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Thursday, January 31, 2013

hmm.. aarr.. errr...

ini lah jadi nya kalau dah lama tak ber blogging.. seriously people... i am seriously busy.. and owh.. some of you might say, busy tapi masih ada time for twitter.. for FB...for insta..and blog-walking... yes... memang lah boleh selit2, but setakat nak focus on writing a post... it needs concentration and the right mood.. :) if you are a blogger, perhaps you would agree with me. lain lah, if you just post whatever that could be whatever and you don't care whether it could be interesting or not.. but then again.. interesting to me doesn't have to be interesting to others too, right? hemm ok... so this time, i am just gonna write semua skali.. hehehe ready???

last week, on a friday, i went to work in the lrt... and guess whom i met??? taraaa!!! nak panggil uncle.. umur dia pun lebih kurang i jer... hehehe :D so... yeah... i saw him got into the lrt.. as usual, when i got stunned, i tend to stare.. hehehe sorry bro.. tak sengaja... masa tu, memang terasa je nak approach and ask, 'are you the blogger?' hehehe :D tapi mcm... aarr tak yah la kut... and now.. i felt like... i should have... coz i suka sangat bila dapat jumpa bloggers real life ni :) 

err... rasa macam tergantung je posting ni kan... hahahha :D sorry la... my mind is so full of work nowadays... rasa macam laju je setiap hari yang berlalu tu... 

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Airmata Rasulullah saw


Tiba-tiba dari luar pintu terdengar seorang yang berseru mengucapkan salam. 'Bolehkah saya masuk?' tanyanya. Tapi Fatimah tidak mengizin kannya masuk, 'Maafkan lah,ayahku sedang demam, kata Fatimah yang membalikkan badan dan menutup pintu. Kemudian ia kembali menemani ayahnya yang ternyata sudah membuka mata dan bertanya pada Fatimah,'Siapakah itu wahai anakku?' 'Tak tahulah ayahku, orang sepertinya baru sekali ini aku melihatnya,' tutur Fatimah lembut. Lalu, Rasulullah menatap puterinya itu dengan pandangan yang menggetarkan.Seolah-olah bahagian demi! bahagian wajah anaknya itu hendak dikenang.

'Ketahuilah, dialah yang menghapuskan kenikmatan sementara, dialah yang memisahkan pertemuan di dunia. Dialah malaikatul maut,' kata Rasulullah, Fatimah pun menahan ledakkan tangisnya. Malaikat maut datang menghampiri, tapi Rasulullah menanyakan kenapa Jibril tidak ikut sama menyertainya.

Kemudian dipanggilah Jibril yang sebelumnya sudah bersiap di atas langit dunia menyambut ruh kekasih Allah dan penghulu dunia ini. Jibril, jelaskan apa hakku nanti di hadapan Allah?', tanya Rasululllah dengan suara yang amat lemah. 'Pintu-pintu langit telah terbuka, para malaikat telah menanti ruhmu. 'Semua syurga terbuka lebar menanti kedatanganmu,' kata Jibril. Tapi itu ternyata tidak membuat kan Rasulullah lega,matanya masih penuh kecemasan. 'Engkau tidak senang mendengar khabar ini?', tanya Jibril lagi. 'Khabarkan kepadaku bagaimana nasib umatku kelak?' 'Jangan khawatir, wahai Rasul Allah, aku pernah mendengar Allah berfirman kepadaku: 'Kuharamkan syurga bagi siapa saja, kecuali umat Muhammad telah berada di dalamnya,' kata Jibril. Detik-detik semakin dekat, saatnya Izrail melakukan tugas. Perlahan ruh Rasulullah ditarik.Nampak seluruh tubuh Rasulullah bersimbah peluh, urat-urat lehernya menegang. 'Jibril, betapa sakit sakaratul maut ini.' Perlahan Rasulullah mengaduh. Fatimah terpejam, Ali yang disampingnya menunduk semakin dalam dan Jibril memalingkan muka.

'Jijikkah kau melihatku, hingga kau palingkan wajahmu Jibril?' Tanya Rasulullah pada Malaikat pengantar wahyu itu. 'Siapakah yang sanggup, melihat kekasih Allah direnggut ajal,' kata Jibril. 

