Tuesday, December 29, 2015

happy things happened

story 1: i was on leave last week preparing for my short getaway trip when my gfs whatsapp me and asked if i want to watch dilwale :D not  gonna do a movie review now coz not in the mood. and plus i want to watch the movie again.. hahaha i had plan made earlier in the morning so i told my gfs to buy a tic for me and if i can make it i will join them. just about 11 am something i was already in ampang park. i parked my car there and took the lrt. somehow this 1 gentleman just caught my attention. he was wearing a very light yellow working shirt, khaki pants and carried a knapsack. nothing special just a clean cut guy. 

so yeah. i reached nu sentral, went for the movie..and about 3 hours later i took the lrt to go back to ampang park.. and guess what? i saw the same guy in the lrt. when we reached klcc station, he got down and i was looking through the window.. and guess what? he got in again through another door at the back of the lrt.. and.. he followed me until ampang park. i wasn't sure whether i want to feel excited or nervous coz it looks like in a movie. i was not scared but quite nervous about it. but as i reached ampang park, i knew i shouldn't go straight to the parking to get my car.. i quickly walk up the escalator and went to one of the boutique and i lost him... ** phew**

story 2: i was at bandung airport when i met this guy.. who started talking to me asking about his web check in issue. i think i have this customer service label on my forehead that he actually asked me hahaah :D anyway, he was kinda funny and i enjoyed the conversation that we had during that short of time. somehow the moments made me feel like i am in a movie or a dream somehow.. until.. i woke up from my dream coz i kinda showed him my passport when i went for umrah.. coz i had my hand luggage umrah bag with me.. and... he saw my age... dang... i said.. hahahaha :D so, yeah, told him i am a vampire hence i look younger than my age :D lol

** still smiling after those 2 happenings in 2 weeks ** :) :)

dear diary - dec 2015

16th Dec 2015 to 29th Dec 2015: 16th Dec 2015 is the day that JoeLis left to UK for 2 weeks holiday. with the current currency, the activities with the current budget will be quiet limited. sorry about that kids. it feels so long that i also decide to go for holiday myself.. but that's not the story here.. anyway, as i am writing this, kids are already on the way home .. to me. i missed them like crazy... i would cry at times its so funny.. hahaha... gi holiday je kut :P but yeahh... life is so empty without my kids... coz i love them to bits.. now i know how it feels to be a mom.. lol :D

23rd Dec 2015 to 26th Dec 2015: life sort of sucks for the past few i don't know whether weeks or months or days... it doesn't matter anymore. and even my mood to blog has gone down. there are more not nice things happening around me compared to the nice things... which are my zumba classes are going well alhamdulillah... my family ties with my kids are getting much much better especially with joey.. i am so grateful. financially wise, it is getting a bit tight as now that i have my own studio. no more hoyehh hoyeh... hahhhaha :D all are dumped in the studio. a simple one but just how i like it. so yeahh... in my loneliness i sort of decided to have my own getaway.. i asked kaiser but he prefers to be in KL.. errmmm psstt i have a feeling he is afraid to go anywhere because of all these terrorist thingy... and he has this weird feeling that he will be killed by the muslim being a white guy... how stupid is that! anyway, since he said i can go alone if i want... changed the destination from lombok... to bali.. and in the end, i went to bandung :D so yeahh i had fun.. more of chilling.. no rushing but my plan to just relax didnt happen coz i ended up shopping.. owhh i love the photoshoot i had with Iis in jakarta.. i went to bandung, then we drove up to jakarta, stayed 1 night and drove back to bandung before i fly off back to KL. yeahh sound rushing.. but its ok..a short break and i loved it. i didnt tell anyone except JoeLis and N4 where i was going until i am almost home or i was already there.
we rushed to capture sunrise at ancol, jakarta :) it was awesome!
love candid photo that turns out alright... hahahah :D
Iis is so flexible and amazing..!
confession... i had back cramps after trying to do this!
more postings coming up.. i hope.. heh heh :D enjoy!

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

How can i not question?

Life has been really good to me.. alhamdulillah despite all the troubles that i have to go through, all the uncertainties which really upsets me at times.. the anxiety attack that i often receive nowadays... **sigh** i am still grateful. just that one thing that is still unfulfilled. how can i not question? i am just another human being... creation of Allah swt. i feel like i am stuck somewhere, trying to turn a new page but just could not find the strength to do so. ya Allah please grant me more patience than what you have given me, please strengthen my faith despite all the challenges that you are giving me. please do not allow me to give up hope.. and keep on praying to you. 

i am blessed with a wonderful unique family. my kids have grown up to be good children, alhamdulillah, i have such a loving husband although we are kind of unique to some people out there. nevertheless only those in mixed marriages would understand what i am going through right now. and i love him to the every second that i breathe. we had a surprise birthday celebration for kaiser during our company's gala last weekend. 

him being too simple at times, only allowed me to belanja him Nandos on his birthday.. so there we were at AEON Nandos with me getting overdressed!! but hey.. to me it is just not enough, he should celebrate ... and i just have to do more than Nandos!! so, yeah.. we had a lil party a week after!