something is not right somewhere. someone said, it is not because of what i have not done, perhaps something that he has not done. so? what am i going to do? i cant... i just cant... i am feeling so helpless right now. enough tears... aaahhh ein... the emotional person. who isnt? most people are. either they want to show it or not. i am not ashamed of showing my emotions. certain things i cannot control. aahhh S%$#.... i cannot stand this any more. should i just give up? is this what He wants? i dont think so... what is it??? what???? what????