Sebentar kemudian terdengar Rasulullah mengaduh, karena sakit yang tidak tertahankan lagi.
'Ya Allah, dahsyat nya maut ini, timpakan saja semua siksa maut ini kepadaku, jangan pada umatku.' Badan Rasulullah mulai dingin, kaki dan dadanya sudah tidak bergerak lagi. Bibirnya bergetar seakan hendak membisikkan sesuatu, ! Ali segera mendekatkan telinganya. 'Uushiikum bis shalati, wa 'peliharalah shalat dan peliharalah orang-orang lemah di antaramu.'

Diluar pintu tangis mulai terdengar bersahutan, sahabat saling berpelukan. Fatimah menutupkan tangan di wajahnya, dan Ali kembali mendekatkan telinganya ke bibir Rasulullah yang mulai kebiruan.
'Ummatii,ummatii,ummatiii?' - 'Umatku, umatku, umatku' Dan, berakhirlah hidup manusia mulia yang memberi sinaran itu. Kini, mampukah kita mencintai sepertinya? Allahumma sholli 'ala Muhammad wa baarik wa salim 'alaihih

Betapa cintanya Rasulullah kepada kita.

NB: Kirimkan kepada sahabat-sahabat muslim lainnya agar timbul kesadaran untuk mengingat maut dan mencintai Allah dan RasulNya, seperti Allah dan Rasulnya mencintai kita.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

kerenah org ke gym #2

loved the 2nd class of zumba. and yesterday i decided to join the banghra... hahaha... it was fun.. and i couldnt stop myself from giggling while doing the banghra dance.. wehh penat hokehh!! but after 2 classes.. my stamina is getting much better! lovin it.. mana nak goyang bahu... nak goyang punggung... pinggang... hehehe :D 
when i arrived at the gym counter there was 1 lady looking so upset.. i don't know what happened earlier lah... but she looked pretty upset.. and her way was rude. just ask nicely, cannot aahh? and at the changing room, she was with another friend looking at the schedule... with masam face... monyok..  tak puas hati... and in the class sibuk nak ajar cikgu.. boleh? :p hmmmm

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

kerenah org ke gym #1

i was thinking of this the other day... last week actually. this is the first time i join as a member in to a big gym. normally i go to small gyms, rm5 per entry coz i am not a discipline person. the thought of not going to the gym ritually and paying rm160 a month is a waste of money. i was contemplating.. it took me almost half a year to make up my mind... but since the package was interesting... i decided to join. moreover, kaiser has been too busy for me. and the gym is 5 mins walk from my office.. so i guess i'd give it a go... ermm no... i don't pay rm160 a month. i paid rm1500 for 12 + 2 months. and i got another month FOC because they did not launch on time. :) rm100 per month.. ok lah... anyway... 
there were a few of excited ladies going to the gym. and i heard these conversation at the changing room.

L1: huh... class starts at 530pm? our office pun finish at 6pm! how to make it?
L2: yeah laa..

hemmm.. takkan orang nak bukak gym pasal ko sorang kut... if you cannot make it for the 530pm... there are classes at 6pm.. or at 7pm.. or at 8pm... few other options there :p 

Monday, January 21, 2013

Sunday, January 20, 2013

get well soon ayoh

  • ayoh = dad, father, ayah, bapa 
  • mok = mother, mama, ibu

for those who are getting confused :p joelis' dad is from kelantan, so that is how kelantanese calls a dad. 

18th jan 2013: i was up getting ready for school when lisa knocked on my bedroom door. as soon as i opened the door, she looked like she just finished crying. 

lisa: ma, jom balik kelantan!
me: hah? buat apa? surprised with her request early in the morning. i thought she was joking. 

when lisa showed me the sms from her dad. my head felt so warm immediately. it was somehow like an SOS call that our support is needed. i have to think fast. kaiser was still sleeping. i have to wait for him to wake up first. my head was spinning thinking of how to tell him, that we want to go to kelantan. i checked the flight info for that day. got a bbm from my mom, she wants to go too with with dad..so, it's gonna be 5 of us.

