlas basis and if you need further clarification you may contact Minnie's vet:
DR. KU NURUL ATIQAH
I Vet Pet Care Animal Clinic, Taman Keramat, 54200 KL
Donation via Direct Debit
Al Rajhi Bank
122 007 101 529 544
Nurain Mohamed Kalam
minnie i miss you. i went to the vet yesterday. yesterday the vet called me up to ask about minnie. and i told her that minnie did not make it. i wanted to tell them earlier but i would rather go there and tell them personally. even talking about what happened makes me cry again.
yesterday i was at the vet in the evening. but you are not there anymore minnie. it feels weird coz i am so used to holding you everyday at the vet. i can still see you moving around. i had dreams about you and when i woke up, i cried again. you are such a sweet lil kitty and a strong one. i am so sorry that you had to go through all that sweety.
mischa accompanied me closely since you were gone. it is as though she knows that i was very sad. rest well minnie.. you are at a better place... i love you so much.
last night mummy min gave you this. so i will put it at where you are rested ok minnie... **and my tears came pouring down again**