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the last day before fasting month

today is the last working day before fasting month. i believe most malaysians will not be productive during fasting month. everyone...well.. mostly.. those who are fasting as least will want to finish the day early to rush home for 'buka'.. people have been eating like pigs around me.. just because today is the last day of work this week.. and next week they'll come to work fasting?! what laaa...

i've been busy today at the office, as usual.. attending meeting already took me 1.5 hours.. by the time got back at the office, other things came up. biasa la kan... otherwise it wont be called, 'at work'.. hello... :P my sayang is so happy with his new scooter... hahha... yeah... we went to collect his scooter yesterday after work. he's cute when he gets excited like that hehehe :D macam budak baru dapat toys... ha macam tu la rupa dia :P tak pe laa.. benda baru :)

anyway, back to joelis... the story goes like this.. this morning, we were late again.. to school. it…

hate it

i just hate it when i had a fight with my joelis early in the morning :( this morning, with lisa actually... :( arrgghhh... i just dont like it... it spoils my working mood... my driving.. and lots more... and now i dont feel like talking to her. perhaps it is a part of growing up for her... gosh...

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just love him

hehehe... mushy in the morning? i dunno.... i just wanted to write something in my blog today. cant update about my bandung trip just yet. it can get very detail. the holiday mood is fighting with my working mood... hahaha :D ;P got lots of things done since i got back to work on monday. one thing at a time :) yesterday, AD came to my office... he was just excited about something. he smsed me but i was in a meeting. since the battery was flat, i decided to leave it on my desk before i went to the boardroom. by 5pm, meeting was over... i went to my workplace and when i was about to go out and talk to my team at the counter, saw him walking in, with his umbrella.. heheheh :D he looked like the guy version of mary poppins... LOL :P so, since i was still working, he waited for another half hour. made the call that i was supposed to make... it was not ready... tomorrow, the girl said. to cut story short, we went home in the heavy rain... my car was 'semput'... wanted to go to a fu…

commotion --> beauty

lots of fuss going around lately. but somehow, my mind managed to put some aside, or at least put them on hold for a while. they have been put in certain compartments in my brain so that later, when the time is right, i will deal with them ;)

one liner - i dislike politics stories.. :P had these conversation with someone we know in bandung.. he had the same opinion about politics, somehow. he stepped down from politics arena coz it has became dirty :(

apart from blogging, i do read other people blogs as well... some, i know them and some i dont. i only read things that are beautiful. blogs that makes me smile or laugh, or even blogs that give me motivation to move forward. hmmm that reminds me... i must look for that particular blog. it all started when i had an upset stomach this morning before sending joelis to school. ended up, my dad had to drive them as i was still in the little room... *blush* heh.. heh.. :P so, while waiting for my dad to come back with my car, i read this magaz…

kl - bandung - kl :)

ahhh what a nice break we had!!! :D and i am still smiling after a long leave from the office. this is the first time after many many years working with the company that i took leave throughout the school holiday. :) we just got back from bandung last week and i stayed home for the rest of the week. well, not really stayed home, i had my business to run :P
anyway, i just wanna say that we had a great time in bandung. joelis were really happy meeting their friends back over there. my sister and mom had a great time shopping. and my dad got to meet up with his long lost relatives from jakarta. maybe, when i have more time, i will share more about the trip in my blog. :)

safari.... the chilled place in puncak... the shopping spree... got myself a few pants-suits... my sister went crazy with the embroidery...

here are a few pics to share.... check out more in my multiply album. i have divided into 2 albums there coz there were too many photos :) :P


i guess today is just not my day. so much of thinking positive about things, but sometimes shit does happen. maybe.. something like N4 was telling us yesterday when her colleague actually fell onto a pool of shit!! human shit!! yeahh yucky isnt... but that was real!! anyway, i had another shitty day today... it happened too fast. its like... i am still trying to believe that today is okay... but it turned out not to be okay... F%$#!!!! yeup.... i just feel like cursing.. with the terrible traffic that i had to go through, and stupid malaysian drivers... bus drivers and stupid women drivers.. they can really make life a hassle!! and i ended up at AD's place with trembling hands just because i needed to control my anger from some stupid idiot drivers!!! and i wasted an hour on the road when i can go to the gym after work - well at least that was my plan!! arrgghhh... i am so full of frustration today and i dont remember when was the last time i got this feeling.

