miss you

really miss blogging... i feel like i am losing myself for a while.. it has been weeks... oh wait... perhaps... months.. i hate this feelings.. the feelings of dragging myself to work. i need to do some changes to make it a better place for me. is it all up to me? hmm i need to talk... but wait, i need to settle the project first.. *sigh*  i am not loving it... kaiser sent me a message 2 minutes ago, asking how i am doing at work... what can i say? i am stuck!