Wednesday, October 31, 2012


Its so funny that when you tried so hard to do the right way and yet there is still voices telling you otherwise. Hmmm as for me, for now, my meal plan is almost a total failure.... Maybe i get only 20% of success rate... I just don't understand how people can eat like 5 times in a day... When i tried to do that i tend to eat more!! So how? Gone la my diet... And now i am so sleepyyy...

erti kehidupan bagiku

membawa diri ke perantauan. dengan harapan semoga perjalanan ini akan membuahkan kebahagiaan bagi diri aku, seterusnya buat anak-anak yang aku tinggalkan di negara asalku. 

ramai orang bilang, kalau sesebuah perkahwinan itu atas percaturan ibu bapa, ia pasti membahagiakan. itulah yang aku harapkan sewaktu aku dijodohkan dengan topan. aku terima topan seadanya. pada awal perkahwinan, kami bahagia. seterusnya kami dikurniakan 3 orang cahayamata yang comel-comel sekali. aku terus mengharapkan kebahagian itu berterusan, namun segalanya tinggal harapan dan kenangan. 

kesedihan itu bermula pabila topan mahu ke rumah ibunya, mahu melawat katanya. namun lawatan itu berlanjutan ke beberapa bulan. ternyata ibu mertuaku kurang menyenangi diriku. sungguh aku tidak faham. kalau tidak suka, kenapa dijodohkan aku dengan anaknya? ya, aku tahu, aku tidak cantik, kulit ku gelap, raut wajahku kasar. 

seterusnya, dalam diam, ibu mertuaku mengusir aku dari rumahnya. topan langsung tidak menpertahankan aku sebagai isterinya. aku tersangat sedih... terpaksa berpisah dengan anak-anakku yang masih kecil... berusia 12 tahun, 8 tahun dan 5 tahun.

setiap hari aku menangis. sehingga bengkak-bengkak mataku. aku menumpang tinggal di rumah makcik ku. mungkin kerana terlalu lama makcik ku melihat aku menderita, akhirnya makcik aku memberikan aku satu idea. "sudah, terlalu lama kamu menangis. usah buang masa lagi. usah ditangisi pada yang tidak menyayangi dirimu. ayuh, aku uruskan untuk kamu ke Malaysia. bekerja di sana, cari wang".

dan aku akur... semoga, pencarian kebahagiaan aku di sini, diredhai Allah swt. amin

anak-anak ku... ibumu akan terus mengingati kamu ya...dan menyayangi kamu, jangan sekali kali kamu lupa itu

topan, maafkan aku meninggalkan negara kita tanpa meminta izin darimu. sememangnya kamu tidak pernah mempertahankan aku sewaktu aku diusir ibumu dulu kan?

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Monday, October 29, 2012

carrot cake protein bar?


Serving: 2 squares
Calories: 94
Fats: 1.25 grams
Carbs: 10 grams
Protein: 10 grams


  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
  2. Mix flour, whey protein, cinnamon, allspice, nutmeg, baking soda and salt together in a bowl.
  3. Mix egg whites, Splenda, baby food carrots and water (optional) in a bowl.
  4. Add wet ingredients to dry ingredients and mix together.
  5. Spray glass pyrex dish with non-stick butter spray.
  6. Pour ingredients into dish.
  7. Bake 20-30 minutes.
Makes 16 squares, 2 squares per serving.


untuk 3 hari - my personal review

the promo was dahsyat :) and i am a fan of afdlin shauki.. his jokes are always selamba :) so, after watching the promo over and over again, i decided to send a message to D and told him i want to purchase astro first for 2 days and i will pay for it. :)

the 1st time watching it, i went..."what the heck??" and of course it was an unfair opinion because i watched  only from the last half hour of the movie.. hehehe :D relaks relaks... :p so i waited for the next movie time and watched from the beginning. 

in summary, it was an easy movie :) funny... cute... vanida imran was sweet... and shidee looked like a bit boyish, the way he acted... but it was okay :) and afdlin was selamba as usual :) and the rasa kesian was there for him :) hehe :D but i think, afdlin can do better... the dialogue was real lah... and like everyday conversation :) 

as for ayu raudhah, i think because of the not-so-nice stories about her, i tend to dislike her or her acting.. yeah i know it is not fair, but that is how i feel :) ermmm make up on vanida's face was a bit too thick that i can see that the make up artist tried so hard to cover her scars from pimples :)

conclusion: best tengok... ringan story... simple and sweet :) i like the house that afdlin bought for him and his wife in that movie...

and owh... for the record, i was already in the car that shidee drove :) ... tak caya? hehehe check it out...

yo bebeh.... like the ride? :) the car that shidee used. 