when i got home, i wa…

i have decided

to get away from the negative vibes... and... will not let it bug me. so... early this morning, i disturbed AD... heh.. heh.. :D sent him a morning wish.. but there was silence... hhmmm... okay.. continue driving to work... had early breakfast coz i will be having a meeting at 10am. before that i was busy with my claims... yeahh.. gotta have some extra cash after my holiday... hahaha... sure habis banyak punya... meeting ended early... so decided to repair my hair.. yeup... went to re-color. got a good price.. rm60... okay what... :)

and today, i had more time to think of what AD has said. and he has his points.. he usually does. :) only that at times when it comes to some 'other' things, i would not argue with him coz its pointless. :P and after yesterday's conversation, he put some senses in my head.

pause: just had a customer service experience with a credit card officer... hahaha... and i am surprised that i managed to keep myself calm... kwangg kwangg kwanggg..

okay... r…


it didnt turn out okay.. :( i bought hair color yesterday for my sister N4 to color my hair, but it didnt turn out ok... errkksss... and we will be traveling tomorrow... and i'll be having 10am meeting today and 3pm meeting... gosh... luckily we packed our bags last night. joelis got excited... they keep on asking me about the itinerary... all i can say was... we will be going there, to shop.. and shop.. and shop... and they both gave me this 'boring' look... hehehe... :D how do i know what to expect, i have never been there. all i know, its a shopping place.

well anyway, AD had i had our own sensitive moments yesterday... hmmm... and when i have things in my head but just could not get it out of my system, i would have this look on my face. and AD would immediately ask, 'what is it that you want to say' and i went, 'what do you mean?' 'ahhh... i know, you have something to say but you are not saying it'... and i went... 'hmmm.. nothing lah' …

things to do.... errksss!!!

panic button!!!
letters for customerscalling my prospectsreport on the event - that has gone off when my laptop hang yesterday!!pack our bagspassports... - all with me :D *grin*convert cash...errmmm.. thanks N3tidying up my desk.. errr... can i do that when i am back in 2 weeks time?? *dusyyummmm*

the roller coaster ride

wahh... good huh... right after the 'excited' posting, i got pissed... hee hee :D things have been moving very fast nowadays... 8 hours being in the office just ran out very fast! i have been interviewing a few candidates for an exec level in my dept. just have not find 'the' person just yet.

i got pissed by one of our customers. just hate it when someone was trying to twist things around and by making a remark like, ' being a customer service personnel, you should... blah..blah.. ' look, we are in customer service, yes but we work according to proper channel. some people, just because you are in a manager level, you think you know so much huh? and me, being in this line for almost more than 10 years now, still trying to keep myself calm and cynical at the same time. sendiri mau ingat laaa...

and yeup... since this is about the roller coaster ride.. and me getting pissed.. i was pissed off with my trainer yesterday. fine... i have been neglecting my diet and…


i am getting excited... and i am sure joelis are too!! 2 more days to work and we'll be off for our holiday... yey.. yey ... and yey... i am smiling... now... no... more of grinning... this morning, my sister N3 and i were checking out which bags to bring... need to pack our stuff already... and just now, i needed to go to the bank and one embarrassing incident happened... hahaha... :D got to go to the bank again tomorrow! :P

joelis... we will have fun!! i know we will... and lots of shopping to do... nope not for us... but i am sure it'll be for N3 and my mom!! they both are shopaholic!! we, joelis and i can shop laa... a bit... i already have in mind what i want to buy.. hahaha LOL... and joelis, their baju raya :)... shoessss... for me... and what else ehh.. oh yes... most important, telekung... i heard they have nice ones there.

and the tour... visiting places... aahhh.. how nice... ni yang jadik hilang mood nak kerja nie... but my desk is like a tong sampah already!!! aar…


cleaning up after an event is more tiring, i guess. needed to compile all the receipts... claims... and see how much we actually spent. had most of the time seated at my workplace yesterday. sampai sakit2 pinggang... hehehe... now that i car pool to the office with N4, somehow its better for joelis. not so much of nagging from lisa. hehe just needed better push factor for that. errr.... why am i jumping to this topic? hmmm.. dunno :P and thats me sitting thinking what to do next...!! hahaha :P

somehow, i missed AD so much yesterday... why arr? ehh... the nice amazing thing is, whenever i had this thought about him, moments later, his sms reaches me. heheehee... kira okay lah tuh.. :P

so looking forward for our holiday trip this weekend - me and my whole family. and will use this opportunity to expand the business over there too. lets see how it'll work okay. :)

went off to the curve yesterday after work.. around 640pm with N4... had things done there... women's stuff :P.... got …


aaahhh.... *lega*... thats how i feel right now. the company event was a successful one. despite only half of the registered customers/guests turned up, those who actually turned up had fun! i was so relieved after talking to most of them, and thanked them, they did enjoy themselves. perhaps i will post what i will write on the event for my office later on.