when kaiser woke up, and right after he's out of the bathroom... i told him

me: sayang.. we've got to go back to kelantan today.
kaiser: huh? why? with his morning blur face 
me: my FIL... *rephrase* kids' grandafather is in CCU in kota bharu hospital, we must go and visit. 
kaiser: hmmmm... why do YOU have to go?
me: because i care...

i drove to my parents house after we got ready packing... and took the next available flight.

when we reached kelantan, we took 2 cabs to the nearest hotel..ermm actually it was an inn.. just walking distance to the hospital. lisa called her dad.. trying to so hard not to tell him that we were there.    after late lunch, we walked to the hospital, guessing where to go with the minimal information that we received from lisa's dad. 

as we walked out of the lift, the first person was my sister in law, KAni. she was surprised to see all of us! :) it was a pleasant surprise.. my heart beat faster. i do not know what to expect.. and at that point of time, not sure how we are going to be welcomed. but one things for sure, i do miss that family. i miss them a lot.

KAni: ehh... AIN??
me: just smiled... and took her hands to salam and hugged her.. apa khabar KAni?
KAni: sihat.. alhamdulillah..bila sampai?
me: baru kejap ni... 
KAni: aahh... mari... mok ada kat luar... nak jumpa mok? 
me: haa buleh laa... 

KAni walked in front of us to lead the way... and just before we reached where mok was seated... she turned and ask...

KAni: err tapi AK ada... tak apa?
me: hah? owhh tak apa... tak ada masalah... 

AK is my joelis' stepmom. whom to me, doesn't matter... i am quite amazed with myself that i managed to be calm and just be me. i supposed i have learned to accept fate many years back just that we have not have a situation where we needed to be face to face. and alhamdulillah.. everything went well. and because i know how i feel... i was okay. i have always wanted to see how joey's younger brother plays with him... boy.. he was a handful.. cute... and active at the same time.. :)

lisa was the first to go in with my dad, i think, to see ayoh in the CCU... she ended crying.. i tried to hold back my tears.. in fact when i hugged my MIL, it wasn't that easy for me.. joey cried when he saw ayoh.. we were all praying so hard for him to get better. i looked at him, and felt that it has been a very long time since the last i saw him. i don't remember when. we were afraid to hold his hand... with tubes in his nose, poked next to his neck, on his hands... :"( it just broke our heart... in my heart it whispers, "please be strong ayoh... we love you..." when he looked at me, i felt that look... the look like it was unexpected of me to come all the way to kelantan with joelis and my parents. 

well, that is what love is all about. the bind between me and their son may have ended, but they will always be my parents in law and grandparents of our kids. 


19th jan 2013: we woke up for subuh and recite the yassin for ayoh... to ease him from all these difficulty... 

when we visited ayoh again in the morning.. he was much better... and the last visit before we left to the airport that evening... the doctor has taken out the blood tube from ayoh's neck.. alhamdulillah... and he managed to communicate with us..

ayoh: terimo kasih lahh .. maghi...
me: smiled.. tak dok apo lah ayoh... 
lisa: smiled...
joey: smiled...
lisa: ayoh.. nanti lain kali bila daddy balik kelantan lagi, lisa dengan joey ikut, okay. 
ayoh: smiled.. molek lah... 

and that was priceless... the smile, the conversation.. the situation... just us.. and ayoh... and it was time for us to leave... although.. it wasn't easy for us.. i walked to the left side of the bed... took his hand and kissed his hand... 

me: ayoh... mesti kuat ya... ayoh cepat sembuh... insyaallah, kita jupo lagi...
ayoh: nodded slowly... yor.. terimo kasih lah ya... kirim salam semua... 
me: insyaallah ayoh...

and we waved goodbye... it was indeed a quality precious time we spent in kelantan... and it was really great to see, nana, thira, kak nor, faiq, fareez, kak yah.. kak na.. kAni, abang Zi, abang Din... and owhh.. thank you mok for lending us the car :)

and thank you kaiser for allowing us to go... :)

Thursday, January 17, 2013

something fun...

let's talk about something more fun rather than thinking of the shit this morning... there you go... :p i was hungry and wanted to eat nasi lemak... but kaiser was at klsentral... and he called me immediately after i texted him on my breakfast plan... there goes my nasi lemak... huwaaa... and roti canai?? out of the list too. nasi lemak has 500 calories??? and it takes about 4 hours on a treadmill to burn all those calories??? damn!!!

