let us start with the not so nice news first. one after another... it doesn't really hit me so much but it did make me some sort of, 'pause' for a while, and think... wonder... what should i do? *sigh* it started when last friday, lisa showed me a letter from her former school. she is receiving an award for excellent student and it will be given away by dato' zulhasnan. what makes me stunned was when i got to know the date... :( i will not be around as i will be away for my diving trip. it was not an easy decision for me to make. i have always be there for any of my kids' event. i never want to a miss a thing... children grow up very fast - and i want to be there for them. i want to celebrate with them. at the same time, this trip has been postponed a few times. my goal is to go for a diving trip at least once a year. and i know i will be extremely busy after this. looking at lisa's face expression breaks my heart... i wish i can tell you how i really feel, but it is unexplainable. i had to ask lisa to decide/choose whom she wants to accompany her for the event. do you think it is easy for me? do you know how close i am to lisa? but i guess, sometimes, in life you need to make tough decisions... and i am a person who holds to my word.
David Tyson Gentry: True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable.
although i am sad (it seems it is the only word that i can think of - but deep down inside, i am feeling more than that) i believe being in silent is the best way at the moment.