Saturday, October 27, 2012

aku terima nikahnya - my personal review

actually i watched the movie on wednesday, 24th oct 2012. original schedule was the week before but since my mom was not in the mood, we postponed it :) lower down my expectation so that i would enjoy the movie better. hmmmm conclusion? 

i waited for the moment for me to 'feel' it... that feeling..just not there... honestly i was disappointed with the movie. nora was good... her usual manja2 acting... but adi seems to be afraid to let go... let go of his feelings.. and at certain times, they both were almost there, but they held back...

there is one scene at the balcony where adi hugged nora from the back. adi should have been closer to nora.. there shouldn't be a gap between his body and nora's, well that is what a normal loving couple would be... for couple who are really deeply in love.

dian p ramlee & ahmad tarmimi serigar, best :) acting yang selamba and bersahaja... i can feel mom's love when dian spoke to nora as her daughter...

my satisfaction was when i knew the truth...when adi almost fainted at home, and nora's friend gave the medicine to adi. in the trailer, i thought nora's best friend betrayed her... i was glad it was a misunderstanding, although as for myself, i don't think i would allow even if my best friend were to hold my husband like that :p hehehe :D

guess what, my mom had the same opinion about the movie.. when i got home, i sent a message on adi's twitter.. i just needed to tell him.. i know he could do better... at least, i have watched them in tentang dhia... they were fabulous! *sigh* i don't know... but what am i feeling now?? i want to watch it again :)

arrghh!!!! aku tak puas hati!!! they could have been better....!!! arrghhh.... gerammmm!!!! 

Friday, October 26, 2012

hotel transylvania - my personal review

joey has been wanting to watch this movie. well ummm... i am not so much a movie/cinema fan... normally i would ask joey or lisa to go with their dad. but currently their dad is sort of neglecting them. yeahh... it is harsh but there is no better way to say it. i am just tired of telling him to see his children. truth is, no matter how hard kaiser is, he cares about joelis. at times even more than joelis' own flesh and blood... ahhh tired of this bull%$#7... 

back to the movie story, anyway, it was a good decision made.. that i watched the movie with joey :) i was extremely tired after a long day at the office, and workout after that... but hey... when i thought i was going to fall asleep, i did not! :D in fact i enjoyed the movie with joey :)

psstt... at first i was having this panic attack... where my heart beat so fast... because of all the creatures in the movie... sshhh... yeah i have issues with weird and huge creatures.. somehow, few minutes after that, i kinda enjoy it... it was funny... and the funny part... when everybody laughs, i just smiled.. and there was 1 part when the cinema was quiet, it was just me laughing... ermm... do i understand the joke differently? :p

i like the part where they say, dracula will say "bleh..bleh..blehh" at the end of a conversation.... hahaha LOL :D just cannot imagine edward cullen were to say that? :p muaahahaha side tracked :p and mavis, the dracula's daughter, she's cute :) 

staying somewhere near the cinema is pretty cool too... we walked down... and up :) an extra exercise for me.. and i thought i was gonna leave my legs behind!! arghhh...

it was a great bonding time with joey :)

Thursday, October 25, 2012

changes in menu

i got back from watching a movie last night (will review in a different post), and started to talk to kaiser about my food intake... so... what does he think about my new food plan below?

he said, "if for people like me, it is okay. but for you, you will get pissed! because you are a rice person. so i think i found a way for you, so that you can eat your rice, but reduce weight at the same time"

there i was waiting and listening to him... sound do-able... although... rice + pineapple?? just that?? hmmm.. baik makan paceri nenas... hahahah :D but demi cita2... i must reach my target!! i must!! i will do it, although, slowly...

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

meal plan for tomorrow?

erkkk can i do this? no more meehoon goreng + paru for breakfast? **sigh** hmmmm.... ok, i can do this!! i can do this!! :D :p chaiyokkkk....

Day 4:
Breakfast: Midmorning Snack:
  • Lean Body RTD Shake (chocolate)
  • Turkey Tenderloins (from the night before)
  • Lentil Soup
  • Tangy New Potatoes
  • 1 cup of Fat-Free Cottage Cheese
  • Peach Slices
  • Granola Bar
  • Water
  • Sweet Potato Salmon
  • Tangy New Potatoes
  • Small Salad
  • Frozen Yogurt
  • Water 

my inspiration and my aim

my inspiration :) if she can do it, so can i :)

of course she is much younger... but i like her body :)

let's get things straight. i don't need you to judge me. so, if you feel that i am whatever for having such dream or aim, you can leave my blog and don't ever come back :) and, what i am doing is NOT because i am married to a personal trainer. in fact by being married to one actually helped me in getting what i want to achieve. it is NOT easy... i have my own cravings and stubbornness :D (is there such word?) 

i don't give a shit if you don't like muscular bodies on a woman. i am not aiming to be muscular, just that i wanna be lean :) been reading that word ever since.. heh heh.. less fat.. YES... when i saw my body when i did that yoga stunt, i can see the ugliness of excess fat on my back - which is one of the area i'd like to work out on.
she has a nicer back compared to mine
look at the excess fat on my back... :(
so... ermmm i will blabber more later2... 