so... i had french toast & milo :p not that perfect because it was on a white bread... and aahh whatever lah... it was shitty because of the conversation that i had with kasier.. it just pissed me off.. ermm but to think about it, i wasn't upset.. i just need to get the message across. i believe that he will absorb what i said and he will make changes... if not.. then... come what may... 

okay...off track there :p as usual...now back on the fun part... remember i was telling i went to a 'zumba' class..? end up it wasn't really zumba.. maybe because of the crowd. so anyway...here is info on zumba and how it benefits us :)

Calories

  • Zumba workouts can vary in intensity, and calorie burn depends on an individual's weight, fitness level and muscle composition. During an hour long session you can burn anywhere from 500 to 800 calories. On average, a 150-lb. person can expect to burn 536 calories during an hour of Zumba. By comparison, the same person would burn 413 calories during an hour of moderate swimming, 477 for an hour of casual racquetball and 684 for an hour of running at a 10-minute-mile pace.

Benefits

  • Zumba classes are designed to be fun and high-energy, attributes that generally make it easy to stick to the program. Anyone at almost any fitness level can start doing Zumba, without purchasing any equipment. Most gyms and fitness studios now offer Zumba classes, and DVDs are available for those who feel more comfortable exercising in their own homes.
Read more: How Many Calories Do You Burn During One Hour of Zumba? | eHow.com http://www.ehow.com/about_5368632_many-during-one-hour-zumba_.html#ixzz2IBm6g4GL

 err... i am sorry if you feel that i complained too much :( but it is just how i feel.. if it wasn't zumba and people call it zumba.. it will be wrong.. don't you think? :(

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Pain everywhere :p

Time now is 1040pm. My lower body aches after an hour of zumba. Hmm I wouldn't call it zumba actually. It was more of group fitness + dance. How was it? ка̴̴̴̴̴̴͡K lah.. The steps were easy to follow. Maybe the instructor made it too easy so that everyone can follow?

Ohh by the way, it wasn't only for ladies. It was a mixed class which I think is more fun! :) maybe someday they will make like intermediate class or beginner class?

Anyway, it wasn't only me who has body aches. Joey too it seems. He had rugby yesterday and only felt it today. And I think he has some kind of allergy to sit on the grass? His who legs became itchy.

I am so sleepy... Can I sleep now..please?

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contented

i think this is how i feel right now. i have been truly busy.. meetings after meetings until i cannot even get to do stuff at my own workstation. alhamdulillah God has make it quite easy for me, for us. He has given me the strength and patience to take up whatever challenge that He is giving me. i am not saying everything is easy going, no. but it is just that, despite all that, there is a way out of it? i am not sure if i have explained it right here..but i am feeling okay :) happy.. relaxed although tired... yes! very tired.. when i get back i really feel i want a live in maid. 

hemm an idea... i just need someone to settle things for us. the laundry.. and kids do not have to feel tired too. urrmmm... clean up the house... but if i were to do that, kids will not be independent, right? oh well... we'll just do it lah...

sorry all, it seems that i am blabbering..hehhee :D i decide to come up to the office earlier than usual coz i thought i want to sleep...but i think i'd better blog before my engine starts at work..

oh...today is going to be my very first zumba class...i really hope i have the energy for it!! 

2013 - is definitely going to be a great year for all of us :) insyaallah...

Monday, January 14, 2013

hello everyone

hye hye hye semua... i am so sorry to those who came back here but there are no updates.. getting too packed at work. anyway, just want to update everyone that all winners have claimed their giveaway, although ada yang lewat, but for this time, i allow it ;) *wink* enjoy the top up ;)

now, back to work... lots of activities lining up. 