on the way home from KS, AD sent an sms asking what time we'll meet up on sunday. my mind was too tired.. replied his sms, 'at 2pm as usual if you like'. came back to KL around 8pm something.. was really exhausted and sticky. had a quick shower... forgot to take dinner... lepak with joelis... was in bed with them... showed some pics from my camera.. and soon after, i fell asleep ... zzzzzzz...

woke up a bit late... heh.. heh.. had to run a few errands... buying things for the lunch party that my youngests sister (N4) planned for her friends. ordered balloons for the party. sent joelis to their music class, while waiting, …

value of friendship

OMG.... i am such a bluechhh for the past few days... well anyway, have you ever thought of how much some people would value friendship? at my age now, i didnt expect myself to actually still thinking about all this petty petty things... but again, being a woman, we think of everything, even if its as small as errmmm bacteria?? heheheh :D

just wanna mention that i can be such a pain in the a%$ not that i want to make other people's life difficult, just that i think too much. so, the conclusion is, now, i just want to say this... 'jealousy and insecurity is not sexy!' :) so i guess whatever that he has said to me before has come true, what he is afraid of.. but its okay, life goes on..

action speaks louder than words

angelina... thank you for being my ears.. and for slapping me on the face! hahahaha :D LOL...

its a great friday!!

yes!!! i am energized after a full shitty day yesterday! yesterday was history... and today is a new day... AND... i am so looking forward for a successful event tomorrow in kuala selangor with the whole team of MCB and specially dedicated for WSB team!!! love you all so so so much...

and joelis... next week, mommy will be with you for a full 5 days 4 nights until you both get tired seeing my face!! hahahaha... joelis were a bit sulking yesterday coz i wont be coming home tonight. yeup.. i will be sleeping over in kuala selangor tonight with some other colleagues at the office as some of us will need to be at the park as early as 4am!! hmmmm boleh ke??? errkkkssss...

and to my buddy WN... i'd like to congratulate you for tomorrow will be a big day for you and MH... its gonna be a great new beginning for both of you. i wish you best of luck and may lots of love coming your way :)

as for me... i am just feeling so great this morning... :) things are in place... done all the checklist..…


bear with me okay... i am trying to divert my attention now to something either stupid, silly, fun, happening, or whatever as long as not the shitty feeling...
august 2008
june 2008
i prefer my arm now then in june... hehehe... :D and AD is right.. less make up is better... muahahaha... hate it when he is right. :P i can visualize his face expression now.. like so happy and satisfied like that!!! eerggghhhhh... minche!! thats what he always say.. :D

[4:44:40 PM] he says: are u ok ??
[4:44:52 PM] he says: u sound sad on the phone
[4:45:13 PM] she says: hi
[4:45:17 PM] she says: yeahh.. i know
[4:45:28 PM] he says: so what is happen ?
[4:45:42 PM] she says: i just love you thats all
[4:46:03 PM] he says: oh ok worry i have the same problem
[4:46:12 PM] he says: its not really a sickness
[4:46:17 PM] he says: (rofl)


just needed one phone call... and i feel much better... not fully okay... but i am okay... hehehe... silly me as usual.. seeing my message asking 'can i call you now?'... my friend already knew that something is bothering me.. and thank you.. as usual, it was my big mouth who said things that i shouldnt be saying... at least not yet, coz i should know that he wont understand why..


ein is feeling shitty again. and as usual when i get this feeling, i could not sleep. was in and out my room last night till around 2am. my mom was still having her body massage in the family room. i wanted to cry but.. i controlled myself.. :( aaahhhhh i told myself... i have other better things to think of. get rid of it from my mind... now!!! went downstairs, had my portion of xango... :D hehehe... somehow, it has relieved me from all those mixed feelings that i had and put me to sleep..

and right now... i am already keeping tears in my eyes!! shit... shit and shit... :( i was still working late last night.. and while i was working, lisa smsed me good night... and automatically i sent to her.. 'love you more than the whole world sweethearts. i promise i wont let anyone hurt both of you, okay. :*' and i became emotional again... i knew AD saw the changes on my face last night. and he knew what he said has affected me so much. and i hate it... and what he said affected me sti…


thats me!! :D :D now... right now... just before i pack and leave... everything is going to be alright... i know it will... coz... i am in control!!!

what would you prefer?

