never give up

when i thought, where is the miracle? 
and as i typed this, miracle isn't here yet.
i am almost losing it, losing faith that there is a miracle? 
i never stopped praying for it to happen ~ yes, one fine day i keep on telling myself.
perfection is not in my book because i know, no one is.
but why can't he be guided?
is it not the time yet?
when?
i hope not when i have stopped breathing...