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Phuket Dive Trip 14th Dec to 18th Dec 2012

current mode: very very down... so, i am going to divert my sadness to something that i really really love... --> diving :) as usual it gives me that cooling calming effect. so, let's start...

i noticed know that i will always get what i want, and alhamdulillah, i got what i wanted just before i end 2012 :) that is dive trip. remember when i posted about i missed the bali trip with all my diving buddies? well, i then told myself, i must go for at least 1 dive before i end the year 2012. and yeahh... i went to phuket. 

for the first time since 2008, i went diving alone - as in, without anyone that i know. was i nervous? hell yeahh... and for the first time - i puked!! shite!! but... i have a good looking dive buddy :) ahah!! getting there ... getting there... and owhh.. this was also the first time that i have with me, joelis and kaiser. errmm this may be the first and last that i brought kaiser along. why? because i get sick when he is around. he complaints about this, that etc etc... and it spoils my excitement, and i start to worry about whether he is going to be okay or not when i am diving. i'd rather be only with my diving buddies or joelis :) i love diving and i thot i would want my loved ones to be with me and see what i do.. but if he is not happy doing that, i am not gonna make him come with me next time :) life is simple.. you always have the options. 

the van picked us up at 830am, i think.. gosh i forgot the actual time. at first i thought, demmm that was early, but it's like 930am in KL. so, ok lahh.. right? we reached the pier in less than an hour. i did not know what to expect and who is going to dive with me. when we arrived, a guy came up and start calling out our names. and i saw this guy...and my thots was like.. "heh heh.. he is cute" and lisa noticed him too... especially when he calls out my name and signaled  "you... are diving with me!" i was smiling to my ears.. hahahaha yey! temporary excitement there... chill chill... kaiser was with me all the time okay... :p 

the boat was clean and beautiful. i did not really eat because i was nervous. i love the scenery but don't really like the rough sea... bumpy rides i would say. i fought and not taking the nausea pills. gave kaiser his earlier coz he had bad experience when he went sailing in a yacht with his friends a year ago. as for me, i never thought that i would ... puke :( and.. i could not stand it anymore... went down to the toilet.. and bluechhh... yucks.. didn't like it. wanted to act macho but failed terribly... hahahaha :p 

and owh... the toilets were acceptable too :) well taken care of, clean.

so, i waited downstairs till i feel better... and IR (my dive buddy - who is also an instructor at south siam divers) told me that i'd feel much better when we go underwater later... and i know he was right :) and guess what, luckily i can assemble my regulator and all myself, otherwise, i will be hiding my head underneath my wet suit.. LOL :D 

it was a good dive... IR has been was very patient with me and he really took good care of me ;) i like... hehehe :D and normally i would be having problem descending, but this time, it wasn't that bad. the visibility was very good... the sand was so white.. and i saw a few creatures that just amazed me..subhanallah :) God's creation is just so amazing... and i feel so calm and relaxed. IR dived slowly nearby with his underwater camera. i brought mine but couldn't find the charger, in the end, left it in the hotel room.. good huh :p 

lunch was simple but delicious. i knew lisa might not want to eat because she is particular about the cooking, so i prepared a loaf of bread and tuna for her. luckily my kids are not fussy about food..except as long as it is halal. means, they can live without rice :)

2nd dive was good although i prefer the 1st dive. the water was much clearer. i had a very short break after my lunch before my 2nd dive.. so, i took my own sweet time so that at least it is more than 30 minutes after my food intake.. errmm my personal trainer cum hubby was with me, remember... safety first, he said ;p

after the 2nd dive, i decided to stay at the lower deck, in front of the boat because i don't feel so good. got IR stamped and signed my dive log book. and just sat there by myself, enjoying the scenery. about a few minutes before we arrived, IR asked if i want the CD of the pictures that he took. most expensive that i have ever paid for a CD of pictures and videos.. but, it is worth it! loved them all!! 

will i come back to dive in phuket?? you bet!! i will plan with my dive buddies.. and i might try liveonboard? ;)

and owh.. guess what... i did not float up this time.. yey! so, next time i must remember to pull that thingy at the back of my bcd.. :) and each time i need one gotta find the one with i don't know what it's called but to take out more air out of my bcd from the back? :) thanks IR for the guides :))

these are some pictures from IR's camera :) 



the box fish.. i told joelis, i saw a fish that looks like a banana :p
 


some pictures taken with my canon 500D
that's IR :)  taken just before we leave the boat
 


the upper deck... clean huh :) thumbs up!

 



that's my joey :)