Saturday, October 20, 2012

morning walk at ampang tasik

waahh so full of activities... best kan? ... got up early for a weekend.. why? because we have a date with 2 other mommies and 2 other girls at the park.. and joey needs to run to prepare for his 4 x 100 on monday! so, yeah... we were there... i did not run or jog... but just walk :p and cuci mata... taught one of the mommies some basic exercises. ok lah.. 
done with that, lisa and i had our dentist appointment and i did some extra thingy for my teeth. man... what did we have for lunch eh?? ahhhh i made pasta + mushroom soup as requested by lisa. and later i went to send my car for service. kaiser picked me up from the service center and we proceed to FIT in damansara for me to register for my class... i think i am getting much better ... i need to be in better health and good stamina for the class that i want to register... guess what... when we were there, the gym was closed... so, we went to NZ curry house and have late lunch :p before kaiser need to leave for his next class. picked up my car later...and hmm what did i prepare for dinner?? goshh... what is wrong with my memory??? :o
joey yang maintain after running :)

Friday, October 19, 2012

my 1st yoga attempt

i must keep the momentum moving... took a day off the gym on thursday because the whole body aches! hence on friday, i must do something.. so, wanna try yoga?? what?? me?? yoga??

what do i expect? me, falling asleep.. hah hah hah... exaggeration really.. well actually, i do not know what to expect but maybe it could be boring because i would prefer something more aggressive. when my friend invited me and 2 other mommies to join her for yoga session at her house.. i took some time before i agreed to join. 

the music, yeahh a bit boring... but honestly, i didn't really have the time to listen because i was listening more to the instructor's voice giving instruction :) heh heh... and who would have guess that i can do half head stand!?? LOL :D it was funny... but yeah... not bad lah... i can see the fat!!! danggg... 

introducing my new journal

my way of getting or keeping myself motivated. i created a new blog as my journal on my working out activities. (like i don't have enough work to do lah kan... :P) i have a target that i made myself... due in 12 months from now. i have a few pictures that i took from a website that kaiser introduced to me. i find them very inspiring. so... here goes... let's see which blog i'd update most :p errmmm... perhaps, i will update less on my gym posting here. so, if you are also/more interested to know the updates of my working out activities, feel free to visit:

motivational comments are most welcome!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

azean irdawaty semakin uzur

i am a fan of pn azean irdawaty.. since i was young... i just love her acting. sangat bersahaja and tak perlu over acting :) i just love her... when i saw her picture on the newspaper today, terus sebak. i pray that she will recover soon... and for those reading this, if you have information on how we can help her, to donate, please let me know so that i can update this post. 

PETALING JAYA: Penderitaan yang dihadapi pelakon Azean Irdawaty akibat penyakitLymphedema mendapat pembelaan apabila Yayasan Kebajikan Negara (YKN) bersedia membantu meringankan beban kos rawatan seniwati itu.
Pengerusi Lembaga Pemegang Amanahnya, Datuk Seri Shahrizat Abdul Jalil berkata, bantuan itu mahu disalurkan sebagai menghargai jasanya dalam bidang seni selain bersimpati dengan penderitaan yang ditanggungnya sejak sekian lama
"Selepas mendapat tahu bebanan yang ditanggung Azean, saya terus bercadang mahu melawat serta melihat sendiri keadaan Azean dan ingin berbincang berapakah perbelanjaan yang dihabiskannya pada setiap bulan.
"Untuk hari ini (Selasa), pihak kami hanya menyumbangkan sedikit wang untuk kegunaan harian Azean dan akan melawatnya sekali lagi bagi menghulurkan bantuan daripada segi kos rawatan lain," katanya.
Beliau berkata demikian kepada pemberita ketika menyertai rombongan YKN melawat Azean di kediaman pelakon itu di Bandar Utama dekat sini pada Selasa.
Azean mengidap Lymphedema iaitu kesan akibat pembedahan membuang 16 kelenjar yang dilakukan pihak hospital ketika menghadapi barah payu dara sebelum ini.
Dalam pada itu, Shahrizat yang juga Ketua Pergerakan Wanita Umno memuji semangat pelakon yang berusia 62 tahun itu yang tidak pernah berputus asa dalam melawan penyakitnya.
"Satu perkara yang membuatkan saya kagum dengan Azean kerana dia mempunyai pemikiran yang sangat positif dan semangat yang kuat.
"Malah, saya percaya menerusi lawatan seperti ini daripada pihak saya mahupun rakan-rakan Azean sendiri, dirinya akan rasa dihargai," ujarnya yang merupakan peminat setia pelakon tersebut.
Sementara itu, Azean pula berkata, dia bersyukur apabila pihak YKN tampil untuk membantu mengurangkan bebanan kos rawatan yang ditanggung selama ini.
"Bukan murah untuk membuat rawatan yang memerlukan perbelanjaan yang tinggi.
"Semangat saya yang mahu hidup lebih lama membuatkan saya buang rasa malu dan terpaksa meminta bantuan teman-teman untuk mencari sesiapa yang boleh menghulurkan sedikit bantuan.
"Alhamdulillah, kehadiran beliau (Shahrizat) membuatkan saya terharu dan ingin mengucapkan terima kasih kepada pihak YKN yang sanggup mengurangkan bebanan saya dan keluarga," katanya.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