would you prefer your partner/bf/gf to tell you or do it behind your back? hehehe... what a stupid question to ask, i know. oh well... i dont know, i have a friend who prefers to do things behind his partner's knowledge. why? i guess if i were his partner, i would want to know rather than finding it out myself? hmmmm.. but then again, everyone is different. i am okay being friends with anyone.. but perhaps with him, i am still sore. it is not about me saying that he is bad. partly it was my fault for putting on hope... although he had said the things that men should be saying... or normally say... errmmm is it getting complicated?? heh.. heh... women are complicated :P i actually had this conversation with AD yesterday, and somehow it did bring me down and had me worried. i had my gym session yesterday after office... and it just blurt out of me.. that MB asked us out to join him and his gf. and AD's expression was like... 'oh ok...' the question that i threw to AD wa…

the mini reunion

- 2nd aug 08 at crown princess

got an email few weeks back.. asking if i wanna join for a mini gathering. all girls, no hubbys, bfs, exbfs, kids allowed. i was afraid to reply back to the email, coz i am not sure if i can make it that day... but SS called and i just could not say no... :) and... after attending the session, i knew i would have regretted it if i did not go!!

it was a wonderful feeling meeting the girls back after many many many years.... almost 19 years??!! all of us sat at the same table... everyone was talking and laughing with each other at the same time.. i was the first to arrive... so, i had more time to give out the lil door gifts i got for every one of them... yes... Xango singles of course!! :)

topic discussed were... the school days, all the mommies talk, jobs... etc... and we are actually preparing for our 20th year reunion next year! and i am so looking forward for that :)

hey girls.... i really had fun.... hope you girls did too!! :)

cycling in putrajaya

currently my brain is going through a bad traffic!! just had to take a short break for a while. too much craps.. so... lets blog!!!

i accomplished a lot of things in 1 day yesterday -
i helped my parents - entertaining the guests from bandungtook the guests for a quick shopping in klcc
i signed up 2 people from bandung for xango! wwwuuuhhhuuuuu... went cycling, fulfilling joey's request and having a great time in putrajaya with joelisthe day started really early at home yesterday. all parents for the kids from bandung came to our house for breakfast. so, we sort of had a garden party for breakfast. :) we had more than 40 people at home in the morning. had a mini juice party... and i really had fun promoting and talking about xango. they were excited about the mangosteen juice that i introduced yesterday. in fact, they wanted 3 boxes to be brought back to bandung, unfortunately the office was closed on sunday, so i could not get them the boxes. so, they just signed up, and i am orderi…

keep me energized!

puhleezzzz.... :( here i am resting - after running up and down.. at the office.. keep my brain working non stop - with lots of different issues on my desk - calls coming in - emails to be answered - booth to be monitored - joelis to handle

and now, i am feeling that my battery is going flat. no!! cant be... keep me energized... i just cant go down now... :( i cant... uurgghhh... joey has been calling me at the office today... as usual arguing with lisa. i was trying to keep myself composed, while handling some other issues at the office at the same time. i wish i have more quality time with joelis. i wish i can be home more often. although their crankiness can drive me up the wall! but... those are the things that makes me smile, when i am tired. those are the things that made me miss them when i get extremely busy at the office. oh well... dont push it kids... mommy has only little energy left!!! please dont challenge me... and i mean it :P

i just feel like shutting down now...…

have i done enough?

how much are you willing to sacrifice? sometimes we think we have sacrificed enough, but the other party will feel it is enough for them. be it your parents, kids, friends, or partners. i have always asked myself:

have i done enough for my parents?
sometimes i feel i have, but most of the time i feel that i have not. but from them, they have done a lot for me and my joelis especially! and i just cant think of ways to pay back their kindness except for praying for their best of health and happiness... at least as of yesterday, i knew my parents are happy...heh heh... N3 knows too!! kekekeks :D but at least i hope they know that i try my best to give them what i can.. :( i know i can provide more - just that the time is not now... have not reached the target yet..

have i done enough for my joelis?
honestly... no! that is how i personally feel. i want to do more for them.. i want to give them what they deserved. whatever that i have done for them, i feel like its only the 1st layer... i kno…


sorry guys. dont mean to start the weekend with something sad, but that is the reality. this weekend will be the last weekend being with the kids from bandung. and our house will be quiet again. well, not that quiet :P but since there will be less 5 boys in the house, joelis will start to be lonely again. :) for the past few weeks joelis have been having great times with the kids. they played badminton together, monopoly, game of life, poison box... etc... and this sunday we will be sending them off to klia. we hope, they have gained good and beautiful experience here in malaysia, and may Allah swt bless them all. :)