this not nice feeling (part II)

i think my mom knows that i am upset with her decision. yesterday was a public holiday, later in the evening i went to her house but i stayed downstairs.. and then i went to the grandchildren's room and tried to sleep. i did not went to actually see her. i just couldnt coz i was sad and felt being ignored. only later on i just hang around near but still could not start a conversation with my mom. then later she started some small talk. i became like a parrot.. one question, one answer. hmmm and today, i tried to talk more.. she responded but somehow i felt that she felt guilty. i helped her creating some form for her cafe. *sigh*... i hope tomorrow will be a better day.