blabber time

let me start with... this ofc chair is so annoying... this is coming to the 3rd week, and i have 'tersangkut' my feet a few times with my chair. arghhh.. i am in my super duper lazy mode. it is just like when your parents ask you to study, and you know you have been studying, just that, perhaps, the time that you study, your parents did not see you doing it.. so, you get annoyed when your parents ask you if you have studied. :p joey might agree to this... although as a mom, i rarely ask my children if they have studied. unless i see them really too relaxed - for which, of course, joey will get this often. simply because he is too relaxed!
so, yeahh... i have been missing my gym session... i am so super duper lazy... God knows how lazy i am... why? because i have stopped... that is why... so, you people out there... continue exercising because once you stopped, it is really really dragging to get yourself started!! okay enough about me getting lazy to the gym... for a start, i brought my gym stuff today... whether i start or not, that is another question :p heee :D

i need to stop this habit of mine... buying and not act after that. i have been buying books.. the only book that motivates me to buy are motivation books... hahahah :D but would that motivate me to read? that is... a different issue to tackle.. LOL :D for the last few months, i think i have spent like few hundred rms on books, which is good. and my magazine that i bought is not cheap because they are fitness magazine... cheywahh... do you think by buying the magazine makes you fit? yes, if you practice them, and no, if you just sit on it.. or not reading it... i think, next posting i will take a pic of the books and magazine that i bought :p hahaha :D
next blab... in search of a gym... know why? i heard our office gym will be closed down.. baru nak semangat2 kan.. and contemplating between fitness first and clark hatch. now doing my research... till then, where do i go? hmmmphh... and after reading, i think i decide NOT to join any gym... because i fall in this category!! i am just crazy and  i can be an unpredictable person and also my work schedule. oh well.. i can manage my work schedule unless i have an event. 
Hold It (Think Again!)
If you have a crazy, unpredictable work schedule or are always on the go and traveling, then having to pay for a whole month or year is just not worth it. Fortunately, if you know your schedule, then the best way to save some money is by calling up your gym or fitness center and requesting that your membership be put on hold for that month. Of course, you need to do this in advance. Last but not least, honesty is the best policy. Be honest to yourself, your bank account, and the gym about your budget. If you can’t afford the gym, don’t force it out on credit cards, loans, or increase your debt in any form.
 so... there goes.... back to square 1!

i miss going to x'treme hardcore gym. and because i have not been there for so long... i am shy to go there now. apparently there are so many people at night.. looking for times that it is not busy. hmmm...

Monday, October 15, 2012

Happy birthday sis!

Today is my 3rd sister's birthday.. We had the usual family get together to celebrate... Heheh the funny part was when i didn't realized that the present that i got her has a snake skin design! Hahhhaaha.. Ngok la dia nih... And she dare not hold it! Can you believe that? :-P

Hope you have a great day today and many more days ahead of you.. ♥ yaah..

Ahhh i just love family gatherings.. And we are planning something else.... ;-)

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Eat less tip :)

Fitness Tip: Drink a bottle of water before you eat - Carry a bottle around with you all day. If this isn't a habit you have acquired, fill a bottle about an hour before dinner and sip away. You will eat less because you feel full. It's that simple.

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Friday, October 12, 2012

lisa's special time

somehow lisa requested that i take leave while she sits for her PMR. since i do have a few days leave for this year, i took a few days off... but i still come to the office half of the day in the morning. still have some things to get done. bla bla bla... something that i have not thought that i would do. i kinda enjoy it. in the morning i go to the office and lunch time, i will be at the school to be with her. not that we do things together pun. she will be there, in front of me, studying with her friends. 4 mommies, including me, chit chat.. heheh :D not bad lah... then while she sits for her exam, i will be at the surau, praying. hmmm.. confession, this year, i performed solat hajat the most.. heheehe #achievement. alhamdulillah and may i get to do more in future, insyaAllah. one more day to go and Lisa can partayyy!! yey... and so can mommy... hahha :D